Chapter 11

Tehilla's Pov

Tehilla's Pov.

My mind has always been a boxing ring where my thoughts battled it out. I didn't want to think. I didn't want to think of it all. I hated how my mind played games with me sometimes. My mental health has always been a rollercoaster.

I felt my body shaking. I held my head in my arms. I let out three deep slow breaths. I wasn't going to let myself thoughts eat me up.

Mom.

Dad.

I didn't want to think of it no. Eveything felt like a lie. I hardly knew who I was even when things were normal. Now I'm nowhere even close to knowing I'm sinking even deeper.

You are nothing Tehilla, a freak, a nobody who killed her parents all because she ran away. I hated how my anxiety mocked me. How my thoughts mocked me.

Mockery.

Mockery.

I didn't kill my parents.

I don't even know where they are.

Laughter rang in my head. I clutched my head even tighter. I needed some fresh air. Anywhere but here. I hopped out of my bed. I put on slippers threw on a sweater and quietly headed out. I didn't want to make a sound. I glanced at Micah's door. He's had enough to deal with. I decided to take a walk.

I went took the path behind the main quarters,it was a long narrow path. The moonlight shone brightly, the wind messaged my skin. I stopped for a second and stared at the sky.

It was a beautiful night indeed.I continued walking and walking. I stopped again at a T junction.It seemed the narrow path divided further into two parts.

I glanced from left to right. Without hesitation I choose the right path. I walked slower until I came to an abrupt halt.My body fought with my mind. My mind said to go forward,but my body wanted to go the opposite direction.

Something,I felt something.

I don't know what. I looked back at the left path.

Follow it Tehilla.

I ignored and continued walking down my path I came to another abrupt halt.

I felt restless.

Go back down that path.

Go through the left path Tehilla.

My intuition was not letting me go.

I turned back and walked back to the T-junction. I arrived at the start of the left path.

I looked down it,with the little light that shone.Although I could barely make out what lied ahead.

My heart suddenly felt heavy. Something or someone is down that path.

I looked from the left path to the right path.I had to choose.

Something in me told me I wouldn't like what I found at the end of the left path.

I could easily turn back and go back in my bed.

But my intuition, my intuition won't let me rest.

I took one step forward done the left path.

Chills tickled my spine.It took another step.

I let out a breath I didn't realise I was holding.

Well here goes nothing.

I continued walking. Although I felt a sense of urgency and so I quickened my steps. I didn't know what lied ahead but I knew I had to hurry.

Maybe I was just loosing my mind.

I started jogging.

Hurry Tehilla,hurry.

I don't know why but I needed to hurry.

As I moved the path started spreading which either meant I was arriving at some sort of midpoint or it was gonna spread into other paths. I hoped it was a midpoint.

Closer and closer I got. I stopped for the hundredth time tonight.

I shut my eyes and focused. Since I had a power outburst in the woods let me unlock more of my lost abilities.

It felt stupid to even think of but what would I loose if I tried.

Focus Tehilla.

Breath Tehilla.

Feel it.

Embrace it.

Think of what you want to channel and when you open your eyes it will happen.

A voice said in my head. It wasn't my voice ,it felt like a past memory audio.

Nevertheless I obeyed. When I wanted to see what lied ahead of the path and I would soon.

I opened my eyes and my vision was ultra defined I could see everything clearly as though it was daylight.

I glanced ahead and I saw a figure. I focused my vision more and noticed it was a guy. Something about him felt familiar.

He stared at him,then it clicked I knew who it was.

My heart dropped. What was he doing outside at this time.

I saw darkness.

He was marinated in darkness. Not the night darkness but a more evil presence.

I don't know how but I could see it inside him. It tore into his soul, part of his soul was tainted by this darkness.

He was having an internal war within him.

He had his hand raised up to the sky,what was he planning?

I resumed walking,my steps quick and brief.

I could feel myself getting closer and closer. I could feel the darkness weigh heavily on me. It was a strong presence I didn't enjoy feeling.

Closer and closer I got.I reached a few steps away from him. I stared at him intently. There was dark presence that I felt dancing around us.

It made my skin crawl.His eyes were shut. I continued to watch him battle with himself.

Part of my wanted to grab him and wrap my arms around him. The other part of me wanted to run as far away from him as possible.

"What are you doing?"I finally said.

His eyes instantly fluttered open. We locked eyes.

His face held a blank expression making it impossible to read him. Silence enveloped.

"What are you doing?" I asked again my voice was more firm and demanding.

He said nothing. He dropped his hand to his side and took steps towards me.

My pulse started rising.

I wanted more than anything to turn away and run.The guy walking towards me felt nothing like the one I knew and that scared me.

Things were about to get real.