Quack psychologist

[Havien's POV]

It has been exactly 1 week, 16 hours, 15 mins, and 23 seconds since I met up with Aster Crimsonwhite.

Although I would like to say that I have grasped my current situation well, unfortunately, the reality is far from that.

I'm confused, utterly confused. For the first time in my life, I can't seem to predict what will happen next.

So far whatever the guy named Aster has done, makes no sense at all. It's entirely out of my calculations.

You might be wondering just what exactly this psychologist has done to leave me, the greatest genius of all time, baffled, the answer to that is,

Nothing.

So far, he has done absolutely nothing.

In this ENTIRE WEEK, I have done absolutely NOTHING worthwhile. I have been completely wasting my time.

I came with the expectation that he would teach me the mindsets of soldiers which will help me in the future in the war against terrorists, but, all I have been doing is playing video games.

Not just video games, but reading manga, light novels, playing board games, and other utter wastes of time.

I came here with the orders that I will obey every command of the guy named Aster Crimsonwhite, who would in turn teach me stuff about soldiers and their state of mind on a battlefield, which is something only a renowned psychologist will be able to teach me, rather than a normal teacher. I know the reason why, it's because normal teachers can't teach a person like me.

To be honest, I know that I have one defective flaw. Those are emotions. It's not like I'm a psychopath that can't even sense the barest of emotions, but I'm aware that I'm extremely insensitive to the feelings of others. My own emotions are extremely weak too, and the logical part of my mind dictates most of my decisions, even if it contradicts the wishes of others.

Such a mindset might lead to my disobedience to the higher-ups and poor military management. In short, I came here to become a more competent commander rather than a mindless tool.

Even though I know these things, it's also not the case that I have the will to rebel against this extremely obvious grooming. From a very early age, my purpose has been drilled into me. I'm aware that the mental conditioning I'm ordered to go through is beneficial for my purpose, which is to become the ultimate weapon of the UN.

A tool does not need feelings or his own will. But if the UN could have defeated the rising terrorists with a tool, they would have already done so. They need a puppet leader, a living weapon, who is competent enough to lead the UN to victory, while at the same time, obedient enough to carry out every order of the higher-ups faithfully.

Let me simplify it for you, the UN plans to add the understanding of human emotions into the logical part of my brain, which will ensure a competent leader, while keeping my own emotions weak, which will keep me from going out of their control.

Such tactics might make you think that the UN is a corrupt 'good' organization, but I can tell it's not. The UN is composed of leaders of various nations who are willing to take despicable, immoral actions and suffer in the pits of hell in the afterlife, all for the sake of their country. They are the furthest thing from corruption.

If they are taken hostage for their state secrets with no other way out, the first thing they'll do is bite their tongues off and commit suicide. They have that kind of twisted loyalty and devotion. Furthermore, they are competent people.

Oh, we were going off topic, back to Aster Crimsonwhite. So far, he has done nothing of the teaching or mental conditioning which is his job. I'm starting to suspect that this guy is just freeloading the money off of the UN. All he has done is play video games with me and talk about things like anime, which he has also ordered me to watch.

I'm starting to suspect that instead of making me a good commander, he's trying to turn me into an otaku.

Stuff like this is fine, I don't really care because I'm pretty sure that he will be 'cleaned up' if he fails to do his job and lazes around. But there is one thing that somewhat infuriates me.

Why can't I beat him in simple things like video games?

Over the last week, I have played 276 matches with him in multiple different games. I have managed to win one. Only one.

I'm pretty sure I won that because he went easy on me.

This is such a mystery to me. I should be able to beat him. Not to brag, but I'm pretty sure that I have the greatest learning ability ever seen in all of mankind. Even those deep learning AIs can't compare to me. I'm a natural genius. Peerless. Others are no match in front of me. The greatest of all time. Even my physical ability and reflexes are many times greater than normal people's. I'm just that great.

So why can't I beat him?

One day, I asked this exact question to Aster. He replied,

"Because you are a noob."

Hah, he's insulting me. At first, I brushed it off and didn't take it to heart. But now, I think back, and I realized that I don't actually even know what he insulted me with. I don't even know what 'noob' means.

Let's search it up.

Noob: A person who is inexperienced in a particular sphere or activity, especially computing or gaming.

...Come to think of it, whenever I felt like I got the hang of the game, he would switch the game saying that 'You're so bad I got bored' or 'Let me pick another game which is easier for you.'

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This Motherfucker.