Love?

Vol 1

Arc 1 <The beginning after the end>

Chapter 3 : Love?

//I'm really sorry for being late to update this chapter upon having to focus on my study lately.Before start reading, please be remind that this novel is created by myself which is not a professional author. Some mistakes, both grammatical and logical, are inevitable.//

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• "Abcdefgh" => Character speech

• 'Abcdefgh' => Character thought

• Hanazu : => Someone who's speaking/thinking that time

• _abcdefgh,, => Character action

• (Abcdefgh) => Starting time of situation

• {ABCDEFGH} => Starting place of situation

• Abcdefgh_,, => Paragraph transition

• ~~~~~~~ => Time transition / skip

• >>>>>>>>> => Chapter start/end

• //Abcdefgh// => author announcement/speech

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"--Wait!--"

"Huh?"

Mika : "Wait...."

[_Hearing that, Hanazu that was ready to pack his bag change his view toward Mika, but....

An unexpected situation just happened_,,

Mika start undressing in front of Hanazu....._,,

Hanazu shocked as what just happen make him questioning the situation._]

Hanazu: "What? No Mika, what are you doing, are you out of your mind. This isn't not right."

Mika: "Don't you worry, girl only do this to the men she loves hehe."_as she approaching Hanazu.,,

Hanazu: "Please, Mika. Stop doing this"

[_Ignoring Hanazu word, Mika march toward him and pin him onto the bed....

As Mika clinging to Hanazu, Hanazu stopped resisting and have no intentions to stop what coming next.

Then Mika proceed to do 'the next step' and they spend their time until night....

But_,,

Little did Hanazu know, something is sparkling on Mika's bag_]

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(The next Day,)

[_Hanazu go to school like usual with Hitoshi, Hanazu plan on not going to tell Hitoshi what happen to him and Mika yesterday._]

Hitoshi : "Hey Hanazu, why your face look manlier than before, also why are you giving me some weird aura. What happen?

Hanazu : "Ah, it's nothing to worry about really, haha"

Hitoshi:"Oh...ok then, mann~~~. Now that I think about it, I'm so jealous you know, that you have a relationship with Mika, l also want that feeling too"

Hanazu:"haha,goodluck on that."

Hitoshi:"Sheesh"

[_As they keep walking, Hitoshi remembered something_]

Hitoshi:"Oh my, I just realized that I forgot to bring that homework from yesterday. Hanazu, please go first. I will catch on you later"

Hanazu:"Alright-"

[_After some time walking ,Hanazu finally arrived at school_,,

But something is not right,...the air around is not like usual as everyone especially girl just keep staring at Hanazu. Hanazu feel weird but then act like nothing happen. As Hanazu arrived at his class._]

"He is, teacher. He's the one violated me !!!"

[_A figure who Hanazu really know well is standing in front of him. She's Mika as she pointing her finger toward Hanazu accused that Hanazu have violated her._]

Hanazu :"WHAT!NO!! IM NOT DOING THAT,WHAT IS THIS MIKA!?."

Mika :"Don't act innocent you scumbag pervert ,you trick me and blackmailing me so you can use ME!."

Classmate 1 : " I don't even think that you will do this kind of thing, Sanzu"

Hanazu : "NOO I'm not doing that, I swear. You all don't even have a proof!!"

Teacher :"We all have proof Sanzu, Mika volunteered to show me a video where you violated her, please admitted your sin."

[_Mika then continuously crying and sobbing while smirk hideously to Hanazu._]

Hanazu : "No, Noo, Noooo, NO! it can't be serious, why am I, why am I getting this, no I must be dreaming,IT MUST BE!!!."

[_Hanazu then ran out from school and passing Hitoshi that just arrived at school._]

Hitoshi : "Bro, wait! Where are you going!?"

Hanazu : "No don't come near me, you mustn't , I'm a bad guyyy after all!"_while running,,

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[_Hanazu then keep running and crossing the road without looking at the streetlight.

Suddenly_]

Hitoshi : "HANAZU!!!WATCH OUT!"

[_Hearing that word, Hanazu redirecting his view to his left. The truck are coming to Hanazu_]

'Oh, this is it huh, after all I have been living, this is the end for me. Ah...,I hope that mom will not being sad about me...'

[_As the truck approaching Hanazu, he sees his past of living...._]

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(Flashback)

[_"The name is Hanayami Sanzu and people just called me Sanzu in school. Nowadays, I'm 17 years old though I don't feel like I was, up until today I don't feel like my life is worth it...."

In the past_,,

My Father Hanayami Sakuto have an affair with my mom even she's pregnant. He kicked my mom out of the house and only give a few money just to give birth to his child. Unfortunately it is, My mother desperately find a job so he can rent an apartment. Even being alone, she always take care of her child in her belly with cautious and love.

A few Month passed_,,

My mom was ready to give birth to us. Yes, my Mother bear a child of twin.

After being birthed safely after_,,

My mother felt so happy and crying nonstop as she fill her heart with joyfully of feeling. My mother then give me a name Hanayami Sanzu while my brother is Hanayami Hoshi.

After several years, my mother have raised us with cares and loves with fullfilling our wish and make us happy even though she work hard for it.

But, it all began to change after the "incident"._,,

It all started when I reach 8 years old. My brother Hoshi always make our mother proud of him with his good grade while mine was not any better,

Little by little I started to feel envy of my brother because she get all my mother's attention and love. I feel marginalized at just what happen.

One day_,,

I have a quarrel with my brother as he take my book and shred the draw that I was working on just because the draw don't contain him. Respond to that, My mother came and stopped us. Not long after she know the truth, she scolded me because I'm spend my time on some useless activity instead of studying so I can be smart like my brother._]

Sanzu : " Why is it always me to be at fault!"

[_Then I started sulking and run away from home,_]

Hoshi : "Brother, where are you going?"

[_My brother came after and chase me to apologize. But eventually I was crossing the road without thinking anything and there's car coming at me from the right direction.

Luckily, I had time to avoid it, but I heard some crashing sound behind.

As I turn around, I'm not believe my own eyes at that time as I see my brother was injured after getting hit by the car from earlier._]

Sanzu : "Brother!"

[_I rushed to him and knowing that he died after that.

At that time, from the root of my heart I felt so sad and the word regret, guilty and despair come to my mind as I was crying heavily.

After that Incident, my mother started hating on me even more even though I have apologize for hundred of time and try repent my sin.

Several years have past, and I still living my live without 'love' from the world important person. Even at school, I don't have any friend as I always make them feel uncomfortable being around me. I always think that I was unfortunate and hating myself for being born to this world. I try my best to be smart with the hope my mom will see me again like before. So, I work hard and get a good grade but unfortunately my mother still the same. She don't even care about when or how do I get back from school.

Now, for the first time I have some best friend that I can hang out together, I also felt the feeling of *love* but it cracked my heart up as I get betrayed by the feeling itself. Maybe it was my fault to trust it and hope that I can get that 'love' after all.

So now Im running from the emotion like before. Maybe this time was the end for me. If that so,I hope my mom don't feel sad about me..._]

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(Present time)

Hitoshi : "HANAZU!!!WATCH OUT!"

[_Crashed sound..._]

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