grade 8 ......: )

hmm....

his eyes are always glowing like two stars . wish i could just grab him into my arms and tell him how i feel for him and end all these secrets with a heart warming and sweet kiss .

"..its all just my imagination (hmph) " i think to myself ... "we are probably not ment to be together ,but how i give up my feelings looking at those sweeet eyes , that cute smile and manly talk ,which makes me melt in a secound" i think to myself . deciding what to do it to it now .

as i notice that i cant hold it anymore ,as im afraid that i might lose my chance . but still lifes holding me back when it comes to expressing what i feel . ....

"Hey....how you doing " i said ."haha...nothing much "he replied ... all i could feel is a sense of freight and a feeling of shyness in me . but he seems to look completely calm . this made me more nervous on telling him wht i felt ,so i jus continued with the normal talking with him .

"so you have any plans for the day ?" i asked

"not really..well i have baskat ball in the

afternoon with the guys ....thats all, why'd you

ask ?" he said

"oh nothing special ,just asked " i said

thats all that could have come out of my mouth . as i knew if i contined talking i know where i would end up by telling all my feelings and with no secret at all ( well i am the type of innocent girl back thn) but probably time changes that its not the same for all of us anymore.

" what are you doing ?" i said silently...

" Mmm nothing special ..well i have a few plans though.....you got any plans ?"

"well i havnt got any ... just me and my boring life ..... by the way ?"

"yeah ?"

" i have a question, ok ?. hopw u dont misunderstand me!"

" ok i won't , just spill it out "

" ok.....so ..... i ... have a friend who likes this boy but shes finding a way to confess it . what do you think she should do ?"

" well it depends on the guy i think "

" well hes a guy just like you who likes to play basketball all the time and is super fun ..."

" hmm .....well then she better keep ot secret "

" whys tht?."

" oh nothing special but if hes so handsome( oh please he was so self centered) as me then probably many girls would get jealous and cause her many problems "

"hehe...good joke ....but it wasnt that funny."

"anyways have any more prob just tell me "

"ok ...bye "

my conversations are always plain . all these end up by me going back home and having regrets for not telling him a milion things that i wish i told . well thn probably i make up my mind

" todays probably not the day " i tell myself.

but deep down there you might feel that same yearning feeling and wanting to tell him all and feeel free of mind . but probably ots not the time .

but I've always got this question on my head

" will he really leave me ,even as a friend ?, if school ends i wont be able to see him at all , how am i going to love :( ...

well what do you think of it . should i propose .or should i make him fall inlove with me first . probably if might help me right?