I've been looking at the sea for minutes, but I just noticed the beauty it was giving to me right now. The moon reflecting on its waters like falling gems, as well as the stars, there's nothing more aesthetic than a sea in the middle of the night.
The sound of the waves crashing on the shore, trying to reach something in the sand, made me calm down a bit.
But that didn't escape from the anxiety that I have been feeling since earlier. Guilt and blame were pushing me down inside, and it's crushing my heart like a large hammer. It made me feel that I didn't deserve to live anymore.
Now, I was just hugging myself, wrapping my arms around my knees as I will bury my face to them when I want it to. It kept me warm, both inside and outside.
"Still thinking about it, huh?"