What I learned

What I learned later was that our headmaster was so impressed with Juno's performance during the talent show he started to persuade him to take this route. And the feeling of performing on the stage that day changed something inside Juno's heart. He thought about it over and over and made his decision to go for it.

Normally these specialist music schools have very high requirements for enrollment but our headmaster turned out to be a relative of violins teacher there. He brought Juno over to the school and he had a mini audition in front of that violins teacher and their headmaster. That impressed them very much and Juno was admitted to the school with special consideration.

And I knew now, while all this was happening I was just sulking and wasting my time.

I still loved Mina. And it was still an unrequited love and will stay that way. Even if something were to happen between Mina and Tasha so they break up, I didn't see any chance that I can amend our relationship with her.

Honestly though, I probably could. But I didn't want to. And I finally understood why Mina loved Juno but didn't want to get close to him as a friend first. She loved him and had no intention of becoming his 'friend'. She felt a certain way about him, and forming a bond in any other guise would be like denying her feelings and deceiving Juno.

So I've decided to just let it be.

It hurt, and it will continue to hurt. But I will not try to force myself to stop loving her, and I will not force myself to get close to her again and try to win her heart. This love will continue, and this love may fade. But for now, I know what I'm feeling and how it feels. It's something I've never experienced before, but I will learn to live with it.

Autumn has come and passed. Winter was cold and Christmas was lonely. The new year felt hopeful but nothing really changed. It was now February, the final month of my first year in high school.