I know your secret....

    Days went by and Dave didn't disturb me anymore, neither has Lily confronted me, although I still see her shooting glares at me.

     "Hey Jude, what's today?" I asked Judas our class nerd but everyone calls him Jude whose locker is beside mine.

    "Em October 6th?" He said as he closed his locker.

     "Thanks." I told him as he walked away. Today October 6th, that means winter dance is just two months away.

    Great.

   Trish hasn't spoken to me since the car incident and I really miss best friend.

    I have to fix this.

    I thought as I went for first period.

.....

    I have decided to work it out with Trish, and that is why I'm currently running to meet her by her locker during 7th period because I have recess and Trish has music.

     I caught up with her at her locker while she was bringing out her music notes from her locker.

    "Hey Trish." I said panting.

    "Hey." She replied dryly.

    "How are doing."

    "Cool."

    "But you don't sound cool."

    "Well....." She said mimicking me. "When your best friend is hiding something from you, would you sound cool?"

       "I guess not." I muttered quietly.

       "Well good."

       "Look Trish I'm sorry for not telling you but....."

       "You are not going to tell me are you?" She interrupted me.

      "I'm sorry Trish. But I miss my best friend. I miss her laughter, her voice, her gossip and most of all I miss her and I want my best friend back, no scratch that, I need my best friend back so please forgive me." I said pleading.

      "Well...." She started and turned to face me  "If you miss me and you need me like the way you say you do, you are going to have to girl up and tell me what's wrong Ash. I want to help you. I don't to be like a helpless best friend. I..."

       "You are not helpless to me Trish. You...." I interrupted her.

       "But I feel helpless!" She interrupted me raising her voice a little. She closed her eyes for a sec to calm down. When she reopened them, the green in her eyes were blazing.  "Since we have started this friendship Ash, I have kept nothing from you and if I have a problem, you are always there to fix it and I want to do the same for you Ash."

      "It's not that easy."

       "Well I can't be friends with someone who keeps things from me so unless you want to tell me your problem so I can help, don't talk to me." She said and she slammed her locker and walked away.

     Ouch.

     How can I tell her it's all my fault. How can I tell her that I'm the reason behind my sister's death, without her hating me. How can I?

    I quickly ran to the girl's restroom before I started crying my eyes out in the hallway. I looked at myself in the mirror and the person I was looking at in the mirror wasn't me.

    I don't even recognize myself anymore.

     With eye bags from lack of sleep, chapped lips, puffy eyes, dull blue eyes and pale skin with my messy bun.

     I look hideous. This nightmare shit is really fucking me up.

       Everybody just keeps on leaving me. From Lucy to Tyler to my mom to Dave and now Trish.

     Great. I'm really am messed up.

     I thought as tears began to fill my eyes. Again.

       "Well, well,well. What have we got here?"

      "I don't have time for your shit Lily." I said dryly while wiping my tears.

      "My shit?"

      "Yeah your shit." I turned to her and on impulse, I slapped her left cheek and her hand shot up to where I slapped.

       "You bitch!!!" She shouted.

       "That's for stealing my boyfriend."

      "Me? Steal your boyfriend? That fucker came to me begging for sex. He had been chasing me for weeks and I just had pity on him and just gave him a piece of this." She said motioning her hand up and down her body. "And the night you caught us wasn't the first and it sure wasn't the last." She said smirking.

     What?

       "What?" I took a step back.

       "Yeah you bitch. You breaking up with him didn't stop him from coming for more." She said still smirking.

     So all this while Dave has been begging me, he was still sleeping with Lily?

    "Yeah aren't I great?" She said I didn't realize I said that out loud.

     "But I didn't come here to rub  how pathetic you are in your face. I came to tell you to stay away from Christian."

       "Christian?" I asked puzzled.

       "Yeah Christian. Trisha's brother. The hot god or which other Christian do you know?" She said as if she was talking to a dumb person and I rolled my eyes. 

       "But why would you warn me about Christian?" I asked still puzzled.

      "Because he is mine and you are in my way." She said a sneer

     Whoa. Possessive much?

       "Well, he's all yours."

       "Not when he's with you."

    What?

         "What?"

         "Don't try to act dumb with me. That guy likes you."

     What?

        "What?" I asked now getting really confused.

        "Wow, you really are dumb. Anyway leave him alone or else I will tell everyone who you truly are."

    What?

         "What?"

         "I know your secret." I paled immediately she said that and I took a step back.

         "Wh...w....what do you m-mean by that?" She just smiled and turned around to walk away before she turned around.

        "Oh and Ashley, next time you slap my face, I'm not going to hold back anymore." And with that she walked away leaving me too my own thoughts.

     Great.....