Fearless Little Lamb

Everything around me moved in slow motion as if I was part of an action movie which ended in an end which was unquestionably tragic. I was looking at the things that surrounded me, they looked so rich. They looked more expensive than even if I sold myself, I would not be able to buy those things--They were priceless.

I looked at the plain and blank white wall. Exquisite clocks hanging as for the ceiling, there were fake plant pots hanging here and there with the lights while the plants creeped their way out and hung themselves while their hearts filled with grief as they did but also knew that this was the end for their mind to handle more of the stuff that was coming near, but who are we to judge, at least they offered us the advantage of oxygen which they were practically made to do for. There was a bed below the huge window with white silk curtains as they blew up with the soft wind gently pushing them in the upwards direction, while the silent rays of sunlight creeped their way out of the curtains and into the room, and shone ever so wonderfully because it gave the wonders to think and imagine the beautiful things that life gifts us with. The white tiled floor so neat and clean as my reflection shined upon it and that when I realized that I wasn't the only one to be reflected upon the floor as I saw the reflection of a man when I realized that man was Aiden.

I got so surprised that I flinched as I saw him. It was like that my eyes covered me from the thing that was happening and ruining me from the inside without asking me for my permission and it was not even like I would decline in the very first place because I wanted to get away and find peace from this man and all the problems that he held.

"What are you thinking? mind if I join this very conversation between...well, you and you?", I flinched as those words flew out of his lips in the most sarcastic and mocking way as it truly broke me and I finally snarled and struck back at him, "Oh no!, would you mind if I just casually interrupted your privacy?!", I barked.

Those words flew out of my lips in the most harsh and sarcastic way as I realized that my death is going to be in the same harsh way exactly like my tone when I replied to him as fear took over my body but I didn't feel any pain, only numbness. I was scared in fact, I was petrified! But he just laughed in the most mocking and humiliating way possible to ever pass through my ears that I now wished that my ears were no longer capable of hearing him anymore but still suffered through it as it was not the fault of them being stuck with me and my unwanted fate.

My memory came flashing by as I remembered that I wanted him to move the marriage to a date that's farther from now. It would give me a sort of relief just as if there was a snake crawling its way towards me, but then it started to crawl its way towards me from the start again. It would give me a sort of relief but I would know that, that relief would not last for very long.

Just sometimes I feel the emotion of bravery running down my spine and at last when it finally arrives at its longed destination; my mind and soul-- it disappears, as if my soul was a mere coward, fearlessly fighting a battle with the emotion of bravery, as if this was an old fantasized tale, but this time this was a tragic love story, where the prince dies while trying to save his beloved as his final words of bravery that escaped his soul,"O my beloved, forgive me as my heart fills with grief as I say this; I was not able to save you as I am losing the power that this dear life gives, O my dear lady, wait for your prince, as I am quite sure his love will be better than my failed love for you..."

I came back to reality as I awkwardly pleaded Aiden to move this unification of our lives to another day which hopefully farther than the actual date, but while I did, his eyes softened for a second there and I almost believed that he had accepted my request but oh he did not.

And so on like the other times I had talked to him, my heart broke into tiny little pieces like this time too when he didn't accept my request.

I was mad, furious and raged as he declined but a part of me knew that if I do anything more, the consequences are to double in size and length.

My eyes met his and as soon as it did all I think he saw in my eyes was disappointment, anger and grief. I felt a warm type of liquid dripping on my cheeks as I realized that I was crying, I was weak and vulnerable in front of his eyes and my heart did not at all want that, I wanted to kill and end him. He did not accept my request but who am I to say, I am, in fact a coward, a stupid little lamb looking for its mother who is lost but when it cannot find her, it just cries, cries like a weak little baby that it is and that thought makes me even angrier than before as I realize that I am that little lamb.

The anger makes me grab whatever was in front and throw it on the ground as harsh as I could and I knew he was seeing it which was making me even angrier than before. I felt a course of adrenaline rushing through my veins as I grabbed an expensive flower pot and threw it on his head and when I realized what I have done--I ran.

I reached the door and tried to open it but I didn't have the keys to do so--it was locked. The only rational thought that came to my mind was to run to the bathroom and lock myself in as I saw him getting up and gathering himself. I could see him clenching his jaw. I tried to run to the bathroom, but I felt a muscular hand grab my wrist, and that was when I knew it was the End.