How Complicated

'Bugger got caught proposing to someone else'.

Nasike's heart skipped a bit as she stared at the nonchalant Binti in pity while Khalayi laughed out unsympathetically with an 'I told you so' look plastered on her face. Binti and the person she assumed was her fiance had been dating for almost 5 years now since university. His physique screamed out his masculinity. He had chiseled jaw, tanned skin, squared and slightly muscular torso that was always hidden in official shirts and long legs that she loved whenever they were wrapped around her waist. Binti not only loved his brown eyes that smiled in mischief and lovely body but also his sense of humor and the way he took control of every situation. He was decisive and firm, or so she thought.

As a psychiatrist who was used to taking charge, she did not mind relinquishing her control to him. He had grown into her fortress and slowly she had almost forgotten who she was. One could conclude that later on, she began living her life for him, he became her universe. They had gotten engaged 6 months ago the previous year and were planning to have a wedding 18 months later. Micah had wanted to hold their wedding but she was reluctant to do so since she had a lot of work scheduled then that she could not postpone. Their love life had taken a hit since then but she never thought that it would be serious enough to lead to a break-up. They always patched things up. Plus, in her opinion, none of them was about to leave so the wedding did not have to be rushed. She was wrong. A month ago, she saw him proposing to a lady at a high-end hotel as she talked to one of her donors and supporters.

If she had been adversely affected by the scene, she did not show it to the world. She ensured that her meeting had successfully ended before she excused herself in the name of greeting a good friend. She headed to their table, said hi and congratulated them. After throwing in a 'see you around' and 'hope to be invited to your wedding' she winked at Micah then sauntered away. The turmoil and wretchedness she felt was hidden in the depth of her heart.It had required so much self control to avoid making a scene.

Khalayi had never favored Micah and in her own crude and tactless way, she had told her to break up with him before she got hurt. She thought it was just a 17 year old teenager bumbling. However, she wished that these teenager had atleast expounded on her dislike. That way, she would have a reason to leave the bugger. Or may be not.

The past one month had been hell for her. She had blocked the guy and stamped down her urge to confront him. She was not going to give him the satisfaction of seeing her broken. She had held itin for over a month and poured herself into work. A psychiatrist who ignored her pain and tried to solve other's pain. As Binti poured her heart out and drunk, Khalayi's dismissiveness and savagery took a back seat. Nasike got to see another side of her friend. Somehow, she got conflicted. What Khalayi did made her want to forgive her and forget her past atrocities yet the pain she went through because of her kept on surfacing.

At 1.00 am, a drunk, listless and blacked out Binti was carried into a cab. Nasike's parents had already been formed that she will spent the night at one of her friend's house. In the cab, Binti rested on Khalayi's shoulder. Looking ahead sternly, Khalayi muttered a curt yet sincere sorry. It was uncertain whether the sorry was directed to Binti or Nasike. Yet when Nasike looked at her, she saw Khalayi looking at her with her blank yet sincere eyes veiled by arrogance.

'This was...'

How complicated.