Conflict

The following Monday, I went to school. I felt like everybody was looking at me but I didn't care. I just walked to my seat without saying or looking at anyone.

"Good morning….?"

The girl sitting in front of me said, probably because the last time I was at school I looked cheerful and was saying good morning to everyone. Maybe she thought I wasn't too bad of a person after all.

"Good morning"

Then Mina stood up at the other end of the classroom. I wasn't going to look but couldn't help but notice and steal a glance. She was saying something to Tasha and Tasha looked at me suspiciously, then she made that kind smile to Tasha as if to say 'Don't worry' and walked over to me.

"Hi"

I didn't look at her as she greeted me.

"Good morning"

She said again in a cheerful voice.

"Go away", I gave her a curt response.

"Are you still mad at me?"

"Why would I be mad at you? And I told you, don't talk to me"

"This is too much Nana… if I made you angry I'm sorry, tell me what's wrong and I will make it up to you"

"I. Said. Stay. The. FUCK. Away"

I slapped Nina's hand away as she was reaching for me.

Everybody was startled and was now looking at us. Mina looked shocked and lost for words.

She looked like she was gonna cry.

Go on. Cry then. Cry baby.

Then Tasha ran over and slapped me on the face.

"What the hell are you doing to my Mina!"

My Mina.

Then I lost any will to fight.

So that's just how it is.

"Just go-. Leave me alone"

"Hell yeah. Like we want to have anything to do with you, freak"

Tasha embraced Mina and walked her back to her seat.

I slumped my head down on my desk and covered my head with both of my hands.

Why did I do this.

Why do I say things I don't mean.

Why am I so angry.

I asked myself many questions but didn't seek answers.