I am glad I can't cry.

At a night of full moon, under the moonlight, a 7 years old girl was standing; witnessing her house being burnt, along with her mother, while she clung to her teady. She kept on looking and looking, without blinking her eyes, until she fainted.

She opened her eyes and found out she was in a room, she took a deep breath and closed her eyes again. "You need to treat her with special care, she can feel no emotions, or should I rather say, express any..." as soon as she heard someone utter these words, she interrupted "Father, lets return home". "As you wish, Sara" said someone, while she kept her eyes close.

She opened her eyes and saw a pendant before her, she looked around and realized she fell asleep on her desk. She looked at the calendar and thought "Is it my 19th birthday today? Or maybe it is next months", she then sighed, while she thought "Does it even matter...". She then picked up the pendant and said to it "Lets return you to your owner". She looked at her phone and realized nothing written there made sense.

She entered her college and asked a guy "Do you know where Clover might be?". The guy replied "Clover? who?". Sara replied "Our classmate". "There is no Clover in our class" said the guy, he shrugged and left. Sara remembered some girl telling her how Clover told her that getting a job at this point will make her resume better. She walked up to that girl and said "Hey, do you know where I can find Clover?". She replied "The Clove who was with us in junior high school? The one who lives in my neighborhood?". Sara replied "Yes!". She replied "To think an isolated girl like you, out of all people, would remember him" while she laughed. She added "You can't find him at his home or at this college, but you can at his workplace, I'll give you the address after the classes". Sara replied "Thank you", she then walked away. The girl said as Sara walked away "I don't know what you need from him, but I'd advice you to stay away from such rude people"

Sara walked up to a shop, she took a deep breath and entered it. She asked an employ "Can I see Clover?", the employ called someone and said "Manager, someone is here to see you". Sara thought after hearing this "Manager? Life can be easy if you're rich". Someone walked up to the employ, the employ looked at him and said "Manager, she wanted to see you!" and then he left. Sara turned back and saw, it was Clover. Clover's serious faced turned red as he saw her and said "What do you need now!? Why can't you just leave me alone?". Sara, in a state of confusion, turned back. Her eyes were filled with tears. She decided to leave, but then she remembered someone saying "Because rude people are going through a lot, no one is rude by choice. This smile represents politeness and kindness, If you show this to others, It makes them feel better! ". She then turned back. While a big smile on her face, she said "I wonder what was it, that me a guy like you mad". He calmed down, he look at the floor and replied is a soft voice "As if you know me". Sara replied "I know all about you" while she smiled. Clover replied "I am busy right now, can we please do whatever it is later?". Sara replied "Tomorrow is Saturday, so I'll be waiting for you at the part at 9 in the morning". She then left the shop.

Next day, at the park, Sara gazed at her wrist watch as it struck 9. Time passed and the sun set. Sara looked at the pendent and thought "I wonder, what made him like this...". She then left the park.

On Sunday morning, Sara walked up to a house. She stood outside it and wondered "What an enormous place, no wonder rich people are so kind, who won't be after living such a life". She then saw Clover came out of that house. She rushed toward him while she called his name. Clover looked at her, Sara looked at him and noticed his eyes, his eyes were like as if they were dead. She spaced out. She saw her own face in that of Clover. "What is it that you want form me, and why are you looking at my face like that?" said Clover. Sara put a smile on her face and replied "I was wondering, what happened to the old Clover, the happy Clover who always had a big smile on his face?". Clover replied in a loud voice "You have the audacity to...", then he looked at her smile, he remembered someone saying "Don't be rude to people who are polite to you, we don't know what suffering they are hiding behind their kind face". Clover's eyes twinkled, he sighed and asked "I can ask the same about you, how did you learn to smile?". Sara replied "This is a long story, story of a boy and I, a boy who showed me kindness". Suddenly, Clover's phone range, he said to Sara "Sorry, I have to be somewhere, can I make it up to you by meeting you somewhere? I won't ghost you this time". Sara replied "Sure, you pick a place, for old time's sake ". Clover replied "What about, near the Ferris wheel"

10 years old Sara wrote in her dairy "As usual, I was bullied again, it does hurt, but sometimes I wonder, is what they say true? am I really a cure, am I really a mother eater? Maybe I am. It hurts less when I think it really isn't my fault, its fate. But, for how long will I be able to cling to this fact? Fact, fact or lie... Maybe they bullied me because I can't express any emotions, my face is expressionless, that doesn't mean I don't feel pain. Well, if I think of it, I can only feel pain; pain, sorrow and suffering. They are like my friends, I think; well, I really don't know what friends are like. Today, something unusual happened, somehow teacher found out that I was being bullied, father said he will be changing my school so I won't have to face bullying again. I think many people will be happy if they were in my shoes. ". Sara sighed and closed her eyes.

10 year old Sara opened her eyes, She saw her father talking to a school teacher, he told her how she was bullied because of her mother's death and he informed her about her condition. Sara looked around and saw a child, about her age, standing in the room. The teacher looked at him and said politely "Clover, come here and meet Sara. Be her friend and look after her, okay". Clover walked up to her, he looked at her eyes and realized they were dead. Clover smiled and said "I'm Clover, lets be friends"

Next day, Sara went to her new school. She sat on a chair and thought "Maybe, I won't be bullied here, no one knows about mother. Clover is nice. Maybe, maybe, I'll have a friend here ". She looked around with her dead eyes and saw Clover walking up to her. He sat net to her and said "Hey, how are you?". Sara, with her expressionless face replied "Good". She then saw a group of kids coming towards them, one of the girls said "Look everyone, what do we got here". Another kid replied "Nothing, just a plan old MOTHER EATER!". The world stopped for Sara. In a state of shock, she looked around with her expressionless face, with her dead eyes she looked at Clover. She realized he was smiling. He seemed happy, as if he was enjoying it. Sara thought "Good thing I cant expression any emotion! I am glad I can't cry, otherwise they would have be calling me crybaby!"