Chapter 33

"Aray ang sakit! Ang daming langgam!" OA na pag kaka comment ni Lindy sa amin ni Diken.

We're eating lunch. Diken is kinda extra sweet. Sinusubuan nya ako, at ganon din ako sa kanya.

He also promise na sasamahan akong makausap si dad.

Maybe Its time for me to forgive them.

Hayaan na lang ang lahat.

Tapos naman na. Wala na akong magagawa.

The damage had been done.

"Ikaw marami kang hindi sinasabi sa akin" sabi ko.

Nag peace sign sya. Tss. Childish.

"Oo ate marami." Sagot nya na bumalik sa pag papakaen kay Maggy.

Oh before i forgof, about Maggy ..

"Who's maggy's father Lindy?" I ask. I'm intently looking at her.

Nakita ko kung paano sya nataranta. She seems so uncomfortable with my question.

"I- i .. will tell you later ate, Just please not infront of my child" she said.

And i understand. So i nod.

"Let her pass this time baby" bulong ni Diken sa akin.

"Baka hindi ako makatulog mamaya, pag di ko nalaman" sagot ko naman.

Because its true. It bugs me. Matagal ko naman nang tinatanong si Lindy kung sino ang ama ng bata but she really did not telling it to me.

Ang alam ko si Miggy but she did not confirm it so napapaisip na talaga ako kung sino.

Nag aalala ako.

After the lunch nagpaalam si Diken na aalis na. Meron daw syang importanteng meeting by the afternoon.

"Always make sure that you will answer my call okay?" Bilin nya. I just nod at him.

He seems so not convince with me.

"Pag di ka sumagot after three rings, kahit nasaan kapa, pupuntahan kita" Creepy. But sweet.

"But how will you know kung nasaan ako?" Nakalabi kong tanong.

Nakayakap ako sa kanya. Parang ayaw ko syang bitawan. We're like teenagers that can't get enough with each other.

"I have ways. And trust me baby. I can find you" he said confidently.

After knowing who really Diken Vildamir is, i know and I'm sure he can really find me.

"So you're that powerful eh?" Pang aasar ko.

He smiled at me and putting light kisses to my lips.

"Yes. I am."

"Yabang naman ng Mahal ko" pang aasar ko.

"It sounds so very sweet that you call me mahal. I like it"

"Edi mahal." I kiss him.

We're in the middle of kissing each other when ..

"Akala ko ba aalis ka Diken?" Nakataas ang kilay na tanong ng mahadera kong kapatid.

Pinanlakihan ko sya ng mata.

She smirk at me.

I heard Diken chuckle.

"Yeah. Bye baby" paalam nya na hinalikan pa ako ng ilang beses.

"Ingat ka ha mahal" i said.

Akala ko aalis na sya kasi malapit na sya sa pinto nang ..

Bigla syang patakbong lumapit kung nasaan ako at hinalikan ako ng mariin.

"God, i can't get enough of these lips" he said while panting.

"You horny mahal?" I ask, whispering.

"Very." Then he kissed me again and again.

"Shooo, alis na. Alis na. I don't want any sweetness of this house. Layas" Sinira na naman ni Lindy ang moment.

Panira talaga kahit kailan.

Nagkatinginan kami ni Diken.

"Laters baby" then he wink at me and left

I was day dreaming ng umalis sya dahil sa laki ng pang kakangiti ko.

Nang may tumulak sakin.

"Hoy! Magising ka. Kadiri ka"

Tinaasan ko sya ng kilay.

"Let's have shake. I made you a Strawberry shake" she excitedly said habang hinihila ako papunta sa salas.

May naka set up na mini table. There have shakes and chips. Naka ready na din ang laptop.

"What is this?" I ask.

"Movie marathon. While I'm answering all your questions. I'm ready" she said.

I can feel that she's uncomfortable.

"Okay." Umupo ako.

Nag uumpisa na ang movie ay wala pa ding nag sasalita sa amin.

And i understand. Its a sensitive topic for her because its her life and her daughter.

At saka I'm enjoying my Strawberry Shake. Hmm .. this is so refreshing!

"Ate .." She's starting.

I look at her. Nakapikit ang mga mata nya. Nakakuyom ang mga kamao nya. She's angry. I know. I can sense it to her aura.

And when she open her eyes, I almost cry. She's hurting. I can see it in her eyes.

The pain, the anger, the longing.

I once felt it too. Alam kong hindi madali ang mga nararamdamang iyon.

I tap her shoulder. I guide her head to my shoulder and hug her.

I want her to feel that she's not alone and she can tell me everything.

I heard her cry. And it makes me cry too.

"Ate .." ulit nya.

"Iiyak mo lang. Di ka iiwan ng ate" pag aalo ko sa kanya.

I let her cry. I envelop her face to my palm and wiper her tears.

"I don't want to see you cry ..." I said. Its true. She's my other half. Akala ko sa mga mag asawa lang pwede ang salitang yun, pero nagkamali pala ako.

She's my twin. Pinagbubuntis pa lang kami ay magkasama na kami.

We have the same face. I can feel her pain and i know she can feel it same with mine.

"Because it can make you cry too" sagot nya habang patuloy ang pag iyak.

Ilang oras din kaming nag iyakan. Walang salita namutawi, wari'y sapat na muna na ang mga luhang mag usap para ipadama ang sakit sa isa't isa.

"Okay. About Maggy's father.." umpisa nya. She's trying to wipe the tears na umaalpas sa mga ma ta nya.

Pero di katulad kanina. Na halos hindi sya makahinga sa pag iyak.

"Its okay. If you're not ready to talk about it, I will be patiently waiting :)" i assure her.

Umiling sya.

"I won't never be ready so its better to say it now. Ang bigat na ate. Sobrang bigat na" as she said, the pain is so visible to her voice.

I answered with a nod. I silently listen to her.

"Alam kong alam mo na kung sino ang ama nya, but you're waiting for my confirmation. Yes, Its Miggy."

"I met him at the Race Track. He's so fucking hot and I like him"

"Then its just happened. I feel inlove with him .."

Halos hindi ako magsalita sa mga narinig ko.

But i still didn't say a word.

"And boom! Dumating si Maggy. I messed up because i used Diken, and I am so sorry for that. Akala ko .. akala ko ..okay lang .

Makakaya ng konsensya ko, pero hindi pala. Everytime i saw your pain, para akong pinapatay"

Dahil sa sinabi nya i can't stop myself to cry again. I remember those pain.

"I run away. Nalaman kong alam na nya na sya ang ama .. "

Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko ..

"Why are you running away? I remember Miggy begging to know where you are" i ask. Confused.

"Because he wants the child! Yun lang talaga ang habol nya sa akin ate! He never loved me!" Nag umpisa na naman itong umiyak ng matunog.

I am so confuse right now.

May sasabihin pa sana ako ng biglang ..

"WHY ARE YOU NOT ANSWERING YOUR GODDAMN PHONE  LEIGH!" He shouted through the door. I can see his madness.

I smiled. Mabilis akong lumapit at Niyakap sya.

"I missed you already"