Deep inside me

Deep inside me are things no one can imagine

And no one can save me from the place that I'm in

Others notice but they just don't care

Others see but they don't want to hear

I think these thoughts would kill me overtime

Still thinking of things even words that will rhyme

To the feelings I feel deep inside me

To the thoughts that are slowly consuming me

Pitying myself with the ways that I feel

Still really thinking that I can heal

Clouded by the thoughts of jealousy

Who can really help? I know it'll still be me

No proper ending to this as this is me right now

Miserable, insecure and keep asking the word how

Hurting and breaking from the inside

With a fake smile for me to hide

Unsure, uncertain with things to come

I want to be wasted with wine and rum

No answers yet to make me feel better

Still hoping for a better tomorrow like the weather ;