Chapter Fourteen

"Hey..." I smiled meekly when I entered Kiyoomi-san's room. He's watching volleyball like usual but when he saw me, he automatically switched off the TV and smiled at me sweetly.

"I miss you." I blushed on his sudden greeting and gently tug me closer to him for an embrace.

It's been three weeks since he woke up from coma after reviving a few minutes when he went flatline. It's a miracle that he came back to life but what's more surprising is that he woke up right after without any signs of memory loss. They made a few tests and miraculously, there's no sign that he's in danger anymore and he's recovering rather quick after what happened. Motoya-san teased me that it might be because of me that made him come back to life.

Remembering how he went flatline still give me nightmares at night from time to time that's why I keep on staying with him after my shift from work. I'm afraid that it might happen again and I'll lose him for real. My chest tightened at the thought of losing him making it hard for me to breathe properly.

I hug him back a bit tighter than his while trying to suppress my tears from falling but I failed. I couldn't erase in my head the sight of him when he was thrown off the ground and the sound of the monitor when he went flatline.

"Kei..." Kiyoomi-san pushed me away gently and had a worried look on his face when he saw me crying.

"Why are you crying?" He asked while wiping my tears but it just keeps on falling so, he embraced me once more.

I only got a little calmer when I heard his raging heart beat as if it's a proof that he's alive.

"I'm sorry." I finally said after weeks of not talking about what happened when we had a fight.

"For what?"

"For lying. You won't be here if I didn't lie in the first place." He pulled away and make me look at him.

"It's not your fault. It's my fault. I should have listened to you. I was just so blinded with jealousy. I'm sorry." He said with a guilt look on his face.

"I'm sorry Kei."

I looked at Kiyoomi-san.

"For what?"

He smiled sadly. "For making you cry after vowing that I won't."

I gently kissed him instead and pulled away before it gets out of hand. I looked straight to his eyes while holding his warm hands.

"It's giving me nightmares. The sight of you laying on the ground with your blood flowing on your unmoving body. And when you went flatline after reading your letter, I feel like me too, my heart stopped beating." I confessed with tears in my eyes.

"I'm sorry."

"You should be. You scared me! You dummy! You haven't heard my reply yet and besides, I haven't heard what happened that night that I got wasted." I rant that made him smile a little.

He sighed. "To be honest, I think during that time, I'm really about to go. I don't know if it's just a dream but during those times that I'm sleeping, I was walking around in a pit darkness. When I finally saw the light and was about to follow it, that's when I heard you crying. You were calling my name asking me not to leave."

Kiyoomi-san looked at me fondly.

"If not because of your voice, your cry I wouldn't find my way back Kei. That's why I'm sorry for feeling this happy that I made you cry. I feel guilty but at the same time glad that you're crying because of me and not because of him. I'm happy that you're begging me to stay and not asking me to go. I'm happy that you didn't runaway alone this time."

Kiyoomi-san take my hand wearing the ring he gave and kissed it.

"I've been wanting to ask you this question when you're sober but I always chickened out coz I'm afraid that you'll run away." He said and looked at me affectionately.

"You can." I answered even before he could ask those words.

I laughed when he pouted in irritation. I guess he's still the same Kiyoomi that I know.

"Will you keep me even when I'm this fucked-up?" I was the one who first asked instead that erase all the irritation in his eyes.

Kiyoomi-san nods.

"I know this is fruitless. I know you don't like commitments. But even so, I want only you. So, let's just set aside this label thingy and let me ask properly this time. Kei Tsukishima, Can I keep you?" He asked seriously while staring at each other's eyes.

"Until when?" I asked.

He smiled. "Until our last breath."

I answered him with a meek nod and he hugged me in return.

"Can I tell you something?"

Kiyoomi-san nods but didn't let me go and just keep me locked in his arms.

"I love you, Kiyoomi." I whispered that made his heart races with mine. I didn't let him go this time coz I love the feeling of his heartbeat with mine.

I heard him sniffles so I pulled away and tear up when I saw his crying face for the first time. Who would have thought that this guy will cry because of those three words?

"I love you too, Kei." He finally said in between sobs. "I just can't say it before because you might run away."

"If it's you, I won't. Or rather say I couldn't. I guess I've been yours since that night I got wasted." I admitted that made him smile again upon remembering the night I partially remembered.

"You remembered?" He asked in astonishment.

"Not all. Bits of it but not all. Care to tell me what happened that night?" He just smiled and whispered in my ear that made me red with embarrassment.

"Let's just reenact it once I'm fully recovered." I lightly punch his shoulder and laugh to our hearts content.

"I finally see the beautiful full moon." He murmured while gazing at me with his eyes beaming with happiness.

Kiyoomi-san embraced me tightly. "I finally have you, my beloved moon."

I smiled and hugged him back as I asked...

"Can you keep me?"

"I'll keep you."