Chapter 34: Self Deceit

                             ***Self Deciet***

"No na, pls say yes joor. I thought you said you are ok."

She said now looking in my eyes and holding my hands.

"Everyone missed you in school today."

She added with her eyes still connected to mine. The eye contact made me blush as I tried to break the contact. I can't believe that I'm actually blushing like a girl, I don't understand why she got this strong effect on me her eyes were like a spanner, they get me tightened whenever I make contact with them.

"Ok, how was school today? Gist me about what happened, did the principal announce the competition?"

I asked looking very inquisitive, I just want to be sure that the announcement had been made so I can know about my response.

"Yeah he did, and that's even..."

She responded and tried to elaborate, but instead of me allowing her to explain, I stupidly interrupted her because of my stupid anxiousness.

"Oh my God! And did they still do the registration today?"

I asked again as I pretended to be disappointed, I made this look that could convince her that I regretted not going to school today.

"Yes they did, and that's what I came to tell you, I..."

She answered again but was also cut shot again by me even before she could explain any further. This was her usual personality, not mine, I just don't understand why I kept doing this.

"Did they still close the registration portal today as you said it will be?"

I asked, I was actually curious to know if the registration portal is closed, that was my main interest, I want to know that it has closed, but instead of getting the positive response which would have been better for me, I got the negative. This was because Cynthia now felt that if she can manage to restrain herself from giving me this goodness she had come to give him now, if she can let it be a surprise which I will get tomorrow in school, I will be more excited and It will give rise to more emotion towards her from me. What a weird way to think. Babe that will only drift us apart, you are sending me to my grave.

"Yes they have finished with the registration and the portal is closed."

She said. Yeah, she did not lie, but she withheld information, and as far as I'm concerned it is tantamount to lie.

"Oh no! I have missed out. I just don't know why I have to be sick today of all days. Sorry, I wasn't there today, I know you wanted me to compete, I also wanted to, I wanted to prove to this school that a new swimming champ is here, but now I've missed out all because I had to feel this way today of all days."

I said looking rather disappointed. Seriously? That's the news I've been waiting for, I just want to know that I dont have to compete anymore, common, I don't want to die, at least not yet.