Losing oneself, Pt. Her

I woke up from pain. My whole body was nothing more than a single flame of pain. At first, I thought I was still dwelling within my lost memories, but after a while I realized that this was not the case. I slowly opened my eyes and saw a filthy animal that wore the face of a human. This monkey, that thought of himself as a human being was laying above me and constantly pounding into me, as if he was trying to punch me with his dick. Fear, anger and a slight tinge of hopelessness were in the motion of coming to the surface at my lake of emotions.

Still they didn't even touch the surface for a second before a blue light shone in a thunder like way. The emotions immediately subsided. Avoid of all emotions I could just stare him into the eyes.

Even so, the blue light did not diminish with the disappearance of my emotions. In contrast, it got stronger. When it was so bright in my mind, that I could only sense the blue light anymore, it appeared in the physical world. At first it was only visible as a faint fluctuation in my eyes. With time passing, it went on to my head and then further down, until my whole body was under its influence. It was like I have seen in the video or the memory, which I relived. A symmetrical system with clear direction changes. Some spectators would compare it to some futuristic images of technological systems that they have seen before. Furthermore, it wasn't "around" my body but rather came from within. He only realized it, after my whole Body was under its effect. At this point my physical body started to dissolve and merge with the surroundings. He lifted his gaze, seemingly becoming human again and looked into my eyes. He was terrified to death. I couldn't even be happy about the revenge I got, because the blue light was still hindering any emotions from forming. I knew the blue light wouldn't stop at dissolving my body and I was right. It began merging into the technology around. Little specks of light would glow up and then form a line, in which they flew to whatever technology they could connected to. Slowly beginning from my feet, my image in this world dissolved. He was by now as pale as snow and eyes unnatural big. The only anomality in this process where my eyes. They didn't dissolve and with them, my consciousness stayed too. Still they would form a connection to technology, as if the nerve, that was connected to my body before, was now connected to the nearest technology around. After that my eyes would lose their physical form but reshape them self out of this mysterious blue light. At this point a connection formed, and to this moment it is still a mystery to me, what exactly is on the other side of the connection. The only thing I know is that they are many. Many thoughts, many voices, many minds, I could hear them all. When my eyes looked back at the pale, frightened animal in front of me, I felt like he needed to know.

A voice that came from everywhere at the same time and that was definitely not my own said the things I thought.

"You won't escape my eyes and with that you won't escape your guilt anymore. Your sin was judged by us."