Ablackwing

I was falling from Eden.

'Mother, so this is the decision you agreed to?' My 'voice' was loud enough to cross through the world barrier. I was sure she heard it. I waited for an answer, but she still didn't say anything.

It was my 'Judgement', an order to banish angels with impure hearts from Eden. Before today, I had only heard of it in the legends. The last Judgement was passed to stop the great war. This one was passed to cast out a potential scourge. I terrified them.

I understand what I did at Gehenna was unquestionably wrong, an unpardonable sin. The vehement corruption had taken over me as I delivered my justice to their kind. I was not myself back then... Mother knew the demons had taken my wing, crippling me. I was not the one who started it. I was merely the ender.

Back then, Mother had forced me back from Gehenna to stop my rampage. Afterwards, she refused to speak to me, and now this... I will never see her again, or speak to her. She didn't even say goodbye. That was the cruelest part...

I had plenty of time to reflect on my future before the Judgement. But I couldn't find any reason for my existence. The constant struggle against the corruption had made me weary. It was as far as I could go by myself.

I made up my mind to get the fabled eternal peace by merging with the lifestream, the only kind of death for my kind that is nigh immortal. So what if Mother exiled me, she'd have to welcome me again once I become part of Lifestream.

I closed my eyes and adored the cool winds blowing over my face. The winds ran her fingers through my hair. Her gentle whispers in my ears felt like melodies I had longed to hear for years. I felt free, as if the chains binding me to this world were burning.

Time felt like it has slowed down, and it wasn't my doing. My wing emerged and I felt like I was flying, properly. A smile stealthily crept on my face. I wrapped my wing around my body, making a coffin for me. It felt like I was being hugged. My painful existence would end. I sealed my abilities, lest they save me. And I waited, hoping the next life would be kinder to me.

But then I heard someone's faint voice say, "Fly! You idiot!"

That voice was so familiar. My heart started to beat madly after hearing that voice. It sounded so much like 'her', the one with the purest of hearts. But how could it possibly be? I had searched for her for nearly a decade before finally giving up on that quest. Was I hallucinating? I wondered as the memories flooded my mind. I remembered the promise I once made to her. I opened my eyes to look in the direction of that voice. That presence was so bright, blinding. It could be no one else!

Of all the times, I found her now. Fate has always liked to play jokes on me. I was falling too fast and the ground was nearing. I spread my wing to slow the fall and guide myself in her direction. I did not have enough time to undo all the seals. It's going to hurt... But I'll survive. I'll be alright, for my heaven was calling out to me...