The Fan Boy

- CIX - {Seunghun}

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Hi!

Hi?

Your a Cix fan account? So are you a fix?

Yeah, are you?

Omg yes! We Stan talented rookies😤✊ whose your bias?

BX, you?

Seunghun, I would literally let him fuck me till I'm dead.

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: Seunghun's POV :

"Oh my fucking god!" I yell after pretty much choking on my water and then I receive a slap on the back of the head.

"Watch it hyung!" Yonghee went off only for me to slap him in the arm.

"The hell you yelling at your hyung for?!"

"Because hyunsuk is on a vlive! Stupid!" I whiten my eyes and shock.

"Oh God, where." Yonghee points to the living room where Hyunsuk was staring at me in shock. I don't curse that much...so I guess it caught him off guard. I get up from my seat in the kitchen and walk to Hyunsuk and turn to the camera.

"Everyone, bye." I smile sweetly before quickly turning off the camera & falling into the floor.

"We have a closet with good lighting and it's soundproof and you can borrow a studio too. Why in the living room knowing me and Byoung hyung have bad mouths. Should have told us." I collapsed to the floor will scolding our youngest.

"I told you hyung, and plus Byoung hyung left just in case he did curse." Hyunsuk fights back.

" Lucky him... Me cursing on a vlive is going to be everywhere." I groan and throw my face to the floor.

"Hyung is this how all FIX's act?" Jinyoung said with my phone in his hands. Shock and fear of it on his face. I take my phone and shrug causing Yonghee to look real quick.

"Fix_tge earth..." Yonghee pulls out his phone and smiles.

"Wow, he's cute though." He shows the Boyz profile and I smile.

"Yeah, he kind of is huh?" Right then, my phone goes off and I pull it to where I can see and Jinyoung, Yonghee, and Hyunsuk are already up my ass watching too.

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Hello?

Sorry if I made you uncomfortable...

He's just my ultimate bias :')

Like I already married him in my mind.

Plz don't judge me :(

I'm not, it's fine. Just talking to some friends.

Oh, good! Well I'm Park Baeksoon and you are?

For now just call me by my user name, cool?

Bet.

So can I just call you Bliss since your username is CIXbliss?

Yeah sure.

Anyway I got to get going, talk to you later Bliss!

K bai!

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"Baeksoon...he's interesting," Yonghee smirked and walked away.

"Yeah, I wanna know more about him." I'm almost to myself causing Jinyoung and Hyunsuk to chuckle lightly and leave the room.

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two weeks I've been talking to him and I get a tingly feeling when we talk and every message makes me smile. The others tell me that I like him but I don't know. Also, we have a concert and fan meeting coming up soon so I won't be able to talk to him on those days.

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Omg I hate you

I hate life

I hate everyone!

Life sucks!!

I can hear your sobs from here, what's wrong?

CIX is having a concert and fan meeting and I'm still poor as shit.

What should I do?? Just wait till the pictures and videos get posted. :'(

Give me your address.

Why?

I'm going to use it. I'll give you one ticket to the concert and the fan meeting and I'll mail them to you.

Wait really?!

Omg thank you Bliss T-T

Can I marry you??

No.

Good if I can't marry Seunghun then you're next. T-T

Damn k then, But you really love him huh?

Omg Yes ㅠ-ㅠ

He's so cute and talent pours out of him like nothing. ㅠ~ㅠ he's legit perfect

Damn, felt that. 😤

Cuz I'm right and you know it.

Yes sir ;)

Anyway gtg Bai!💖

Bye!

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"well, you really like him huh? Giving him free tickets." Byoung said with a chuckle rolling through his sentence.

"Hyung stop looking over my shoulder!" I whine and turn around to see the others take a step back from me and I sigh.

"Y'all suck..." I lay my head down on the table in defeat.

"And you're cute with him." Byoung pinches my cheeks and I just take it. But then an idea popped in my head.

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: Beaksoon's POV :

Bliss sent the tickets through the mail and I legit started bawling cuz he gave me a ticket to the concert (VIP seats), fan signing ticket, and their newest album. Like oh my God... Bliss is a sugar daddy. Anyway! Today is concert day my dudes! I'm so nervous, plus I'm supposed to meet Bliss for the first time. Like oh my God, I bet he's cute as fuck.

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Omg, I'm so ready for today ㅠ~ㅠ

Thanks again, Bliss.

Of course dude •3• <3

Anyway, where do you wanna meet?

Oh shit, sorry I'm a bit busy ㅠㅠ

I'm so sorry

Well damn, I'm in the concert bathroom having a nervous breakdown. No joke.

Damn...

Yeah, well it's about to start. Gtg

Ok

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I slipped my phone in my back pocket and walk out and stand next to the bathroom. I just needed to take a breather real quick.

"Baeksoon?" a voice that was familiar but I also couldn't identify it at that moment. I look over to see a male with a black hat and a mask and he was wearing clothes fit for a stage.

"Do I uh, know-"

"I'm CIXbliss." And then he pulled down his mask showing me his heart throbbing smile.

"S-Seunghun..."

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Right after the concert

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What is your relationship with Seunghun?!

I almost had a heart attack cuz you set that up!

You really don't believe me?

What do you mean?

Where are you at?

At the cafe near the venue, why?

I'm coming

No, I'm okay...

Too bad to stay there.

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I wanted to run, but I didn't my body was stuck to the chair and I continue to sip my pink milk. I watched people pass by and two people walk in with soft color clothes, masks, hats, and look like they were looking for something... Someone. Me. when they looked at me they started walking over. My heart race quickly starts to escalate. They sat down and I anticipated their words. they take off their masks and there it was my heartbeat stopping at the side of my bias Seunghun and my bias wrecker Hyunsuk from CIX sitting in front of me.

"Aw you're cute in person," Hyunsuk says causing me to blush and I scoff to myself.

"Are you really CIXbliss?" I asked Seunghun and he smiles Nodding softly.

"Well then, what next?" Seunghun asked playfully. And now I'm asking the same thing...

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Boxy

Hey, you want to come to the dorm?

Byoung?? You never text me... T-T

JUST ANSWER THE QUESTION, I WANT TO HANG BUT SO DID THE OTHERS.

Be over in 15

We have french fries and pizza rolls that are hot and ready though :(

5 then :)

Also, stop doing that always works ㅠ-ㅠ

That's why I do it °3°

See you soon

Kk

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"Damn" Yonghee flipped when I burst through the door.

"6 minutes, good job Baeksoon." Byoung Pat's my head and I smile.

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Seunghun's POV

Me and Jinyoung we're chilling and one of our rooms and he was playing on his phone while I was trying to write lyrics.

"Hey Hyung." Yonghee came into the room and sat next to me.

"Hey could you tell Hyunsuk to turn down the music in the living room, I can't focus."

"It's not Hyunsuk, he went out to get snacks real quick," Yonghee responded and I just threw my pen to my desk in irritation.

"Then go tell hyung to turn-"

"Not him either hyung." Yonghee laughed at my confusion and I just get angry.

"Yonghee I swear to everything Holy and Unholy that if it's you I will fucking kill-"

"Fine, I'll go tell your boyfriend to go turn it down!"

"Who?" I questioned and he just tapped my shoulder leaving the room with one last comment.

"Baeksoon." I feel shock flow over me and a bit of annoyance.

"He's not my boyfriend..." I grumble to myself and then I hear JInyoung giggle then I hear his phone replay the whole scene that just unfolded.

"Jinyoung delete it." I sternly say and he quickly shakes his head and responds.

"No cause I'm sending it to Hyunsuk." I groan and let myself slide out of my chair.

"Fine do whatever you want..." I said making him shrug and pay attention to his phone once again.

Why are lyrics so hard? Not only that why is everyone hell-bent on saying I like Baeksoon?

"Hyung you like Baeksoon." Hyunsuk's joining voice through the silence rang through me.

"As a friend." Hyunsuk and Jinyoung scoff in sync.

"Whatever, we all know you really like him," Jinyoung said and a sudden rush of anger and other emotions swim through me.

"I don't like Baeksoon and I never will!" I scream and my breathing became heavy almost like I had just got done practicing.

I look back at Jinyoung and Hyunsuk and as their heads move I trace my eyes to the doorway and there he stood silently as he began to let tears flow down his painfully rosy cheeks. And then he ran slamming the door and right before I could say or do anything Byounggo ran to the doorway making dead eye contact with me.

"You're a dick Seunghun." and then he left leaving me feeling guilty, but I shrug it off and turn back to my lyrics.

"I don't like him though." I denied once again and then Yonghee turned my chair around to where I was facing him, Jinyoung, and HYunsuk.

"Then why are you crying?" Hyunsuk asked and I just then noticed the hot streams falling in trails on my cheeks and I quickly wipe them away.

"Who knows?" I chuckle awkwardly and the younger boys just stare at me in annoyance and disappointment.

"Whatever hyung." Yonghee scoffed and walked away and the other two followed.

I really don't think I do.

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: Baeksoon's POV :

I ran away. I couldn't help it. Seunghun didn't just shatter my heart but he stomped on it.

"I don't like Baeksoon and I never will!" It rang and replayed as I ran.

"Baeksoon!" Byoung's voice called after me, but I kept running through my mind wanted me to stop.

"Baeksoon wait!" He called me once again.

Soon though his hand stopped me and pulled me into a back hug. I pull out of it and push my face in his chest wrapping my hands around his waist. He pets my head and stayed silent.

"I love him, I really do, But why did he have to hurt me like this?" I sobbed with voice cracks and hiccups. Byoung was warm and comforting. I listened to his heartbeat as I cried. It helped me a lot...

"I'm sure he didn't mean what he said." I would be lying if I said that I didn't like or even love Seunghun...it would be lying if I said I didn't.

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Seunghun's been ignoring me. It's been a week so far. I hate this. I just want to talk to him. BUt...he doesn't feel the same way.

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: Seunghun's POV :

"Seunghun!" a voice shot at me and Byoung showed in front of me.

"What's up hyung?" He looked irritated.

"Are you going to keep ignoring him and your feelings?" His question put me in a state of shock but I answer calmly.

"There are no feelings and I'm not ignoring hi." Byuoung glares at em and continues to fight my denials.

"You're physically, verbally, and virtually ignore- you know what? Whatever. Since you won't come up with your own realization about your feelings I'll tell Baeksoon my feelings."

"Wait what?" I questioned already knowing the answer which broke me more.

"I like Baeksoon in a romantic way and I'm going to tell him." There it goes again. Cracking. I shrug it off though.

"Dow whatever hyung." I turn my body away from him only to hear him shoot a scoff and leave.

"Hyung you've got to be the stupidest guy on the planet," Jinyoung comments and rolls his eyes before I'm finally alone.

They're wrong. I don't have feelings for Bakesoon. my heart cracked again. It hurts so bad...

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: Byoung's POV :

"Back soon, I bought ice cream!" I walk in his house where he sits happily watching a movie on Netflix while he waits for me to come back and continue watching the rest of "Hymn of Death" and then move on to something else we felt like watching.

He looked up at me and smiled brightly almost hiding every bit of sadness that he felt in those moments. It hurt my heart. This poor boy only 20 years old got his heart broken by someone I trust with almost everything. Seunghun was a dick in this situation and I expect to get rid of all the damage he's done to this poor cutey and take him for myself.

"Come sit we have half an hour on episode 2 before we can finish the whole thing by episode 3." Back soon patted the seat beside him and I smile.

"You got the spoons from earlier?" I asked and he nodded so I take the gallon of ice cream and sit beside him. He opens the gallon and hands me one of the spoons as I press continue on "Hymn of Death".

"Lee Jongsuk has pretty eyes, smile, laugh, and lips," Baeksoon said as it went on so I paused it and looked at him.

"Your eyes are kind, your smile sweet, your cheeks are perfect, your lips remind me of cherry chapstick, and your kind and calming image fits your personality." Baeksoon went on and my heart began to flutter at the loving comments he gave me by staring at me with his dark brown puppy dog eyes.

"Baeksoon, I like you." His eyes went completely wide but before he could say anything I spoke first.

"I know you love Seunghun, but that's also why I'm here, to help you forget. So use me. You don't have to return my feelings I'm ok even if it hurts me. Your happiness is key, just let me try and help." Baeksoon shook his head ad tears pricked his eyes.

"Please, let me help you. Look at me like you do Seunghun. try to see me as Seunghun. Let me help you forget the pain he put you through." I smile at him with comfort as I hold back my own tears.

"It would hurt you..." His voice cracked and I smiled a bit wider.

"You hurt you even more, so let me try?" I hugged him and he hugged back.

"You promise that it won't hurt you...?" His breather hitched, I guess he couldn't think of much more.

"I can't promise that but I can promise that I will try to help you any way I can." I softly smile and he pulls away.

"How about we continue then?" Baeksoon said with a soft sad smile and cuddled closer to me while playing the drama again. He cried during some parts and all I could do was pet his head. His hair was soft and fluffy and his hair smelled like green apples. I loved it. I loved him.

"Thanks, Byoung..." I smiled sweetly and give him a quick kiss on the top of his head.

"Of course." and thank you Baeksoon for giving me a chance.

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: Baeksoon's POV :

it's been 2 weeks since Seunghun started ignoring me and Byoung started to treat me like I was his boyfriend. I mean I can't complain. Text all the time, stays over till he knows I'm asleep, and kisses me goodnight. He treats me right and loves me right. I like it, I really do just can't like him and that's why I feel guilty all the time. I hate Seunghun for leading me on and letting me fall in love. I hate Seunghun to lead me to the point where I'm guilty of not loving someone who loves me...unlike him.

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Parkue

Hey, what you wanna do today?

Icecream? I wanna go to the mall and buy new plushies. I need more Ryan's and Digimon. T-T

They're so cute...

They are :)

Ok, see you at 1 pm?

Yes. see you then.

Bye.

bai.

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A date for more plushies and ice cream. Yay.

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"Hey Baeksoon, you have a good morning?" Byoung gave me a kiss on the forehead and opened the car door for me to get in. I nod and kiss on the cheek then slip in.

"That's good." He said right before he closed the door.

"Hey Baeksoon," I scream before anything, then I let my soul leave my body as I hear laugher from the back seats.

"Im sorry I didn't mean to scare you." The males' voice chimed in through the laughter. I turn around to see Hyunsuk so I glare real quick before averting my eyes to Byoung who happened to hop in the car at a great time.

"Im sorry Baeksoon, he saw our conversation and said he wanted to buy more plushies too so I brought him along, that cool?" I smile and nod. I whip my head around to Hyunsuk and glare.

"It's hyung to you ok? and we are going to more girly stores they have cute pink plushies." I said to see if it would irritate him, but he lit up and clapped his hands. (I wasn't even lying when I said it though.)

"Yay, hyung has good taste!" HYunsuk smiled so I return one.

"I'm so glad you like it!" I said as I turned around in my seat. This is gonna be fun.

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"How many bags do you have Hyunsuk?!" Byoung asked him, but I tap Byoung with my bags and when he turns around showing shock throughout his eyes, I smile and stand next to Hyunsuk.

"He has 12 I have 8," Hyunsuk said and I just smiled. Bro I feel accomplished though. Like I got every single plushie I was looking for (6 of them) and then I bought a few extras. It was fun, but now we gotta go back to the car and set our bags in there so we can get ice cream.

"Hyung?" Hyunsuk chimed yanking my shirt a bit.

"Do you like Byoung hyung?" He questioned innocent eyes but a mature mindset.

"I don't exactly know, why?" He looked and acted hesitantly.

"He really likes you...and if you still love Seunghun-"

"Can we not mention him?" I asked softly while I hold back existing tears. Hyunsuk nodded and handed me a small napkin he had with him. I accepted it and wipe my eyes before Byoung calls our names for us to catch up.

"Guys, you good?" Byoung asked and I turned around with a bitter smile nodding and then there we go for ice cream.

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I picked up my phone and checked the time.

"Wow 10:56...Baeksoon you really need to stop doing this." It's the day after the date and well my mind still can't stop thinking about what Hyunsuk was going to say.

"Oh my god, you're pathetic..." I said to myself as I sent a text to Hyunsuk.

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Dirty

Hey Hyunsuk, you up?

Yeah, what's up Hyung?

About yesterday...can you tell me what you were going to say about Seunghun?

Uh yeah, hold on I have to leave the room.

T-T Don't be loud or you'll get caught.

I'm good the hyungs are stones when asleep :)

Well damn.

Anyway.

Seunghun Hyung looks like a sick depressed zombie.

Camera

Opened...

Oh...he kinda does though...He ok? Eating, drinking enough?

I don't know...

Oh well, thanks anyway.

Of course Hyung.

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He looked awful...why was he doing that to himself though? But then I realized what I was doing.

"No..." I said sternly to myself and turn on my phone once again.

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Boxy

Hey, I know it's late but can you meet at the park?

Yeah, the one near your place?

Yeah, it's important so hurry ok?

KK see you soon! :)

Ok.

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I can't let this go on.

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: Byoung's POV :

"Hey, Baeksoon," I say cheerfully as I sit in the swing next to him. He looked up at me and his dark brown eyes swimming with emotions and pricked by tears.

"Byoung..." Before he could finish I stand up. I know what's coming...so I hug him and smile bitterly. Right through the pain. I didn't know what else to do.

"I'm glad you gave me a chance to love you, Im glad you gave me a chance to help you. I know I didn't help you forget, but that's okay." I felt tears fall so I wipe them right before I faced a teary-eyed boy.

"I'm sorry," Baeksoon said and I pet his head giving off a hurt chuckled.

"No, I am." Baeksoon engulfs me in a hug once again and after a few minutes, I pull away and look into his beautifully guilty and sorrowful eyes and just smile.

"Do me a favor though. Lie to me. Tell me you love me..."

"Byoung-"

"I just want to hear it, even if it's a lie." I hold his hands and give them a small squeeze, but even through his worries.

"Byoung...I love you." He smiled as tears fell down his cheeks leaving trails on his beautiful face.

"I love you too...I really do." I hug him once more as I feel my heart completely break.

I lost.

I did my best though... Baeksoon, you were my first love.

And I left.

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: Seunghun's POV :

Yonghee walked in trying to give me food but I turn away.

"What is wrong with you?" He sat down after closing the door making me groan.

"I-"

"Explain the feelings you experience with Baeksoon." Yonghee popped off catching me off guard, I but I still answer.

"He makes me feel good all the time. And the night I said I didn't like him my heart felt like it was going to explode from guilt." Yonghee pulled men to sit next to him and when I was he made dead eye contact with me.

"If your afraid to go after Baeksoon because of how Soomi just know you're wrong because Baeksoon isn't her, he's better too." And that's when I knew I was being a complete dick.

But, what if it's too late...?" I mumble with guilt evident in my voice and Yonghee softly smiles with understanding.

"Fight for it, I've never seen you so happy. Plus the feeling of being in love is euphoric, cloud 9, paradise. I mean there's no promise that there won't be some hurt, but you fight it together and your love stays strong. So what are you gonna do?" I hop up and right before I leave I hug Yonghee.

"Thanks, dude." I turn around and see Byoung.

"Hey Hyung where's Baeksoon?"

"Park near his place I think..." He answered and left. So I run. Please don't let it be too late.

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: 3rd POV :

"Baeksoon!" Seunghun yelled running to the boy as he saw him on the swing, but Seunghun slowed down seeing Baeksoon look at him emotionless.

"I-Is it really-"

"Yeah Seunghun, I gave up. Your not my bias anymore. Not only that you don't like me so what does it matter?" Baekssoon didn't want to leave them all behind but so he didn't continue to hurt himself or others, he gonna have too.

Seunghun was losing confidence in himself. He didn't know how he could get Baeksoon back.

"Baeksoon you cant leave. I'm your bias in your favorite group and Im your first love." Seunhun's voice overflowed with confidence even though his heart race was horribly fast.

"Ok." Baeksoon gave in knowing Seunghun was shaking in his boots but also because he didn't know how long he had longed for Seunghun to say his name till now

"Wait really?" Seunghun asked with pleasant shock making Baeksoon giggle and nod.

"I heard your heart about to explode." Baeksoon took a step closer to Seunghun and they both smile.

"I'm glad, I was about to cry," Seunghun added and the two laughed as nothing had ever happened. No pain, no hurt. Nothing.

"I'm sorry I was just scared also it hurts me to see you getting close with others," Seunghun said and Baeksoon's mind went back to serious.

"What you Did really hurt me. Not only that through all the time you ignored me...I hurt someone very close to me." Though Seunghun was oblivious of who it was he was thankful more than guilty. Thankful for the pain they endured so Seunghun could be here right now, with the younger boy he loved and knew now that he loved him.

"I'm so sorry...I know I was a dick and it won't happen again." Seunghun felt guilty, yes. But the younger still loved him and gave him a chance so he felt like he was on cloud nine as well.

"I forgive you." Baeksoon hugged Seunghun but the older quickly pulls away looking at Baeksoon with eyes full of innocent lust, love, and passion.

"Seunghun-" The older connected his lips with the younger. Baeksoon's reaction was to kiss back. Passionate, long, and loving kiss the two shared. And that's their love story. The rookie Idol Seunghun and his cute little lover fanboy Baeksoon.

-Mayji