I hate myself more than I hate you
Suyin froze.
"T-that. It was nothing."
Jianyu stared at her and said, "I see…"
Suyin cried, "Jianyu…I-I was touched by those men. Do you know how much they tortured me? Do you know how much I begged them? I'm not pure anymore. They-they all had their way with me." She was crying hard, "You won't leave me right, Jianyu? I really need you. I want to be with you. If you'll be with me then I know that I can come out of this. So, Jianyu…can I ask you something?"
"What?"
She looked at him hopefully, "I know it's very selfish of me but can you please...break up with Nana?"
Silence.
"I-I know that you are dating her now, but…but I want you back Jianyu. I can't stop myself. Especially after what happened now. I need your support. I want you here as my boyfriend, not just my friend. I know Nana will hate me, but I will do my best to apologize to her and make her understand."
He said nothing.