Experience

When Esakal An started to pursue her after the International Tang Corporation gala she doesn't want to give him a look .

Let alone his pursuing to her . She doesn't give a damn care to it .

As it made feel a lots of things that she would not know if this incident didn't happened and she wouldn't understand the depth of many matters and people's thinking .

As it made her think about the past also the past her from the present her who is different in many way .

It had given her a lots of life experience and make her understand that expectations and reality is really different .

The difference between them are heaven and hell . Our expectations are like heaven and reality is as cruel as like hell .

When we face the reality it is a wake up call for every single person . Who has still not awake from his sleep and sleep dreams .

And this wake up calls make us realise that dreams that we see in our sleep never got true and those we see thought our wake and we work hard that got true .

And it made her remember her dream of be with him for a life time and that's also with her own identity . The identity that is because of her own self .

The past her was a fool who thinks that the way she think all the things well go as she dreams and as her wish .

What a fool she was ? It was a foolish and surreal thought of her that has broken her to pieces .

To think that with out her family and parents she has any identity or value .

Not with her identity that she got from her birth moment .

As her identity as the great doctor and hospital empire T&S owner daughter .

Or not as her mother the great scientist Hana Hui's daughter .

Not even as the grand children of the great scientist Hui family or the great Tang family .

She didn't want any of the aristocratic family title as a lable for her as brands .

But thanks to the past that had made the tough present her .

Who wouldn't break down just for love or for a man . Who is a responsible person for herself , for her family members and to her duties .

Her past which has him in it and this is something she doesn't want to remember it . As this past of her is a taboo topic for her or a phrase of her life that she wants to to forget and never wants to remember it .

But every time he comes infront of her he makes her remember it every single time and every thing . She can't forget .

And even after years she can't forget that incident or anything related to it . She tried her best to forget it but she couldn't do it .

She after not able to do even when she tried her best to do it but later when that's not possible she tried to forget Esakal An . But it was more hard than that .

It was easy to think but though at time of doing it is very hard for her .

The more she wanted to forget him the more she remembered him .

As her head , heart , brain , body and soul in everything he is present . It feels like in her every fiber and cell he is present .

So , after a lots of struggling her psychiatric tell her drop him in her back head and tried to move on .

And she was able to do it and after few years he comes back to her and re opened all her old wounds and pains that has started to heal .

And her biggest wound , pain , agony and regret is her son .

Not that she Sahana Tang regret to have him in her life but she thinks the opposite .

If there were not Edison Tang then she don't know if she was able to over come that time phase where she was depressed , helpless or hopeless .

But Esakal An make her remembered her about her past mistakes that has made her son suffer .

Even though her son doesn't say anything but she knows that he is suffering because of her past deeds .

He is facing every one's mockery , disrespect , disgust and so on .