7

We lay there panting for a while before we try to sit up again. I look at them and see the angry red marks on their bodies where I tried to claim them as mine and look down and see similar marks on me. Fuck how would we even be able to tell who's mark belonged to who? Does it really even matter?

I just made out with two guys and I jacked them both off. Of course they jacked me off too but I mean. Was that masterbating or sex? Is there even a difference? What did we just do to ourselves?

"Am I a terrible boyfriend?" I asked no one in particular before dropping back onto the bed again.

"Why would you ask that?" Icyhot leaned towards me looking down at me confused but peaceful.

"I wasn't willing to do any of that with Kiri. I just wanted sweet kisses and to be held by him. Not this," I tried to explain and I see Deku lean towards me from the other side.

"Do you regret doing it?" Icyhot asked and I shook my head no. As crazy as it was, I don't, I feel relaxed.

"From what we heard you tell Aunty you were very clear about what you wanted from your relationship from the beginning. So no, I don't think that makes you a bad boyfriend. If anything it makes him a bad boyfriend for not listening," Deku answered and I propped myself up on my elbows.

"But," I didn't really know what to say to that. It still felt wrong somehow. Like I wasn't giving him the credit he was due. He was so... What? Sweet? Caring? When did that end? Why did he change?

"Bakugo, think about what we just did. At any point did any of us try to push the other away?" Icyhot asked me, I thought about it. We tried to reason with each other, explain why it was a bad idea, we tried to make ourselves stop and actually think about what we wanted. But no, we all wanted it. We all gave each other plenty of time to voice our concerns or leave if we wanted.

"No. It was amazing, like I was actually being heard even when I wasn't talking." I give him a smirk looking at a mark on his chest that I know for damn sure I left.

"If the three of us can communicate with each other and still hear each other out then you and Kirishima should have been able to as well," Deku shook his head looking at me. Then he smiled, "Like for example I want to cuddle. How do you two feel about that?"

"Like I want to hold you down and kiss on you," I answered honestly.

"Then do it," he smirked at me. I smiled and pushed him over, trapping him against me as I held him down giving him light kisses that he giggled at. Icyhot crawled onto his other side and joined me giving him ticklish kiss after ticklish kiss. It wasn't until he was begging us to stop that we had mercy on him and cuddled on his chest.

"I think you're right, nerd. This is a healthy relationship. A very weird one, but healthy," I sigh nuzzling Icyhot who grinned back at me. I had the craziest urge to do something and decided to just go with it.

"Icyhot close your eyes. I want to try something," he did what I said without a second thought, just giving me his blind faith and trust. Please don't let this ruin that! I begged myself as I reached over and kissed his scar gently. I started by his nose and slowly made my way to his ear. I could hear his breathing shuddering and I whispered, "Do you want me to stop?" I waited for an answer and he shook his head very slightly no before returning to what I was doing.

I like to give kisses, light sweet kisses that shower affection. Maybe that's what I liked so much about Kiri. The fact that he liked the affection but this was different. Icyhot needed the affection and I liked giving it a great deal more. Deku watched for a while before joining in showering the other side of his face with light, sweet kisses. We ended up pushing him gently on his back and just continuing. It didn't get heated again but when he started crying I kissed the tears away too.

"If you two are going to be my boyfriends then you need to know a few things about me but first I don't just do things for fun. Don't get me wrong, that was fun, oh so much fun," I whispered, still giving gentle kisses and listening to them hum in agreement. "But I want something real. I don't want to waste my time."

"Kacchan I never wanted fun. I just wanted to be happy and I am when I'm with you two," I hear Deku coo a little with the kisses.

"I just don't want to be in pain anymore and it stops with you two. I feel good with you both. I feel safe or at least safer than I've ever felt before." Icyhot sighed out relaxing under our touch.

I pull away giving him one last peck on the nose before I do. "Then I should tell you about my nightmares. Before we go any farther, before we get any closer." Deku stopped and they both nodded and I told them.

I told them everyhing from the beginning from when I was held hostage by the sludge villain to kidnapped to when Shigaraki raped me using a broom telling me that no one will ever want me. I told them everything from my nightmares of reliving it, to watching All Might die because I couldn't save him. Because I wasn't strong enough to save him.

Todoroki told us about growing up about how his father beat him and his siblings and then called it training. How he was beaten for feeling anything that Endeavor didn't see as strong. How he learned not to feel anything at all, or at least not to show it. How his mother poured the boiling water on his face because he looked so much like his father who raped her repeatedly to get the child he wanted. His creation.

Deku told us everything too. I never knew he was attacked by that same sludge villain. I never knew he blamed himself for him getting away and then finding me. He told us about the expectations put on him by All Might, most of which I knew but I didn't know all of it. Symbol of Peace? Yeah I knew that but, Deku? The one who has literally broken every bone in his body again and again? I knew how he wanted me to be the Symbol of Victory but still. I never knew about Sir Nighteye's expectations, his quirk, the future he was supposed to change. Then everything he had to go through because of it. He almost didn't tell Todoroki how he got his quirk at all but I put a hand on his mouth and gave him a look.

"You can't tell, but I can. If you want me too?" I asked him and he nodded before starting to cry. I told Todoroki how Deku had been quirkless growing up and how he only got his quirk because All Might gave him his. He was surprised but his answer had me laughing.

"That honestly makes more sense than my secret love child theory," I was roaring in laughter. It was only after a few seconds that they joined me.

We ended up getting dressed making sure none of the marks were showing after we were dressed and walked out of Todoroki's room together. So much happened in such a short time, were we really only in there for a few hours?

"I want some hot cocoa. The extras better not have drank it all!" I huff while still smiling my hands behind my head as I walk out backwards. I feel so light like I could jump and never stop going.

"I'm sure no one was dumb enough to drink the cocoa that has Dynamight written on it in big block letters, Icyhot rolled his eyes.

"Kacchan you have an addiction, you know that?" Deku giggled and I smiled in response.

"Maybe I do. Got a problem with that?" I asked playfully. Anyone else probably would have thought I was threatening him but the way his eyes lit up told me that he knew I was teasing.

"You know for some reason I really want hot cocoa now?" Todoroki laughed and I turned around, my head held high and my eyes closed.

"See it's the best out there and I am going to be the best!" I open my eyes just before walking into Kirishima and Sero. My smile dropped like a lead weight. I dropped my arms to my side and turned to the elevator.

Kiri grabbed my arm, "Babe, please can we talk?"

I jerk my arm from his grip and looked at Icyhot and Deku who smiled before Deku stood between me and Kiri and Icyhot stood at my side. I took a deep breath and turned back to him.

"What do you want?" I glared at him finally ready to hear what he had to say. For once I don't feel alone, not anymore.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. I just didn't want to hurt you more and after you told me why you wanted to sleep I didn't want you to think that the only reason I came over was-"

I cut him off, "Sex." I glared at him and Sero started fidgeting. I guess he still hasn't told the rest of the squad that he tried to molest me in my sleep. Deku stayed where he was but Icyhot took a step forward so that they were both between me and Kiri.

I see Kiri deflate and nod before agreeing, "Yeah, I just thought you were being shy before, I didn't think that you would actually just want to cuddle."

"At what point did I ever lie to you while we were dating? Or for that matter before? Lying is a waste of time and energy," I asked him, my voice was angry but it was also quiet and Sero was inching his way back. This was not a side of me he was used to seeing and it was probably scary. Sure I scream and shout and literally blow up but this quite mad? Not really my thing, and I don't think any of the extras have seen me like this.

"I never once lied to you. I didn't hide our relationship at any point because if I'm going to be with someone I want it to be real. It was never just fun for me. But that seems to be all it was to you." I narrowed my eyes to glare at him.

"Look, we just wanted to get some fresh air and maybe some cocoa before going back to our movie marathon. So later, I guess," I huff and turn away knowing that Deku and Icyhot were glaring at my ex but following me anyway. Once we were in the elevator and doors closed I felt myself deflate. That was exhausting.

"Does this mean that it's okay for everyone to know that the three of us are together?" Icyhot asked curiously. I looked up at him confused.

"Didn't you just hear me? I don't hide who I like, I mean unless you two don't want people knowing?" I asked now looking back and forth between them. Only to see them both grin at me.

"No, I want the whole world to know that Kacchan is mine!" Deku grinned and Icyhot laughed.

"I don't want the limelight so the world can know about you two so long as neither of you forget me," Icyhot grinned at me.

"I don't want to hide you though. But I won't point you out either if that's what you want," I frown and he pulls me closer and gives me a light kiss on the lips.

"Don't hide me then," he pulled me into a kiss and Deku pushed us apart, giving us each a kiss before the doors opened.

"We will talk about this later," he pouted as Shoji and Koda got on and then Iida and Kaminari got on at the next floor. We all went down to the ground floor and we all went our separate ways. Icyhot, Deku and I went to the kitchen while the others seemed to gather around the common area.

Icyhot boiled some water and I got out my cocoa mix and Deku found peppermints and marshmallows from only All Might knows where. We made the cocoa and sat around drinking on it before making more to take to the room with us.

"So would you two want to go see the new All Might Movie with me?" I asked nervously, fidgeting with my cup. "It's All Might Peace and War and I hear it's supposed to be as good as the Rise of All Might."

"That sounds like fun, I hear that this one is rated R because of sexual content. It sounds like All Might gets a love interest in the movie," Deku smiled at me leaning against me. Oh I didn't know that there was sexual stuff. Will I be able to last with both of them there with me?

"It does sound like fun. It's a date then," Icyhot smiled from my other side and I grinned. You know what, I don't have anything to worry about. They both know that I am trying in my own weird way to move on and this is just a small step towards that.

"It's supposed to come out tomorrow so we can binge watch the others leading up to it tonight," I can't help laughing at the way Deku started cheering and dancing around the kitchen at that and neither could Icyhot.

"Dude did I just hear Bakugo laughing?" Kaminari walked in looking shell shocked.

"What if you did?" I asked him already defensive. 

"I'd ask who you were plotting to kill and if I needed to have an alibi ready for you all?" Kaminari answered so seriously that we all laughed. I was starting to feel free of all the negativity from the past few weeks maybe longer. I am finally sleeping again and I feel rested. I finally got everything off my chest and actually told someone about being raped. I mean yeah, Aizawa Sensei knew and so did Hound Dog and Recovery Girl but I didn't tell them. They found out from the doctor after they rescued me.

I was finally feeling free.

We take the pitcher of hot cocoa with us now that it has cooled off and Todoroki is the one carrying it when we walk into the common area to see Eraserhead and Hound Dog standing there. Fuck, now what?

"Is everything alright?" Deku asked after we all froze looking at our teachers.

"Yes, it's just come to our attention that your education might be lacking due to some things said in the class group chat as well as a few other things that were brought to my attention before." I frown, what the hell is he talking about?

"What was said in the class chat?" I asked turning to Deku and Icyhot who both shrugged. Deku and I pulled out our phones and tilted them so Icyhot could see since he was still holding the cocoa and pulled up the class chat and scrolled back a lot. My face was bright red.

"Soy Sauce Face I'm going to fucking kill you!" I dropped my phone and looked around searching for him only to see him hiding by the stairs.

Cellophane: So the reason Bakugo is pissed is because he told Kiri no and Kiri didn't listen. I mean isn't that rape though?

"I swear I meant to send that in the Bakusquad chat, not the class chat!" He yelled while running away from me.

"Do I look like a fucking victim to you?" I screeched setting off explosions as I ran.

I didn't even see Deku trying to catch me until I felt him grab me and pull me back. "It's okay, we have you now." When did I start crying? When did I let my weakness consume me? "Kacchan, we're here now." He whispered his face in mine and Icyhot was behind me guarding us.

"No one will ever touch you unless you want them to touch you. Do you understand?" I heard Icyhot whisper and his arms were around me and Deku as I cried in their arms.

So much for feeling free. I feel like my world just ended.