Second Chance
Warnings: attempted suicide, self harm, use of syringe/needle to self harm
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Logan's POV:
I.. I can't anymore... I can't...
I hear the pouring of rain outside. Just like our tears. The sad tears of a heart broken family who lost their father... The happy one... The bubbly one.... the person who would always be there for his friends....
"Please..... I need him.." I almost silently, beg in my state of deep depression. I want him back... No... NEED him back... We all do...
I want to turn back time to when we were in the park, walking side by side, hand in hand...
If I could turn back time...
I wouldn't have told him my dream which turned out to be a nightmare.... I would've treasured every little joy he gave us all... The warm hugs, silly jokes, and just the little heart warming smile....
But....
That smile is gone.... the heart warming smile has disappeared.... replaced with a grim frown... The jokes so silly they were funny, now fading away along with the happiness we felt after hearing them...
I hear faint voices asking me what I'm doing.... Its astonishingly simple....
"Sparing you my company... forever..." I sadly smile as I plunge the sharp syringe I found into my arm multiple times watching the blood pour from the wounds.
"LOGAN STOP!" The others shouted and took the syringe from me and held my hands behind my back.
I thought only one thing.... 'I truly deserve to die'
Patton's POV:
It's so cold.... Everything I hear is muffled... Anything I can see, is extremely blurry....
But... what's that screaming..?
"I LOVED HIM SO MUCH!! LET ME GO!! I DESERVE THIS!!"
Its Logan.... I want to get to him... But my body won't let me... Please.. I want to go to him..
"LOGAN STOP!! STOP!! PLEASE!!"
I'd recognize that voice anywhere... Virgil.
Logan what are you doing...?
My body finally lets me move but with every small movement it feels like I'm being stabbed in that muscle. I ignore the pain and get up, even though I can't see, I can barely hear, and can hardly walk.
I got to the door to my room and see my family. All holding Logan back from a syringe.... He tried to kill himself....
"Logan stop..." I manage to choke out.
Everyone freezes and turns to me.
Logan stared at the floor, I don't think he believed it was me. I walked over to him and managed to stand still without wobbling so much, I cupped his cheeks and lifted his face to meet my eyes. His eyes were tightly shut, tear stains covering his cheeks.
"Logan, open your eyes." He hesitantly opened his eyes and gasped when he saw me.
"P.... Patton...?" He looked so depressed... he seemed more dead than I was moments ago..
"It's me Logi," I nodded and forced a smile. He pushed the others away and hugged me tightly.
It hurt so much... My body was so fragile and sensitive.... The smallest touch on my skin felt like ice on burning metal... yet I hugged him back anyway...
"You're back.... I'm sorry... I'm so so so sorry..." Logi cried, he then rambled on about how it was all his fault.
I felt so bad for him... I mean he did cheat but... I was drunk and started the fight...
"Patton please please forgive me... All I want is your forgiveness... I broke up with william... I haven't eaten or drank anything except for the things the others forced me to eat.... I've barely slept..." he fell to his knees and grabbed the bottom of my shirt desperately clinging to the material as he stared up at me with broken eyes.
I was very surprised and kinda startled.... He came everyday to the hospital and repeated similar things to me... he gave me gifts and other presents... He went through all this because he made a mistake... Oh Logan..
"Even if you don't really, I need this, I'm so desperate-" I cut him off by slapping my hand over his mouth.
"Logan, calm down," I grab his hands and pull him to his feet. He didn't break eye contact with me the whole time, I could see all the emotion and depression in his eyes... the eyes of a heart broken man... I should know.. I was heart broken once too...
He stood up and looked down at me, not saying anything, just waiting for my response... He went through all this because he regretted what he did...
"Do you truly love me..? Did you go through all of this... because you missed me? You gave me all of those presents and gifts.... Because-"
"Yes Patton... yes yes yes... I hate myself for what I did... I want to make it up to you.... I know you won't take me back so I'll promise to be the best of friend I could be..." he held my hands to his cheeks, I caressed his cheeks with my thumbs and smiled softly at him.
"I.... I forgive you.."
"F.... For real..?" He asked hope in his voice and eyes.
"For real." I nodded and pulled him into a hug. Although it hurt, I knew he wanted it more than anything. The others stood behind him in pure shock.
"What are you waiting for? Join the hug," I held out my arms for everyone to join. They all hugged me, it hurt like hell but it also felt good.
"Lo, I'm not going to rush back into our relationship, I'm not ready. But you'll wait until I am right?"
"I'll wait for as long as you need Pat.." He nodded smiling sadly.
"Pat I'm so happy you're okay!" Virgil hugged me sobbing onto my shoulder. I pet his head and frown "I didn't mean to scare you Virge,"
"Dad, call me those stupid nicknames... please.." I was surprised by what he said. I thought he didn't want to be called those names.
"Really? Cause you-"
"Forget what I said... I miss the silly things..."
"Yeah we heard you died and we panicked, I don't want my BFF to die." Roman wiped his tears away and smiled at me.
Janus nodded and took my hand "We have everything to thank you for,"
"It was basically you who got me and Janus together, and the dog." Remus smiled.
I.... I had no idea I made such a big impact to their lives...
"I.. I didn't think I was so important to you guys..." I spoke my mind and looked over at each of their faces. They looked so shocked and surprised by what I said...
"We love you Patton," they all said in unison.
"I love you guys too," I let tears flow down my cheeks as I hug my family close.
I love you all so much..