Well this is unexpected

Cold, it was cold it felt like millions of frozen daggers piercing through your skin and flesh down to your bones, i couldn't see, hear or smell anything, "is this what happens when people die? Kinda anticlimactic if you ask me, Where's the angels descending to judge your soul? Wheres death holding his scythe to take you with it? Where's the line of souls waiting for their time to be judge for their sins and karma?" all he saw was pitch black darkness in fact could he even see at all?

Is this what happens to the people that die? Do they just end up in a dark and cold abyss wandering for all eternity? What about the people that did something good with their lives? Shouldn't he get some kind of VIP treatment for saving the world multiple times? What kind of bull shit is this?!

"Is this what my amalgamation of achievements and sacrifices totaled to? Me the one who since birth was raised to become a shadow that protects the peace and livelihood of all? The one who since birth that had never thought of anything other than following the orders for the good of all?" really this was his reward? He spent all those decades of hardships and in the end, ended up dying without achieving something for himself.

"Is there even a point in my life that i did something that bought me happiness and satisfaction?" he pondered, he was an orphan that was adopted by the military when he was just a little baby, since he can remember all he did was train and fight without stopping, he was taught different kinds of martial arts, how to handle firearms, seduction techniques, espionage and many more, he became a machine that follows the orders of the higher ups down to the letter.

"...well there's nothing that i can do now... Im dead after all, although i have to admit, seeing the twisted expression of that guy before i died did make me feel good." he then pondered "my life until now wasn't even mine, im just an empty soldier that always awaits its orders, i always try and protect the peace and good life of the many but i didn't even get to experience it myself, why did i protect something that isn't related to me anyway?"

Now that he's alone forever drifting in the eternal abyss, he finally was able to think, think about his life, think about how it started and how it pitifully ended.

"how pathetic my life is..."

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An uncountable time had passed since then

how long have i been here?

A day?

A week?

Months?

Years?

Decades?

millennium?

Eons?

He could no longer differentiate time itself, nothing had changed everything is still pitch black all he can feel is the coldness permeating through his body, but does he even have one in the first place?

"why am i here again? Wait... Who am i? I don't remember anything, i dont remember my origins the things I've done or even as simple as my name, what am i?" he pondered once again what was his purpose? He felt empty, he felt lonely but amidst all those questions one thing still remains in his consciousness.

"change and live the life you wanted." that is the only thing that he still clearly remembers or perhaps that was the only thing that he still remembers.

"huh whats this?" he suddenly felt something other than the chilling coldness it was foreign yet familiar at the same time a sensation that was long forgotten had come back to him once again and that feeling is.

"Warmth..." he felt warm in his Eons of solitude in the dark abyss he felt the cozy sensation spreading over him,

He suddenly saw a bright light in his surroundings illuminating the dark abyss that once was, after that came something unexpected he felt heavy and he also felt a beating sensation in his own self.

'what the?' but before he could think further, he felt something rising up from his stomach to his throat and finally out of his mouth it was water, he vomited water.

Focusing his senses and opening his eyes he saw a faint silhouette of a girl near him with a worried and terrified expression on her face.

"Beautiful..." was the first words that he said before passing out of consciousness. In a new body and in a new world full of endless possibilities, his journey starts now.