FINDING HER

LEO'S POV

Hours turned to days, days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months. We have searched the entire ocean for her but with no success. Each time I sleep, I am woken up by the gun shots that she recieved before falling off. The scene kept replaying in my head over and over each time i closed my eyes, not sure how I will survive. My children are growing up without there mother beside them and I can't even spend time with the. Ever since we came back from the ship things haven't been normal, I was sad about not being able to save my wife but Happy because i got to see my precious children. The first time I saw them, the sadness was replaced with happiness but at the same time guilt, If I wouldn't have underestimated Miguel then non of this would have happened and right now she would have been with me and our children. I remembered when I first entered the house and the first thing I heard was the babies crying. I was so scares to hold them for I believed I had done them wrong. Nanny Lisa gave her to me and I couldn't take her. She later gave me a letter, this letter was from Arsinoe. "I know by the time you read this something must have happened to me that I would not have made it back home with you. I know it took me very long to accept my feeling for you and I know i did put you under alot of tribulations but i would like to let you know I would always look for you in a crowed full of people and I would always love you and choose you, beacuse its you. I don't know what will happen but I have left my precious babies with you i need you to love them for the both of us, kiss them for the both of us and hold them for the both of us. I know naming them was supposed to be for the both of us but i would like you to name them Emryn and Elain, I always wanted my daughters name to be Emryn. Elain sounded sweet so I knew it would fit his perfect face, I know I might not see them again but that will not let me love all of you less. I would need you to take over the organisation if i don't come back for it can't fall into the wrong hands, you need not worry Cassian will help you out. I also left him all the instruction and there is an envelop at my dresser which will help you to run things smoothly I know that what I am asking for is to much but I have no choice if i don't make it. My people will stand by your side, I love you so much."

 LOVE ARSINOE.

The more I read the letter the more I kept blaming myself, if i had just taken enough precaution them non of this would not have happened and you would be here.

Time went by really faster trying to juggle looking for you, running the underworld, your business and mine and raising our children, sometimes I feel like I have not given them enough me time. But i made sure that every weekend I would spend with them, they are still young and I am pretty sure they haven't even mastered my face, I always seem like a new person each time they look at me. It has not been fair on my part. Cassian would always return with the same news. Laura has been helping alot with running the Royal Empire Hotel and it's branches bit i could feel how it's affecting her social like, each time sit down an't think about it, I am still amazed on how you handled everything with ease.

The kids are seven months now, yesterday while I was spending time with them Emryn said her first work, I thought it would have been me but she said yours first, I guess your presence is way more visible than mine but atleast they said 'mama'. "Sir, the search team is here, they would like to have a word with you" Cassian informed me, as I nodded he escorted two gentlemen to my study Room "yes how may i help you?" I spoke signalling them to take a sit "Sir its been seven months and we have not been able to locate your wife's whereabouts, we have been informed by the court to stop the search and declare your wife dead" I could not understand what they were saying, I mean how could they just stop the search and declare my wife dead are they insane or what "can you here what you just said, stop the search, and declare my wife dead, have you gone mad or what, no one is stopping the search and no one is being declared dead, I know she is still alive, I can still feel her, so i know she is alive, so no the search continues" "I am sorry sir but that's what the court had decided, we would take our leave now" I was filled with anger, I could not believe that they just decided to stop the search just like that. "Cassian, get people to continue the search search everywhere no matter what". Each day my world keeps crumbling down slowly, if it wasn't for the kids i would have been devastated than this. Each day i keep standing at the window remebering how you really liked it, saying you could see the garden and the flowers from here and i can actually see it, reading the letter you gave me for in it i could here your voice, I had not changed anything in the house for i wanted it to still look and smell like you. Not being able to hold you or touch you keeps killing me every time. I know that you are there, somewhere out there, I know it I can feel you, I know you are not dead and i will find you no matter what. I need you and the kids need there mother by there side, so please come back to us.