Chapter 6

(itsuki POV. Before)

My name is itsuki kagami, i live in an orphanage for 10 years before it closed down. Since then i was living alone, but it doesn't matter to me since even in the orphanage was an outcast so i got used to it. Still that doesn't change the fact that my life was hell. I did many jobs from washing dishes to cleaning up trash.

Just to fill my stomach and sometimes i got to school close to the orphanage i know the teachers in the school so they let me sit in the class for free. Of course i know they did that out of pity but i still accept it since i got no choice, thats my only chance to survive in the modern world.

Some of my classmates envy me thinking i got extra classes from the teachers and some even mocked and insult me, but what did they know? Nothing, they think my life is perfect because i got favored by the teachers even tho they didn't know my life outside of school. They always call me lucky bastards, how did kids even know what bastard means.

Sometime i even considered dying. Thinking dying would be better for me since i got nothing to lose, nothing to live for and maybe the after life would be a better place. So i did.

I was 12 when i tried to hang myself inside an abandoned building. But when i was preparing the rope i saw a book titled 'attack on titan' lying in the middle of the room in a table if it was waiting for me to pick it up so i did i picked it up and open it i flipped a few page and i was stunned and felt many kind of emotion that i have never felt before. as i saw her a kid she looks 5 years younger than me.

With long and beautiful silky black hair pared with a shiny black eyes and soft porcelain white skin. I was so mesmerised by her beauty that i completely forgot about my suicide attempt. I stared at the picture for about 10 minutes until i decide it was enough and keep reading every time i saw her face i stared at it for exactly 5 minutes and then start reading again trying to find more page where i can find her. As i reach the last page i panicked thinking it was the end.

I ran as fast as i can trying to find someone who know where i can get more when i reached the school i sprint to the teachers office. They were surprised from my sudden questions. I asked them it were already ending, if there's more then where i can get it and how.

They were stunned for a second then started to answer my questions, i also asked them whats the name of the girl i found in it when they said mikasa ackerman it was my turn to be stunned it was as it i was hearing the heavenly bell ring. i think- no it is better than that, it was as if she was personally telling it to me while hugging me with her tiny hands.

Since then i starter to work harder just to buy the next volume. And i also watch its anime version it was a hundred times better than the comik version of it, and it means her beauty will also rise up to hundred times. I almost pass out wjen i saw her wearing the cadet uniform since i can see her curve very clearly seriously she can make a rag a piece of art worth millions.

It has been 7 years since then, i was both sad and angry at the ending of the franchise. Sad for mikasa as she lost the only one that can make her happy. And angry at eren for leaving mikasa like that. I thought they would live happily after they stopped the rumbling but i can't blame him since everything he did is for her and their friends.

And sad again as mikasa has been lonely for 10 years. Then my anger burst through the roof creating a red pillar that pierce thru the sky and can only be seen when you imagine it as mikasa married that shit eating horse named jean.

I usually dont care about jean since i thought eren and mikasa will be together, and i only approved eren because he was ready to sacrifice himself just for her, and i still hate him for abusing her both mentally and physically. but jean who looked like an old man in his early 40 even though he wasn't even 20, Married her. why? Eren look like he was an old man but thats because of the Curse of ymir and excess transformation. So why?

I don't know, so i left my house to cool off.

And you know the rest.

(A/N:i tried and it was my first time creating that ^^^. So please tell me what you think.)

(itsuki POV. After)

Its been 2 months since i got reincarnated in this world many thing happen like i met eren and his parents they tried to invite me to their home, but i politely refused because i don't want to get close to them i knew what will happen to them in the future.

So if i have gotten closer to them it would be a problem since when they die i probably won't be able to suppress my guilt.

Then i also met armin at first he was shy and timid but by the time pass he started to open up to me and we started to get along. And eren also began to say 'i will go outside to see the world and to get out of this cage called walls' i think that's what he said. Anyway i was surprised when they told me they want to train with me. I was scared a little bit since i knew armin would notice my strength that was still rising every day.

But the best part in this two months is that when it was after my first week in this world grisha said he will go check on the ackerman family that's living inside the wall maria in the woods. Hearing that my emotions have gone into chaos. One second i was exited next i was nervous then i bacame scared thinking what if i mess it up? what if i make her angry at our first meeting? Ahhh this is killing me.

After calmung my self down i build up my courage thinking 'you won't find out if you dont try' repeatedly like a mantra. Then i asked.

"can i go with you?"

"huh? But it would be a long way from here, you okay with that?" he replied panicked a bit as he thought it would be tiring to go with a child especially when its inside wall maria.

Noticing grisha panic i smiled and said "ah, you dont have to worry uncle i can take care or my self"

"th-thats not what i-" before he can even complete what he wanted to say i cut him.

"please~" i said as he looked at grisha with a teary eye.

Seeing what itsuki was doing he panicked again for a bit then sighed "sigh~. Okay okay fine, i'll take you with me. But we'll leave after we eat"

"Nn" i nod and started to eat quickly.

After we eat i help carla washing the dishes.

Then drag grisha and we start to walk to mikasa's house.

*knock* *knock*

After knocking at the door i heard a heavenly voice saying 'coming~'

*creek*

As the door opens i saw-.

(to be continued)

(A/N not the kind of explanation you expect, right? Bye~.)

(A/N: oh yeah how can i make a book cover? Every pic i get won't work.)