Chapter 18- The Trip

Axel's POV-

I woke up the next morning to Judith crying. I forgot she was in here. I smiled a bit looking at the infant roll around. Although that smile quickly vanished when I realized what happened the day before. Mica was dead. And so was Lizzie. I quickly wiped a tear off my face and got up picking up Judith. I need to go out there to get Judith a bottle but how are they going to act towards me. Are they mad? My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "Can I come in?" the voice I recognized to be Carol's asked. "yeah." I said quietly. As soon as she entered I was fighting back tears.

I realized I didn't do all that well when I felt it slip down my face. Carol rushed towards me engulfing me in a hug. I sobbed into her shoulder starting quietly and increasing in volume. I ended up sobbing really loud resulting with Tyreese in the door way. After she released me I looked down. I couldn't bring myself to look at her. "I'm sorry." I whispered. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I said crying even more. "Shhh. It's okay." she whispered as she hugged me once again.

"I hate to interrupt... But umm... I think the baby needs a bottle." Tyreese said from the doorway. I looked for a minute before letting out a chuckle. I picked up the baby and walked to the living room. I sat down for a second just staring at something on the floor. The doll. Mica's doll. She had loved that thing so much when we found it. I thought it was adorable. Griselda Gunderson was what she called it. I was shaken out of my daze, quite literally. "Hey are you okay?" Tyreese asked. "Yeah, I'm fine." I said forcing a smile. He just kinda stood there awkwardly until I understood. "Oh right." I said quietly handing him the baby.

An hour later-

"Are you guys ready?" Carol asked strapping the baby to her shirt. "Yeah. The sooner we leave the better." Tyreese said. Carol then looked to me. "Just give me a second. I'll make it quick. You guys can just wait outside." I said not wanting them to see what I was doing. After they left the house I quickly picked up Mica's doll and shoved it in my backpack. When doing this I felt so much pain. I thought about all the people I had lost. Mica, Tanner, dad, Carl. I'll probably never see any of them again. But at least I have Judith. Oh wow the person you loves baby sister. Epic! The voice in the back of my head said sarcastically. I just pushed that out of my head and walked out of the front door. Without a word we walked away from the property and started our trip to Terminus.

We had been walking for hours with little to no words. I was starting to get tired but I didn't say anything. We were walking along trail tracks and my feet were starting to hurt to. "I'm tired." Carol said with a yawn. "I am too. But let's keep at it for just a little longer." Tyreese said. I just sighed quietly. That man slightly annoys me. To be honest I don't know what to think about him. About 30 minutes later I saw a small house tucked into some trees. "How about we stay there for the night." I said really wanting to stop. They both looked at me in confusion and then followed y finger. After almost a full minute of silence Tyreese spoke up. "I'll go check it out. You too wait here." He then walked away.

Me and Carol both took a seat on the tracks. I could feel the tension in the air. It was slightly scary. I practically jumped out of my skin when I felt I slight nudge on my shoulder. I looked over at Carol to see her holding something out. It looked slightly shiny in the moon light. I looked at her confusion seethed into my expression. "It was Mica's knife. I thought you should have it." she said quietly. I took it from her and started tearing up. "T-thanks." I barely managed to choke out as a tear dropped down onto the knife. I heard footsteps and looked behind me to see Tyreese walking towards us. I quickly jumped to my feet and dried my eyes.

He gave me a slight glance of pity before speaking. Great you made it obvious your such a crybaby! I am. Yes you are that's why Carl will never love you. No! Your wrong he will! "Axel!" I heard Carol exclaim. "What?" I asked jumping out of my faze. "Jesus. You scared the crap out of me." she said pushing me toward the small house. I just walked in ignoring my confusion. Maybe if you payed more attention then you would know. And it's back again. "Fuck off." I said not even realizing I said it out loud. "What was that?" Carol asked as if she didn't hear me. "Nothing." I said quietly. Shit! I didn't mean to say that out loud. I cursed myself. "I say we just go to sleep and get some rest. We can't be that far from Terminus so I figure that we can just keep going tomorrow." Carol said. There was no verbal agreement we all just simply put our sleeping bags out and laid down. I laid all he way on the other side of the room not wanting to be near anyone.

I miss Tanner and dad. Carl and Glenn. But they are gone. The thought of that made my mind go back to Mica. You could've saved her you know? It's all your fault. I just started crying and shaking violently while trying to stay quiet. "It's all your fault!" I heard a familiar voice scream. I turned around to see Carol. I also noticed I was in a new place. It just seemed like a white void. "No it's not." I said through sobs. "I had to. She was bad!" I yelled out. "Really? Because I think your the bad one." I looked up to see that what was once Carol was now Tanner. "You couldn't save me from the Governor. From what he did to me. I bet you didn't even try!" she spat. "I did! I did! I swear!" I yelled out. "Stop lying!" yet another voice yelled out. I was so scared to turn. I wouldn't I decided but my body somehow betrayed my brain. I had turned anyway. To see him. The only person I've ever loved. It was Carl except he looked different. There was blood smeared on his clothing. As my eyes trailed up I saw something horrifying. He was bit right on his neck. "Ca-" I started only to be cut off. "No! You did this to me!" he screamed at me with a burning hatred in his eyes. "It's not my fault." I cried out for what seemed like the hundredth time in. He kept yelling but I couldn't hear what he said as I let out a blood curdling scream.

I shot up to see both Tyreese and Carol staring at me. Oh look you woke them. I bet they don't want you anymore. "Are you okay?" Carol asked. "'m fine." I said simply as I stood up. "What time is it?" I asked. Carol was silent for a moment before snapping out of whatever weird trance she was in. "Around noon." she said. My eyes widened. I was about to ask why they didn't wake me up when that lovely voice interrupted. Don't ask. It's annoying. They already don't want you. Don't make it worse! My mouth slowly formed into a frown. Can't you just leave me alone? I asked myself. Nope. Great. Just great. "So according to the map Terminus should be not even a mile from here. We have come in contact with some very shitty people so I'll check it out first and come back to get you guys if it's safe." Carol said. And with that she was off.

Carl's POV-

Of course! As soon as we thought we found a safe place. Nope. Turns out there a bunch of cannibals! I was sitting on my knees with my head laid over a metal container. The scent of blood was all that filled my nostrils. I was starting to get light headed due to the lack of food and water. I was starting to drift into unconscious when I was jerked to my feet. Well I'm awake now! About 15 minutes later we were in a sort of train cart. We found more of our people! I saw Tanner and Daryll hugging. As well as Maggie ad Glenn. "Where's Axel!?" I asked worried. "He's not here son." my dad told me. As soon as I heard that my heart sank. "Fuck!" I yelled as I punched the wall. "Hey it's okay." Tanner said giving me a smile. How is she smiling!? "What the fuck is wrong with you? Your brother is missing and your smiling!? Get off of me!" I yelled as I shoved her away. I just sat back down in the corner while my father went over the plan with some other people.

Where is he! I need him! I have to find him! These thoughts raced through my head at one hundred miles per hour. Michonne came and sat down beside me. "Look. I know he is your best friend, other then me of course. But you have to put that aside for right now.-" she was going to continue but I cut her off. "I love him." I whispered looking down at my shoes. My eyes widened in realization of what I had just said. Fuck! I didn't mean to say that. "Oh." she said sounding kinda shocked before letting out a small chuckle. This put me at ease slightly as I looked up at her. "Are you two together?" she asked, making me blush wildly. "No." I whispered again. "Have you told him?" she asked. "Also no." I said. "Everyone get up. There coming!" my dad yelled. (I'm just gonna skip the gas part because I'm being lazy today.) The door opened to revel Carol. "Carol!" I heard about 5 different people call out. I just looked out behind her. A tear slipped down my face as I realized that Axel wasn't behind her. "You guys need to come with me now!" she said handing Daryll his crossbow. We all jumped out trying to avoid walkers and bullets.

After a bit of a struggle we were finally out. Carol was leading us some place. She said she had a surprise for me and dad. I wonder what it was. After about 2 minutes of walking I saw Tyreese with something wrapped up in his arms. It was Judith! "Judith!" me and my dad yelled in unison as we ran to her. I gave her a kiss and then looked around. I was trying to see if Axel was with them but sadly he wasn't. I walked over to a tree and sat down. I just put my head in my lap and cried. The next things I heard made my heart jump out of my chest. I jumped to my feet and swung around to see him. The one I've been looking for this whole time. Right in front of me.

A/N-

I am so sorry that I haven't update in so long. I've just been going through a lot of shit latley. I hope you guys understand. Also hope you enjoyed this new chapter.

Word Count- 1967 : )