Chapter 35 Nobody is there to Listen

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Sain got up and checked his breathing. A large smile flashed on his face as he said.

"Mom… looks like he isn't breathing."

What?! Nonononononono! There's his blood coming out! I killed him?! I killed him?! I killed my own lover!!

Sain stood up. There was heaviness in his volume. "Mom. I didn't know you loved me so much that you could kill someone for me."

I covered my mouth and screamed.

I killed him?! Arran! Arran! Arran! I'm so sorry! I di.. i didn't..

I fell down.

I killed someone! I killed my own lover! I'm a murderer! A fucking pathetic murderer!

Sain held his waist and stared at the body for a while. He walked closer and knelt down to me.

"Don't be so scared mom. I'll never tell anyone about this. I told you that I'll protect you. No one will ever find out."

No one should ever find out! I'm so scared! I'm so scared! "What should we do Sain?" I said with my trembling voice.

"We probably can't tell anyone else about it. I would hate it if the police came." He smiled at me. "Don't worry. I'll hide him for you." He paused and then said. "But you see I've a very fragile body. And it is injured as well. I possibly can't pick him up. And I absolutely cannot let you go anywhere near him." He whispered in my ears. "So please do me a favour mom and cut him into pieces."

My eyes widened.

"What?!" I can't do that! I can't cut Arran into pieces! I loved him!

"Won't you do it for me, mom?"

I can't! But what can I even do?! I don't want to live the rest of my life in prison!

"He's already dead mom. He won't get hurt if you cut him. But I'll get hurt if you don't."

Sain picked up Arran's phone.

"Please mom. I'm doing it for you. You'd hate to spend the rest of your life in prison, wouldn't you?"

I don't want to go to jail! They'll punish me with penalty death! I don't want to die! I don't want to be alone!

I was clouded with so much fear that I gave in to Sain's suggestion.

In the summer night, Sain covered himself in a huge sweatshirt and spent the whole night hiding his body parts. I only waited underneath the blanket. Trembling in one corner.

That gruesome scene will never leave my mind. How could I even do that?! Was there always a devil in me?!

At early morning Sain returned and told me.

"Its all okay now. I hid him properly at several places. And do you know one funny thing…" he chuckled. "the dogs followed me so I...." I couldn't hear him.. his lips only moved. But it was enough for me to understand.

I felt something in me snapping. My heart was already broken to begin with. And I lost control of myself. I didn't know when I hit him so much. I covered his whole body with scars. I started screaming out randomly.

We moved houses right after. Sain stole all his money from Arran's house and we settled in a new town like nothing ever happened.

However those images still flashes before my eyes as if it was just yesterday.

I killed my lover and... His arms. Legs. Head. And. Body.

I scream out as I recall those.

It all happened because of me! I turned Sain into a monster! I killed people! I'm crazy! I'm a psycho! I'm going mad! I'm insane! I'm a murderer!

I tear the bedsheet with my nails, clenching it into my fist.

Sain killed more people after that.

I tried to warn the lady next door the night before her death. But Sain woke up and pulled me inside.

I tried to ask help from the waiter at that restaurant… he killed him last night.

I confessed to his friend..

I widen my eyes.

He's going to kill his friend next!

Nonononono! I can't let many more people die because of me!

I rush to the door and pound loudly on it.

Let me ouuuuut! I need to stop Sain! Let. Me. Ouuuuuut!

Nobody is there to listen.