Mistakes Made

I head to the gym and take out all my frustration, pain growing deep within my bones and muscles, taking over my every thought. I look up to Marcus and he just nods his head and states "I think we are done for tonight".

I sigh knowing that he is probably right to call it. I look up to the outside and see someone looking at me, shaking it off and looking away. I decide to look back feeling a sense of dread pooling in my stomach.  I squinted trying to see who it was but with the tinted windows and it being dark outside it was next to impossible but I have some feeling it isn't Santa Clause and more like The Nun.

"Ariya Ann Rose!" I hear a shrill scream. Uh oh.

"Yes' ' I turn around looking like a child caught red handed. "How could you do that to me! Go to work and then here! You just got out of the hospital...ARE YOU CRAZY" I look away from her and see Nick talking to Marcus. "I just wanted to prove I didn't need your help all the time." "And look where that has gotten you, you look like hell"

"Gee thanks for the confidence boost"

"How long has it been since you took pain medication" I scratch my head not wanting her to know about Michael. "I'm fine" I say, trying to look around her to see if my creepy stalker is still outside staring at me through the tinted glass. Although I may be jumping to conclusions. He may not have even been watching me. My brain is probably just playing tricks on me.

"Look it's been a long day, we just finished up here and I want to go home. My body and mind are both exhausted and I don't want to fight with you. I don't want to seem like a bother. You have left your life behind to take care of me this past week and it really is nice but you need to understand that I will be fine"

"Ariya I just am so afraid to lose you" I saw the pain in her eyes and knew what she meant. I reached towards her and brought her into a hug.

"I won't leave you. I promise" I say as I wipe away her tears as they roll down her cheek. Nick walks over with Marcus both trying to make sure we are alright. Marcus looks at me and says, "Ariya, I think maybe you should give it a few more days. You may say that you are fine but I just watched you work out and I could see the pain getting to you. My idea is maybe the next couple of days whenever you get stir crazy get in a pool. Move around, do some basic exercises and we can start building up your strength. We all don't want to see you get hurt or destroy yourself. If you are going to do this you have to know your limits." I shake my head

"I know, have a good night Marcus" I walk into the locker room and grab my things not acknowledging my sister as she watches me walk out and get into my car. I turn on some loud music and drive home but instead of turning down my street I turn towards the cemetery.

I need to see my mom. Pulling up I take a deep breath and walk slowly towards her grave stone. I sit silently on the ground looking around to make sure the cemetery is empty. It's well lit for being so creepy. I sigh. "Hi mom, I know it's been awhile...I have been busy to say the least. I'm sure Sarah already told you... but I was in an accident. I'm fine. I think. It's been really stressful and I really don't want her to worry about me. You know how silly she gets about that stuff"

I laugh, wiping away a tear. "I really miss you... we both do. Did she introduce you to Nick yet? I believe that they are good together. Lord knows she deserves some happiness. Especially after all that has happened. Sometimes I wish I could hear some of your wisdom just one more time" I stand up brushing myself off and place a light kiss on top of her gravestone. "Stay happy wherever you are. I love you" I put my hand on her stone and turned to walk back. The wind begins to encircle me. I shiver and limp back to my new car that Sarah got me.

I need to make a mental note. Maybe that would make Sarah happy to go with me and pick out a new car, I don't need her money. I laugh silently to myself and get into my car and hurry home so I don't have to hear anymore from my protector. Walking in the door I sit on the floor and just hug Bella for a few minutes giving her face kisses and just breathing. The pain is starting to really hit me. I stumble upstairs to change and find my mail on my bed and a letter.

Went out to buy dinner. Be home soon. Love you

SR

I sigh and look through my mail. There is a package from Tobias enterprises. I cut it open and out falls a letter and a baggie of pills. I sigh.

Ariya,

Since we both know you don't want anyone to know how much you are hurting. Try taking these. I promise they won't make you feel lost. You need to get better. Please start.

See you soon.