A white lesbian
Her eyes caught the sight of a large table with wine on each sides like a feast is being held and in the middle foods forming the letter 'F'.
She swallowed when she saw Xander,his head buried in the dishes,trying to get something out of the plates,Isabelle retraced her step and couldn't help chuckling noting his seriousness.
"Ma'am have you ever been to the garden?"Isabelle recognized the voice as that of Pola and frown slightly. "I suggest you go there tonight,the weather is said to be chilly tonight,I'll bring you some tea"
"Bring the tea Pola,I don't take suggestions"Isabelle said and sit back on the couch. "Besides I'm not needed there"
"I'm sorry ma'am"
"Don't you get it?,I want to be alone" Isabelle snap,Pola nodded and left,Isabelle groan when her phone rang giving her a jolt. "Hey"
"It's Sasha, am I disturbing?"
"No,carry on" Isabelle answer coldly.
"Are you okay?"
"I am,just say whatever you wanna say."
"Okay,Isabelle you've to come see her,I don't get why you suddenly changed your mind about everything but Jamie is not as strong as you"
"What do you want me to do?"Isabelle yell. "Her mother told me to protect her with all I've got and hey I'm obliged to as a sister,you think I want to stay away but I've got no option here"
"Isabelle,where's this coming from?"Sasha gasp. "I can't believe this."
"From a place of desperation Sasha,I'm tired of me,I'm weak,there's nothing I can do,he attacked her for the first time since I made the pact that means my threat is weakening because he has this desperation to catch me,nothing is okay Sasha,I'm tired"
"Hey,I get you,you don't have to come over but do come to the wedding,without you there I don't think I've the strength to pretend all is right,please my friend?"Sasha whisper caringly.
"I promise to be there"
"Lest I forget,that garden was maintained by mom before she died,I guess as instructed by my brother she'll be happy to see you there,Just forgive him please,bye."Sasha disconnected the call before a word could come out of Isabelle mouth,she glance at the window and snicker.
"Pola,send the tea"Isabelle said and stride to the opening,the one not far to her room,as soon as she stepped into the garden she felt a strong arm around her waist and stiffen,Xander let go immediately.
"I thought you weren't real." He grin boyishly and saunter backwards to the table. "You won't forgive me,I know"
"Is that what the 'F' means?"Isabelle asked in a clipped tone,Xander nodded and sigh. "You don't have to do this"
"I'm sorry"
"I don't have to hear that" Isabelle hiss and sit in front of him,watching as he serve doing everything so perfectly.
"How's Ian by the way?"
"Fine,he's not my brother so quit the question" Isabelle mumble.
"You know you don't have to be here" Xander breath out,Isabelle drop her spoon and stood up. "The death certificate..."
"Is it with you?"
"No,"Xander lied and stood up to face her. "Don't you wonder what I did with Zuzzana?" Isabelle grit her teeth feeling his breath on her face. "I slept with her and I slept with her again but do you ever wondered how and why?I missed you,i wanted my woman by my side,I wanted you Isabelle and I was going crazy to the point that I see every of those girls in you"
"Don't put this all on me"
"Why? You were the one who left without a trace,you hurt me and our relationship in the process,She came to me Isabelle ,she offered to pay me and I lost control,I slept with her and did it again because of anger,because childishly I wanted to punish Gary,because you gave him a hint,a hint of what was gonna happen" Xander said,tears trick down from Isabelle eyes.
"You didn't notice Xander"
"I did,but I was busy thinking about my future with you to care,that's why it hurts so much,Isabelle I'm sorry for all the heartache I've caused ,I'm very sorry"Xander cup her small face in his palm and kiss the tears away muttering 'SORRY'.
Isabelle give way to tears and more tears but her sob for swallowed by Xander,his lips on her,feathering it with affection,Isabelle close her eyes and give her all into it,giving him one of the chances they both might never have again,none of them noticed the four pair of eyes on them.
One of curiosity and confusion and the other of rage and revenge...
"You look tired,why don't you go to bed?"Isabelle mumble leaning on the couch,Xander smile and draw her closer,He didn't know what came over him as he wrap him arm around her waist and kiss her hair. "I'm serious,you're worn out"
"I'm not"Isabelle nervously shift,she was uncomfortable this close to him,she wanted nothing of him currently,nothing of his affection but that does not change the cravings of him and still the fear that all of this could all be a lie in a second.
"Xander please."
"Can I borrow you for a minute?"He asked half asleep,Isabelle smile as she push him gently away but his arms around her tighten.
"Xander just lay on the couch"
"I'm okay"
"I promise you a head massage...my hands?"Isabelle smile when he lift his head,a grin on his face.
"I don't mind" But once again he went back to his position and this time fell asleep,Isabelle grumble noticing his limp body and drag him to sleep properly on the couch,fulfilled her promise and watch him sleep with that fear lurking around.
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"Miss wait up" The woman in white,always in the elevator with her called as Isabelle jog to the street,Isabelle stop and continue when the woman met up with her. "Hi"
"Hi,um Ms...."
"Margaret,I saw you last night"Margaret jog alongside Isabelle and wave at the couple's on the other blocks.
Isabelle knit her brow and manage a nervous laugh. "Doing what Ms. Margaret?"
"Dinner with your husband" The woman grin,Isabelle chew on the inside of her lips,suspicion arousing. "I know,I know it's private but I can't help watching my favorite couples,why don't you come over today?"
"Oh Ms. Margaret"Isabelle said and frown when the woman face saddens. "I can only come now,this is when I've time"
"Oh yes,you're a busy woman,should we go in now?"
"Why not?"Isabelle cover the knives buried behind her with her hoodie. "Let's go"
The house was white all over,her couch sparkling clean white,the tables,the Windows,curtains,and t.v.,all white with no traces of dirt,Isabelle marvel the magnanimous room.
She also had a thing for cleaning once when she was with her mother,but the habit seems to die out as she grows and learn,not everything can be perfect.
"I'm very happy you came" Margaret place bread and egg on the table then hand her a cup of tea. "You're nice you know"
"Not always nice" Isabelle dig in,not worried about the white woman for a minute. "Your place is nice"
"But not as big as yours,I've seen your house decor one night I pretended to be in need of help to that guy Jan and mistakenly freaked out your husband" Margaret munch on the food jollily,Isabelle noted the woman is carefree in character and she sighed,how much had she wanted to stop worrying and move as life moves? But she masked her expression with a smile.
"That's probably why he looks scared when he saw me with you"Isabelle said.
"Yeah,Um...Isabelle, Can I call you Isa?"
"Sure,everyone has a nickname for me"
"And your husband?" Margaret look at her Isabelle avoid her gaze and continue eating nonchalantly.
"He sticks to my full name"
"Nice,Do you love him?"
Isabelle stiffen,her heartburn from the question,because she as no answer to this,no matter how hard she tries to end it the fact remains that she'll forever love him.
"Just asking to know who I'm up against"Margaret grin and Isabelle frown,one of confusion she later realized she never needed to,the woman is a lesbian and had mistook her for one and eventhough Isabelle corrected her the woman seems to be stuck to her Imaginations.
Isabelle liked her,liked it,liked the new friendship because it was all okay with Margaret in the room with her,laughing at every little thing,lifting her moods,making it soar up high and never cutting her wings but as soon as she's out of that haven...Margaret haven,the worry came back.