Chapter 1

The 18 year old Amelia sat down on her locker watching her two friends, Leen and daisy talk about how they spent their summer, meanwhile hers where filled with boredom. No hangouts, no boyfriend, no summer camps and no new stuffs . Just the normal day to day stuffs that always transpired in her family.

Amelia's father is a deacon in the Catholic Church which makes their family a Christian home and they are certain things that can't be done as Christian family which other families do. Amelia's parents are strict and wants their daughter to be dedicated to the church as a nun, which means There are certain things Amelia can't do , if not she's not fit to be a nun.

Amelia is not really happy about her lifestyle and wants to be like her friends. Tho they are from Christian home too and all of them attends a catholic school, they both have fun life's apart from Amelia. For instance daisy's father is a businessman and owns many companies, he takes daisy for vacations to any country of her choice and apart from that daisy has a boyfriend who loves her and perhaps she has had sex with him too.

Leen is not left out too, Leen's father is late so she's been trained by her single mum who lets her do whatever she wants. Leen is a bi sexual and hooks up with different people at the same or different time and she dosent really care, tho she is from a Christian home and goes to church too. This always makes Amelia wonder why her parents are so hard on her and wants for her what she doesn't want from her, it made her miserable.

Her thought was cut , when daisy tapped her

will you be free on Saturday's afternoon?, cos my mum is throwing this big party for my 18th birthday at the pool house, daisy said chuckling

oh I'm not quite sure if I will make it! Tho I will ask my parents, Amelia replied 

but for real your parents supposed to cut you some slacks liah, you're now 18 and they're not expecting to die a virgin right? Leen asked with a grin 

they want me to be a nun , Amelia said flatly. Wait. What? The both girls chorused wide eyed A nun in this gen z age? Daisy couldn't believe her ears Oh my god! I'm so sorry about that, I can't believe your parents are so mean , Leen said sadly. It's fine girls , I'm used to it, being a nun is the same as being a teacher you know, it's same as having a profession, Amelia said smiling awkwardly. No it's not the same thing , being a teacher means you can get married and have sex all your life , but a nun, I'm so sorry your cherry will beg to be pumped! Daisy said sadly. I can't believe you have to live your life without being pumped girl , I feel so bad for you, Leen said , and they both hugged her.

Amelia went home and thought about her conversation with her friends. Though she didn't know what it means to be pumped or have erotic feelings for someone, she just hoped being a nun won't be as hard as they thought . She wondered what it would feel like having those feelings and emotions and how it will make her feel, she wished she had a technology to browse, but her parents had forbade her from using any saying they would corrupt her and take her far away from God so she just lay there, imagining what it would be like to have sex.

she knew she was committing a sin having immoral thoughts and yet she couldn't help it , she was so engrossed with her thoughts that she didn't notice when her mum came in.

Amelia! Mrs angela called Yes mum! Amelia responded feeling guilty, she knew she can't let her mum know something was going on, so she had to react quickly. Mum can I attend daisy's birthday party ? She asked with mixed feelings Knowing well her request can't be granted but we'll she had to try. Mrs angela stared at her with piercing eyes and gritted her teeth, the looming her face was that of disappointment. Who said you can ask me that? She asked with anger rising on her. Mum it's just a party, and daisy is my friend!Amelia said tears forming on her eye.

I don't care ! And I don't want you associating with those girls anymore, they're are sinners and you can't mingle with them child! Mrs angela said and stormed out of her room, leaving Amelia in misery as always. 

Over the years , Amelia grew up not having bond between her both parents. She was always alone, no one to share her grief or misery with , just little talks and they ended up living like strangers. Her Dad, Deacon Paul always spent his time in the church and came home few times , while her mother, Angela was more like the priest herself. She talks little, spends most time praying and hardly comes out. The only companion Amelia had was Jenner their old butler who has lived with them for 30 years and now she's like the owner of the house , cos she knew what happens and how everyone behaves. She is a small petite woman who smiles often and says little. Amelia grew fond of her as her parents weren't always around , so she was her only companion.

Now she lay on her bed thinking why her life was this way, wondering if worshipping God was this difficult , as she was engrossed in her thought, tears flowed down her eyes and she muttered 

I wish I can just live life like my other friends and be happy. Then there was a knock on her door and she went to open it, Jenner came in and smiled at her

are you okay lia? Jenner asked touching her forehead. Amelia smiled and nodded , this has always been Jenner, always good to her and always asked her how she was, her parents didn't ask her this and she was grateful for having Jenner. 

amelia hugged her as tears flowed down . Jenner patted her and smiled.

be down for dinner, your dad is back ! Jenner said with a gentle pat. 

Just like that , it has always been, no love , just gathering whenever it was breakfast , lunch or dinner , which depends if everyone was home if not she eats alone .

amelia went down to eat after showering and as usual dinner was bored that night , she silently said her parents good night and went to up to her room. She lay on her bed not feeling sleepy, she wondered what it will look like attending daisy's party and she signed . Just then a thought strucked her mind. And she smiled .

Amelia stood up and locked her room and she knew what she was about to do was a sin and against her faith , but who cares ? Since god refused to listen to her and no one cares about her then she didn't care either, with this thought she stood up and walked to her mirror and stared at herself. Though she knew she was beautiful but it didn't occur to her she was , cos her mum told her to stop staring at the mirror cos it's a sin and devil uses it to manipulate people but right now fuck them and she didn't bother about what anyone thinks or says.

she stood in front of the mirror staring at herself and smiled, she packed her hair upwards and slid her night gown downwards and watched at her beautiful skin radiating in front of the mirror, just then she felt this tingling sensation gush over her and she didn't know what it was Buh yet she enjoyed it. She removed her dressed leaving herself on her panties she walked towards the mirrow and muttered .''I want to be fucked!''

though she didn't know why or what gave her the inspiration to do that, she has always watched daisy and Leen talked about how they had sex and used the term being fucked , though she pretended uninterested, right now , she standing in front of the mirror, not minding the fact , her parents will send her off the following year to be a nun, or the fact her Dad was a deacon , she didn't care , she just wants to experience being fucked.

just then her lights went off and she felt a strong wind pull her down her bed , funny enough she wasn't scared, nothing was scary indeed , everything that was happening she enjoyed every bit of it. She lay down and felt wind caressing her and she just didn't want the feelings to end , she was so excited that she couldn't get over herself, she noticed a burning sensation in between her legs and she couldn't endure it but slid down her pant and was stark naked. She felt a hand brush off on her laps and the sensation made her moan as she couldn't control her feelings, the hand touched her and penetrated her slowly that she was gasping for breath, it continued that she couldn't control her self anymore until she screamed out loudly . Just then everything went back to normal and she heard a knock on her door , she wore back her dress and opened it

are you okay? Her dad asked. Yeah , I heard a dream , Amelia replied trying to avoid his eyes. Alright, say your rosary and sleep. Deacon Paul said and head back to his room.

Amelia gasps as she tried to fathom what occurred to her that night , she knew anything that happened want normal and was a sin, but yet she enjoyed it and loved it and wanted it to happen again. She went to bed that night feeling new, happy , and different.