Chapter163: I'm sorry 6

I looked at Alex then at the door. I didn't know what to do first, process the fact that Sheebalie is my sister or open the door for my mom. This is too much to take right now and I feel like I can just erase my memories so that I forget every damn thing I've been hearing this week.

"Honey... I heard you are awake. Can I come in?"mom pressed and I still didn't answer. I'm lost and I know Alex can see it too 

"Baby...do you want me to send her away? She can came back later. I'll inform the maids to prepare a room for her." Alex said and I sighed.

"What do you think I should do?"I asked him and he looked at me a bit surprised.

"Honestly, I wouldn't know what to do if I were you, but there is always a choice. You have two options to choose from, you can open that door or not. I would prefer opening it because running away from problems ain't pretty."Alex said and I looked at the door then at him.

"I just don't know how to react. How I'm I supposed to lie to her looking at her in the face? And now this sister thing with Sheebalie. I just... it's really exhausting. I don't think if I can take it."I said and Alex brought his big hands on my cheeks but I didn't look at him 

"Baby.. look at me."he said and it's as if his voice was the push my head was waiting for because I turned my head and I looked at him." Take one thing at a time. Right now it's your mom who you need to deal with. Block any other thing and focus on the matter in hand. Can you do that for me and our little angels?"he asked then he took one hand from my cheeks and he brought it to my belly.

"My little angels, don't you want mommy to be okay? Now you gotta tell her that she should take everything at a time."Alex said looking at my belly and I chuckled.

He is the only person who can make me laugh when I am mad and angry." They can't hear you honey. I've told you so many times."I said and Alex looked up putting on that face as if he's thinking so hard. I rolled my eyes at his dramatic action.

"Really? I feel as if we are really connecting. They are talking to me baby, you are just jealous."he said and I rolled my eyes again. I parted my lips to shoot back but the knock stopped me. I sighed and and I climbed off Alex's laps. I walked to the door and opened it.

My mom who was already leaving turned back smiling at me then she walked back to me and hugged me really tight that I almost chocked." I'm really sorry sweetie."she said and I tapped her back so that she can release me.

"Mom...t.. the Hu..g is s..so tight."I said and she released me smiling apologetically at me.

"I'm sorry about that too. I didn't mean to hurt you."she said and I smiled awkwardly at her. I never imagined that there was a time I would feel really uncomfortable being in my mom's company. I just don't know what to say or react but one thing I'm sure of is that I can't look her in the eye.

"Mom, come in."Alex said from behind me and I looked at him smiling. Life saver.

My mom smiled at Alex too and she entered our bedroom but Alex didn't come in with us and I looked at him asking him 'what he thinks he's doing leaving me with my mom alone,' with my eyes.

He understood my message and he walked to me and he hugged me then he brought his lips to my ear and whispered something that only me can hear." You can do this baby."

"But how I'm I supposed to lie to her? I can't even look her in the eye. She would obviously know something is wrong. This is really hard for me. She can't know about my siblings Alex and I don't know if I can shut my mouth up."I said and I felt Alex kiss the area just behind my ear and I shivered.

"I'm not staying here baby so you need to do this. I don't encourage you lying but this is for the best. You can do it."Alex said and he pulled away from the hug and he perked my lips and before I could say something else,he was already walking to where my mom stood.

"Mom, I need to go."he said kissing my mom's cheek.

"Okay."mom said smiling at him. Alex turned to leave and I saw him give me a side look then he winked at me and he left. I turned to look at my mom who was looking at me smiling," he's really sweet?"my mom said and I smiled my naughty mind shifting to something dirty but before I could get lost, my mom held my hand and she walked us to the couch and we sat down.

"Mom, about Anderson I really didn't........"I started but my mom put a finger on my lips to shut me up.

"We are not talking about him. I came to check on you and see how you are doing. Passing out like that and you are pregnant is really dangerous."mom said and I breathed a relief that no Anderson is being involved in the talk.

"I'm sorry for making you worry. I didn't intend to make you guys worry so much."

"I know honey. I really I'm sorry for everything that's happening. I didn't know Anderson would be here and I just don't know how to behave right now that I have seen him after a long ass time. It's been twenty four fucking years damnit and he just dares to appear just like that?"to much for thinking that no Anderson will be involved. It's clear my mom is hurt as I am and she's angry too.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about him. I just didn't know what to say. It's still hard to talk to you about him because I feel as if I'm hurting you. How are you feeling mom?"I asked taking my hands to mom's shoulder's. I don't want to make all this about me. It's about my mom too, she's caught in this saga and maybe she's hurting more than I am maybe.

I can't imagine being in her case. If Alex disappears on me for twenty four years and then he appears in front of me one day, I don't know what I would do, so even though I totally don't Relate to mom's situation, I kinda may have an Idea that she's hurting.

"I don't know how to feel Kimberly. Anderson was like the love of my life. Damnit, he's still is but he really fucking hurt me by that shit he pulled. He disappeared on me leaving us behind like he didn't care. I thought he loved me Kim, maybe he did, I just don't know what happened that the left me just like that and seeing him now I don't know how to feel. It's kinda weird that I'm still angry at him after years and years of healing."she said and I bet a tear drop fall down. This must be hurting if it is making her cry. My mom doesn't cry at all.