The night

"I'm leaving on Friday Bri. That's also why I cant stay the night. I still have a lot to sort and I am still arranging things since it's a huge change. You can understand" we are both quiet for what feels like the longest time and I can't process this new information today

"Brie! Brianna! Come on talk to me"

"And say what exactly?"

"Anything. please"

"What do you want me to say?"

"Come on"

"You knew these for weeks and you said nothing. You're leaving. I have no job, no career nothing." "Bri come on. You were working on your own promotion. I knew you needed your head in the game and I wanted you to be focused. Without bringing my stuff into it. I was looking out for you I won't apologize for that. This is not about me and you know it"

"Really?"

"I'm sure if you had the same opportunity you would have gone to it. You wouldn't even think twice about grabbing it" "You just promised to be with me through this" I interrupt him

"Yes I am"

"How? How? You're leaving. How's that being there for me?" I can't help it but I find myself shouting at him

"Brianna listen. This has not been a great day for you and I didn't want to make it worse but it had to be done. You had to know. I didn't see it turning out like this but it did. What else do you want me to do?"

"I want you to be here for me like I have been there for you. You can't leave me like this Derek please"

"We can still hangout. Change this bad day and get to forget for the night.it will be fun I promise" "You seriously expect that I can go out and celebrate right now while my life has literally fallen apart? Facing your friends and mine?" I can't believe him. He already told people things that have failed miserably now he wants me going out to celebrate something I didn't even achieve?

"What do you want me to do bri. My team and I worked hard on this. We deserve to celebrate I can't let my team down"

"How about me? What about letting me down?" I scream towards him. I can't believe I did that, certainly never happened before for sure.

"I'll check on you tomorrow when you have calmed down" he kisses my cheek, stands and picks up his jacket and proceed to put it on "Like that's going to happen. Or what you have a job for me in Germany over there?" I am full of the venom that I just want to poison him with so he can hurt. Get a little taste of what I am going through because I know he doesn't understand. He is not getting it. He has no idea what i am going through

"Goodnight Bri." and just like that he takes his leave and leaves me alone in this lonely silent apartment that I wont to be able to afford or be able to pay the bills for. Germany. I feel like I already lost him to it and I blame the damn country for it right now. I can't believe he chose her over me.