37. About to go down.

Tyler POV,

He's right, 'The earlier the better' if I don't end this now the mess will just increase , am about to break my sister's heart into pieces.

We're at the table taking breakfast , I've been planning to break the news to her after this , I can't even eat well.

" I really miss my little silly boy , when are you gonna come back to yourself again?" Mom complains.

" Who knows?! Maybe my days for being silly are long dead." I say simply.

" Honey, we told y..."

" Mom, not now please, am really in bad shape for that right now." I cut her knowing exactly what she was gonna say. 'Oo you'll find a better person, don't worry ' and all that !

" Tayler , can we talk for a moment after you are done with breakfast?" I ask her fear embracing me .

" Why do you sound so serious, am not used to you like this. Hey , did that break up really hit you that badly? You even make me afraid of heartbreak if it can be that bad," she turns to Tenor, "babe, let's never break up please." Tenor doesn't say anything and just looks at me with worried eyes.

I leave the table and go back to my room , repeating same words ' this is bad ' several times. Once am there I text Tenor.

Me: We can't tell her.

Tenor: Didn't we talk about this already and said no matter what we're gonna tell her.

Me: Can't you see how she is? Are you blind or heartless.. which one of these?

Tenor: You think I don't give shit about her but trust me am doing what's best for both of us, she's gonna break down and find herself again at last, instead of fooling her around. '

I know he's right but I can't just do it.

Tenor: Let's make this easier,, let me tell her that I realize I don't feel the same and I wanna think about our relationship once again.

Me: She's gonna hate you for that . My parents were happy about it too so they won't feel so good about you if you do that to their daughter.

I hear someone knocking and am sure it's her.

Me: She's here ,, am gonna tell her now.

Let what was meant to happen,happen.

" It's unlocked. " I say.

She walk in, I don't even wanna look at her, ' I have to end this no matter what ! '. I think to myself.

" Soo.. what's up?"

" Uuh.. I have bad news ."

" Bad news ? "

"Yeah, I don't wanna go around the bush so am just gonna say it straight.. and before I say it , Am terribly sorry in advance because I don't know if after this you'll listen to me when I tell you how very sorry I am . Sis.. I really love you and I'll never intentionally hurt you . Am really sorry Tayler, please don't hate me.."

" What is it, you're scaring me!!"

There's really no need to struggle with words because no matter how nice I'll try to deliver the message the end will still be the same, so I decide to go straight to the point.

" Uh.. uhm.. I love Tenor."

" Haha.. hey , you should have just told me you're back to your Normal self again , but it was funny..I mean the joke.., and am really happy you are coming back to yourself again, I had missed cleaning up your mess.."

" No , Am not kidding." I cut her.

" What do you mean you are not kidding , with that serious face?"

" It hasn't happened now, the time I was talking with him before he came that's when I fell for him, and right now I've just fallen in deeper."

" What are you trying to arrive at Tyler ?! You gave him to me yourself, now that your relationship has failed you are jealous for your own sister and try to ruin mine?! Didn't you have a girlfriend when you were still talking to him and now you want to pretend you fell for him a long time ago?!"

" I realized I didn't love Lexy, I just liked how she was and besides I haven't really paid attention to her all that time we've been dating,,you can ask her."

" What about when you got crazy yesterday and left the house because she broke up with you?"

" She wasn't the reason, this was the reason."

"You are not gay, how is it possible that you love him?"

" I don't know, all I know is that I love him . "

" Am sorry to hear that because we can't help you , him and I love each other and he's not gay so you can't be helped, am leaving and don't talk to me about this again." She say walking away.

"How sure are you that what you believe is true?! Am trying to help you because I love you, you are my sister but if you can't open your eyes and see that something is not right between you two , I don't know how to help anymore."

She comes back looking so pissed , "what's your point?"

"I don't wanna hurt you Tayler but it's the truth, I don't know what to do anymore."

"I asked what your point is!" she yells,, oh no , it's about to go down.

"You and Tenor.. there's nothing going on there , so the earlier you surrender the better for you , not even for me. "

"Surrender to who?? You?? Haha! sorry ,but no dear brother!" she walks away.

"He doesn't love you Tayler , he's in love with me too."

She comes back again , "what did you just say?"

"Exactly what you heard, he doesn't wanna hurt you but it's not something he can control."

" Lier , he said he loved me , remember? You even showed me the message, he knew it was me he was talking to because he saw my picture." she's screaming now and crying.

" Has he ever told you in person then? That he loves you?" Am really hurting myself too for saying this to her but I guess this is what I deserve for being so stupid !

" It's not a must he says it, I know he does, you heartless person how can you say that to me?"

" Tayler am trying to help you."

" Help me my foot! How is this helping me? You're jealous of your own sister and want to ruin for me??" She's even louder now and am guessing people might start coming to see what's going on here.

" Tyler, even if it's true , am your sister can't you let me be happy for once? You of all people should know how crazy I am about him." she says almost whispering now.

" That won't help you Tayler because he doesn't feel the same about you." 

" Did he say he feels the same about you?"

" Ye..s" I answer hesitantly.

" So he sends you to tell me he wants to break up with me for you?"

" He didn't send me , I w.."

She cuts me , " Where is he ? Why don't he tell me that himself?" she asks going out of the door, I follow her , just as we get out of the room, we see Tenor coming our way from his room, I guess he couldn't stay still anymore .

Damnit! This is out of hand.

"There you are, babe , you won't believe what Tyler is saying, that you don't l ..."

He cuts her before she finishes, " Tayler am sorry but it's the truth."

She looks at him as if she can't believe it , she's still crying , "So why didn't tell me that earlier, why didn't you tell me yourself that no Tayler, it's not you am in love with but your brother."

Damnit! Everyone just heard that because they are coming up the stairs ,, this is really out of control now , mom stops In her tracks , " What do you mean by he doesn't love you but your brother?" Mom asks .

Everyone's face show surprise and confusion , "He wants to leave me because he thinks that he loves Tyler and not me!?" She even cry harder.

Dad, "Why don't we sit down and talk about this from the start because I can't grasp a thing !"

Tayler isn't listening at all , she goes near Tenor, " You say it's not me but my brother , right??"

He doesn't say anything , she adds something that got me off guard , something I didn't expect at all, "but did you know that your beloved was fooling you all that time before you came here ?! When you thought you were talking to me all that time it was him playing with you , I only knew you after you came here with mom and dad! "

"You are lying, I talked to you on the phone, I heard your voice!" Tenor says irritatibly.

"Why would I lie about that?! He forced me to talk to you that day, am not a social media person and he's the one who made that account that you met him , let me ask you something, after that day we talked have you ever talked again apart from sending messages ??"

He looks at me with pain clearly evident in his eyes, my parents and nanny are queit and don't even know where to start understanding what is happening from.

Am looking at Tenor blankly, not knowing where to start explaining myself to him from. I really hate myself for not telling him earlier instead of finding out like this.

I see tears literally flowing out of his eyes, this is the third time he's crying infront of me and now infront of others, he's still looking at me but not saying anything, my legs have become weak and I could fall anytime from now.

I want to say something but all that comes in my head is that.. I lied to him and he's not gonna trust me again, just like everyone else, I broke his trust , he won't trust me ever again.

"T..Ten..or" he walks away heading to his room. I follow him but Tayler holds my hand,,

"he was gonna find out sooner or later and now that everything is like this I thought it was better he knows now, now we're even ,you started it yourself Tyler, am pretty sure he's gonna leave, why don't you just let him go instead of hurting him even more, we're gonna go back to normal like before when he wasn't in our lives, remember?"

" You can go back to normal but me without him there's nothing normal !" I remove her hand on me and head to Tenor's room, I hear her shouting ,"You think he's going to trust you again after this??"

I ignore her and continue walking.

I push the door but he has locked it already,,

"Damnit!!!!" I curse.