A HUG

He didn't respond a word and kept on staring at the sky.

After a long pause, Lian started.

" Do you think we can hangout more often?" He asked.

I knew exactly where this is going. A part of me wanted to be in relationship with a boy who is just 'normal', no dark background, no hidden lies, no toxicity. But again, a part of me questioned me,

Aren't I the one who has a dark background and tons of hidden lies?

" Ya sure." I replied. As soon as he heard it, a smile was visible on his face.

He then slowly placed his glass on a stand and walked near to me. Is he coming to kiss me? I stood there as if I was completely clueless.

He finally stopped near me and asked,

"Why were you in his house later that night?"

My heart skipped a beat when I heard that. I didn't know what to respond and how to behave.

" What?" I blurted out.

" Why were you in Godwin's house later that night?" He asked the same question but this time with a stronger tone.

" How did you know that?" I asked with a shaking voice.

" That doesn't matter. Answer me Amanda." His voice was getting louder and louder.

" I was just there to check on him. He was my boyfriend, come on!." I replied.

"Wait, what were 'you' doing that night?" I tried to fire back the accusation.

" Oh, trying to put the blame on me? Amanda, tell me the truth. What happened that night? I saw you that night at his house and magically he disappeared the next morning. I thought to never ask you about this but I can't let it to stand a mystery anymore. If we are starting a relationship, then, this should be cleared." He continued.

"Relationship? Sorry, what? Don't think that you made a big discovery because the cops already know that I was there with him and they have already asked me thousand questions about it and I am done!."

He looked sorry! But he just unchained a depressed Lady within.

" You have no idea about what I am going through! You can't even imagine Lian. It's not depressing because it's beyond that. There isn't a single day that I miss to cry into my bed. Regret, guilt, love, heartbreak, tears and no one to share your feelings with. My brother left me and then the one and only love of my life leaves me, what do I have now? Nothing! You see me dancing and smiling on the floor but there are wounds that you can't see but hurts more. When will this end? I only got one answer for that, when it ends me. But, still I am trying to be normal like you and all the others. Out of all these thing I just know one thing, ' I am no longer afraid of death'. Maybe I fear heights or insects but not 'death'. It's like I am used to it. "

I was relieved for the first time in a long time. It was like I took out a big rock from my head and it felt 'so' good to be alive.

" Girl, come close." He said and walked closer to me as I took a few steps closer to him. He stood before me and gave me a big tight hug and that was all I needed!