Who are you?

The sun is up. A new day, but I won't say it's full of possibilities. I was up early  for my daily cycling but today I got a bit late. It's already 5 in the morning .After all the thoughts about Amanda, I slept late. As usual I took my cycle but this time I turned left. I had my notepad with me to write if I feel like to. On banks of Deep Blue river ,I sat on the same rock that I sat the other day with music in my ears. I closed my eyes enjoying the music and slowly rested my back on the rock.

After few minutes I opened my eyes and felt like someone was lying on the rock, next to me.

I turned my head in full shock and saw Amanda lying on the rock in my same posture.

" Oh my... you scared the shit out of me." I cried out.

" Sorry" she replied but her eyes still focused on the silently moving river.

" Why are you here? Oh, don't tell me you are again here to suicide."

" No, I am not here to drown myself, in fact that is not who I am. Yesterday I was totally out of my mind."

" Oh ok..... Then, why are you here?"

" I just thought that you might come here." She replied.

" You came to see me?" I blurted out. If this was a cartoon then I would have had two hearts in my eyes.

" Ya, I thought I could make a friend. My mother is so mad at me because I keep everything to myself."

" Oh really? But don't talk to me just to obey the orders from your mother. Talk to people only when you are mentally ready for it. Once you are ready, then go for it!"

" This is the first time a person is not pressurizing me to socialize." She said, so relaxed.

" You know what, I don't understand why people always want others to be active and be bright all the time. After all the world out there is insanely ugly."

She looked at me in way that I passed some secret personality test.

" I have to go. My parents will be worried if they don't find me." She said and walked to her house.

" Should I walk you home?" I shouted out from the rock.

" Nah, it's fine." She said and took her way.

Lying on the rock, I thought about her. She is so natural. She is not faking anything, each word that comes out of her mouth is so molded by her. Her beauty is from the inside. I admire the transparency in her character. The blonde, long, straight her, it's so light weighted and flies with the wind, I can see what she is going through just from her eyes. Her lip wants to utter a thousand sweet and fun words but she holds back everything. It's like she is getting used to the silent, mysterious girl she is becoming. Who are you? You are not the silent girl with only sorrow in your heart, you are something more than that! Every time she smiles there is pain behind those bright teeth.