But... I love you so much.

Ch-234

"I know…  I am tainted by him. But for once I want to be selfish. I also want to be loved and cherished by you. After being divorced I never thought… I could find someone who could love me and pamper me. I always thought acting like a hedgehog would drive you away. But as days passed… I didn't notice that I fell for you. The thought of you being in another woman's arms made my blood boil." She said, 

"I don't know why I am jealous. I feel like you belong to me, only me. I never imagined myself being kissed by Arthur. I thought marrying him and getting little care from him was enough. But with you, I wanted to do so many things. I wanted to marry you, sleep with you, cuddle you, kiss you and do so many sinful things. But  I am afraid that you would leave me knowing that I am not a virgin anymore.