First Draft

You can understand my problem after reading the first draft that I prepared for my novel about the thing I spoke about in the last chapter about the language barrier.

From the last few days she is behaving abnormally like I am an enemy she must take down at any cost. Such a fast mood swings till two days earlier she was talking like we can't leave each other and so full of love, I mean I love her to the core of my heart and she also loved me as I was her everything but now I am invisible from her. I don't know why she is behaving like this but I had to sort out this matter otherwise if it things get dragged on for more time then it will just kill me more I loved her but I am the worst for her I want to talk to her but also I am afraid that the feeling I have now of all things are her way of trying to break up with me what I gotta do after will I be able to take it are it can be because of the exams too we just had completed our board exams and mathematics was so tough maybe because of that she is upset and don't want to talk I think I should talk to her to ease her worries and for the answer to my question as I have a feeling that things are not as east it seems to be.

But its killing me inside as i can't just find the reason? why she is leaving me after the time we have spent together and why she is doing all this after all we have spend so much time together why now? so i steeled my heart and contacted her and last night just from what happened yesterday night too she was chatting like I am such a worse.

*****She is online******

Me: - hii

**seen no reply**

Me: - I am sorry.

Sanaya: - I am not angry from you.

Sanaya: - I am only asking you to not to message me, u can't understand this simple thing?

Me: - But why?

Sanaya: - Because I don't want to talk to you.

Me: - that's why only I am seeking apology. You only tell me what I can do? To get your forgiveness.

Sanaya: - I asked you not to message me otherwise I had to block your number decision is yours.

Me: - But what's my fault?

Sanaya: - You have done no mistake; I only want to end this matter.

Sanaya: - Even school is too end now I also want to end this. So that there will be no problem.

Me: - Problem how?

Me: - this is creating problem for me more now.

Sanaya: - now I can make you understand this. I am sorry.

Me: - But I bet the problems what you are thinking would not happen.

Sanaya: - Rahul!! I have blocked everyone now only you are remaining. If you will not listen me I had to block you too.

Me: - but what's my fault?

Sanaya: - listen I am fed up of all this now. I won't tolerate anyone now.

Me: - I will not get even one last chance too?

Sanaya: - Nope

Me: - Think one last time again.

Sanaya: - I have taken this decision after thinking a lot only so please don't try to contact me.

Me :- But at least tell me the reason for this abrupt ending of our love relationship as it was well going already.

Sanaya :- well love was always one-sided from your side and for me i just don't want to break your heart that's why now that the school life has ended its the time to ebd this too.

Me :- HAHAHA one-sided? come on girl all the promises you made and all the time spend together it was all one-sided too?

Sanaya :- That's enough!!! i don't want to talk to you now. You are just another person that i needed during the time so that's it now we have nothing to talk about and now i am blocking you.

******* blocked ********

Me :- But why me? Why don't you told me when i was confessing you? Why didn't you tell me this all when i was ruining myself to help you out there? Why didn't you tell me when i was caught in the papers helping you? why? why?

Me:- why don't you answer my all the why's? so that i can solve the all this? i left everything for you and now you are telling me it's all facade? and nothing else please someone give me the answers??

Me:- please answer me???

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I was staring on the screen waiting for the reply but no answer. but i didn't get any reply. I had a vacant look in my eyes i don't know why all this is happening as she was the only person that i can feel bit of warmth but now all ended like this no i can't let it end it like this i have to contact her and know these answer but at the same time when i was unable to contact her i feel relieved too is this contradicctory? but i am having both the feelings write now i want to know all the answers too and afraid too know to.

when i was having all these feeling i thought for all the memories we have with each other they were reeling in my mind to find the answers to why these were happening where i had gone wrong? but i can't find the answers to these questions so after mulling over half a day i with all my strength decided to call her. but when i called her only the call was going after but there was no response only

"the number you are trying to contact is not answering at this moment, keep in the line or call again later"

i thought she doesn't want to talk to me but for me the answers were the hope to redeem myself so i call again but there was same thing happening again and again. seeing her not picking up the phone devastated me and throw ed the phone away and sat down on the spot thinking all the things that's happening i don't know what to do now. what to think ? why?

i don't know how much time i sat there looking at the void reeling the memories i have with her. her smile, her way of talking, her every actions that made me skip my beat, her speaking all these memories just kept reeling within me as i was submerged within my memories my cellphone started ringing but i was still in daze so i didn't notice anything but when it started ringing again i was jolted awake and scrambled towards the phone but i can't find it i was happy thinking that finally she called me but i can't find my phone i was anxious that if i don't find the phone i won't be able to talk to her again so i started scavenging in my room which had turned it into a garbage bin and finally found the phone in one corner of the room without noticing the caller i received the call and bombarded the caller by all the questions but in return i heard my best friend voice asking what's going on so i

How can I stop contacting her? I have loved her always now suddenly she is asking me to forget her. and why does she have to do all these things and suddenly too we were having good time during these days. or was it just my illusion? or there are something that are not in the light. was there any truth behind her anything she told me?

You all are intrigued by how i can't read the true face of the girl? but would you believe me if i say the facade she shown in front me was truly of the girl smitten in love me? but all these facade that she shown in front me was all to spend some time? or ruining my life? or for what? want to know all these answers? then i think you all would also like to know my past too? and why don't you help me find those answer and see if it's there or not?

I will be back again someday with a new chapter about my various struggles about writing a web novel