19 Chapter 15- Horny Morning

MIRA'S POV:

Morning alarms have always annoyed me because they ring right when I am just about to go to sleep. I don't even remember when I slept for more than 3-4 hours a day. Insomnia.

I mostly survived on coffee all these years. Thank goodness they invented coffee at the right time. Although through years of habit I have developed some other habits too when I couldn't sleep, I thought to become productive. By painting. It was one of my other hobbies, though it has always been on shades, I enjoy sketching and painting in the nighttime. I feel like the canvas was my life, and the paints are my wishes. Like how I wanted it to be.

I groaned as I rubbed my eyes and moved my hands to shut that mother-fucking alarm. 6:30 am.

Wait, what? 6:30 am? I have slept for 6 hours? How the fuck is that even possible?

Looking down at the hands I was using as my pillow in the morning, I saw the most beautiful face I had ever seen. Alex.

I remember how we spent our first movie date night.

FLASHBACK TO LAST NIGHT:

"Okay... you need to stop eating popcorn that loud, I literally cannot hear anything that he says in the movie?"

"Why don't you just turn the volume up, Mira?" He shook his head as he continued to eat popcorn loudly. Sometimes I feel like I am really dating a kid. Gosh, annoying. Who munches like that? Uhm maybe panda and Alex? Both are the same. The only difference is how magnificent the body he possesses. Totally worth drooling. Okay, stop, not again.

"Ughhh... you are so annoying..."

"Oh, you don't say that when I fuck you to oblivion," he said without breaking his eye contact with the TV. How cocky. Well, he is right of course, but still, that doesn't count here.

"That... is something else?"

"How that can be? How can a man be both amazing and annoying at the same time?" He praised himself so highly that if he weren't holding me tightly in his arms, I would smack his head right now. Jesus.

"Such an overconfident guy" I rolled my eyes.

"How can I be not, when I hear you scream my name every time I fuck you, doll? You know that is my new favourite tune. I could hear it on repeat all day without any pause."

"Stop... you are too cheesy"

"Oh, you know I love cheese, and so do you" he beamed a cocky smile and I couldn't help, but roll my eyes at him even though I knew how much I was enjoying this.

"Duh ah... I loved. In the past tense. I am on a diet now." I confessed. Well, technically I had to stop my junk food intake. It was affecting my body. Thanks to Alex now, he almost cooks for me at the weekends and makes sure I have supplies so I could cook myself on the weekdays.

I still wonder if he is a dream. If this is a dream. This was too good to be true.

"Whatever fatso" he teased, laughing at me,

Offensive. Well, I wasn't fat, it just the bad eating habits that made me a little chubby than those skinny models run in Victoria's runways. Still, I love myself the way I was. Valeria loved it too. And so did men. And I am sure Alex does too.

"I am gonna kill you if you say that again."

"Oh really?" He smiled playfully before tickling me to almost death. Gosh, our laughs and giggled filled the room and I felt at home for the first time in 4 years. This definitely has to be a dream. A beautiful dream.

"You are..."

"Handsome? I know, doll" he completed with a wink. Even though I was going to tell him 'You are so cheesy ass' but he preferred handsome over it. Looks good to me too, so I let it go.

He kissed my temple before we resumed watching the movie. We were at the part where Laura finally said I love you to Massimo while they were intimated. This scene was both cringe-worthy and my favourite for some reason. Even though I don't love the idea of love, I like the concept of the movie. A forbidden romance. Finding someone who you can hold on to. A part of me has always wished that. I forgot when, in between growing up, I just had lost faith. But they look carefree. Happy.

Like us.

I don't know where we are heading, but I am loving this moment with every part of my life. With him surprisingly everything looked different. And if this was really a dream, I'd never want to wake up. Ever. For the first time in years, I feel safe, I feel loved and I feel found. I do not quite understand how to describe our romance in a name, but whatever it was, it was a forbidden one. A dangerous one. With suppressed feelings and a broken past, I couldn't possibly expect myself to fall for someone. But if I could name our relationship, it was 'Broken beauty's handsome saviour. I know sounds cringe, but that's the truth now. And I know this is gonna be a hell of a road. I was afraid that my obsession was morphing into something that I couldn't name.

I felt his hands get tighter on my waist when Laura confessed, and I could see the expression on Massimo's face. Alex was no different from them. I gulped hard knowing this would never be us. Whatever this is, I know it's just a desire. It would never lead us to something more. I could never confess. I am too broken to love or to be loved. And I am sure if he'd know my past, he won't hesitate to leave me too.

I am sure all men are like that. They like the broken pieces only to pity them and then break again, once they feel they are bored. Just like how he did. The man from my past.

But somehow looking at Alex, never made me feel like that. He was so warm, like the first summer rays after a snowfall. The first feeling of wonder. The feeling you feel when the warmth of the sun engulfs the cold chilly feeling from the body after a dark night. He was like that. My warmth.

I am sure we will have a long history by the end of winter. So, I would do what Valeria would do. Live the moment. Live every bit of it, for the sake of my happiness. I have made myself a promise years ago, that no matter what the situation, I'd always prefer my happiness over anyone else's. That is what life is. Surviving. And right now, he is my happiness.

I smiled and held on to him tighter as my head was on his chest.

"Do you really think that Laura died?" He asked while playing with my hair at the end of the movie. He was tensed. I don't know what is the cause of it, but his grip tightens on my waist protectively.

"She probably can't be. This book is a trilogy, I guess, and I am sure that she is very much alive."

"Hmm. I can only wonder how he feels right now. To lose that one person he loves the most. Who feels at home? I can only wonder."

"Do you believe in love?" I asked finally gathering my courage. For the first time, I wanted to know what is going on in his mind.

"I do." He paused the movie and looked at me. "Because without love we are almost emotionless in life. We need an anchor to come back to. To feel safe and feel happy."

"What if love destroys everything?" I know it does.

"I don't think so. Love can build a beautiful life; I don't think it can destroy any. Maybe it is difficult to find at first, but true love always comes with hope, happiness and light. No matter how much in darkness we are. A single smile can brighten our day. And when anyone holds the power to do that, that is our true love." He looked at me with a warm smile and I cannot differentiate if that was for me, or just an example.

"Then you are wrong. Because love destroys. And the power is so powerful that it destroys the life of one. There is nothing to be left apart from the ashes. In the end, it only hurts."

He stared at me for a while with his pensive eyes and then asked, "Is there anything you wanna share? If yes, I am all ears. I hope after that I can change your mind."

This really caught me off guard and I stiffen under his stares. I clutched my hand in a fist, the nails digging inside my flesh causing it to sting a little. No, I cannot let this overpower me. I cannot let him know. I would never let anyone know. It is supposed to be a secret. My life's darkest secret and so it will be. He understood my getting all uncomfortable with the question.

"It's okay, you can take your time. Whenever you feel you are ready to share your heart, I will be here. No matter how long it takes, Mira. I will be right beside you. Holding you in my arms, kissing you till we find it hard to breathe if that cause us to heart eases up a bit. I am all here for you."

He leaned and kissed my temple once again before pulling me into his strong arms. Not to forget I almost got squeezed by his hug. I smiled at his sneakiness. He somehow always finds a way to make me smile, to ease my heart and make them flutter till I forget who I really am.

"Ouch, you are hurting me Mr. Giant." I squealed.

"Oh, I am so sorry" he let go of me immediately and I took a deep breath.

"You okay, Doll?"

I was a little breathless but I managed to say "Yeah, you are just a little strong."

He looked into my eyes and for the first time, I saw more than just lust. They were soft and emotional to me. He leaned further and attached his lips to mine. I couldn't resist him any longer so I gave in, pulling him more into the kiss. His one hand rested on my neck pulling me closer and closer until and almost I can get into his skin, I guess. This kiss was soft and loving. I was liking it. Our lips danced with each other in flawless sync. His tongue asked for the entrance and I didn't hesitate.

His hands moved to my bare back, under my shirt, and ran free everywhere, I gasp at the cold touch, but it was the ice on fire, repulsive, yet felt like heaven in hell. His touch gave me butterflies fluttering all over my stomach. And I feel like a stupid girl in love. Suddenly he stopped and pulled me to sit up...

I looked up at him confusedly and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Turn around," he said with soulful eyes.

I am still confused about this, but I did what he asked. As soon as I turned around, he lifted my shirt and started looking for something.

Oh no. Was he looking for that?

My heartbeat quickened when his hands reached the spot he was searching for. The one he never meant to find out in the first place. Shit. "Mira, what are these marks?" he asks, placing his finger on them.

Burns. They were caused by fire burns.

As much as they don't hurt me physically right now, they will always hurt me mentally for the rest of my life. The past that it came from was the darkest corner of my heart. That I managed to hide all these years. But I don't think that I could do that anymore. But I cannot let it out too. I have to manage.

I do not want it to come forward right now. Not when I was living the happiest days of my life.

"Are they burns?" he asked, his voice deepening with the hint of darkness in it and my heart pacing up in anxiety.

I nodded, knowing I couldn't lie about it, now. But what I could do was make up another lie, to cover it up. To hide it from him. He doesn't need to know anyway.

"How did you get them here?" he asked while feathering the marks that were near my waistline at my back right beside where the tailbone ends.

"Uhm... that was long ago. Back at my home. Some accidents" I shrugged. I forcefully let down the shirt and turn back to face him so that he cannot stare at it any longer. Questions, worries, and anger filled his eyes. He cared for me. "Don't worry, there's nothing to worry about for you, Alex," I said, caressing his face and smiling at him.

I hope he accepts that.

He sighed before pulling me into a big hug and all I could do was feel them in silence. His affection and his care were really moving me slowly. It was forcing me to believe in the shadowed light, that I know is only a mirage in my life. That no matter what it would never come true. Still, I wanted to stay. He broke the hug and said, "Whatever caused those, I promise you that I will never ever let those pains come back to you. If that makes me die, to protect you, I'd happily die in your arms. And if that means I have to kill every last person in the world, I'd haunt down, killing them myself."

I could only stare into his eyes. They were telling the truth which is making me a little scared now. I believe you, Alex. I do. But I hope, I don't have to drag you into my darkness. You deserve to live on the surface of light. That is also how I get the warmth. From you. And I'd like to keep everything the way it is exactly the way it is. It makes me happy.

I smiled at him and hugged him once again. He took me all in while drifting to a peaceful sleep.

We slept like that, hugging each other like a koala and for the first time in years, I really slept well. All those haunted dreams never came tonight and I fell asleep peacefully in his arms.

END OF FLASHBACK:

I smiled when he woke up to the light of the morning sun on his peaceful sleeping face. He looked cute. I ran my fingers slowly down the outline of his forehead to his eyes, to his nose, to his jaw and then stopped at his lips.

His plum lips are indeed delicious.

As he remained asleep, I gently touched his lips. I couldn't control the urge to touch them so badly. My hands slid down to his Adam's apple, which I was very attracted to. When I let my finger travel down his chest to his abs, I felt the movement of his breath on his skin. I looked up, to see if he was awake, but he was still sleeping.

I smiled, getting back to my business. Once I trailed my fingers down his waistband and let them glide inside, I bit my lower lip with the touch of his cock. It was erected. Hard. The morning boners. Fuck he is so big. My eyes widen to see his length even if I have seen it many times now. No matter what I still struggle to adjust to him inside me.

I couldn't wait anymore. I pulled down his pants and wrapped my fingers around his length, feeling the erection harden with my touch. Fuck, he has to be a monster. He moaned in his sleep and I began to pump him slowly up and down. I have always loved teasing him, as much as he loves teasing me. He groaned slightly and I started pumping harder with each second.

"What are you doing?" He asked. Finally waking up and in his husky groaning voice.

"Mm... I am just curious about who you are having in the dreams that gave you this hardened erection. Since it was written in our contract that we cannot be physically involved, now, that carries over into the dream too. Only I wanted to be the cause of your erection, Alex. Even if it means being the girl in your dreams." I confessed while still pumping him more.

He closed his eyes and let his head fall back as he was about to reply but couldn't. Pleasure surrounds him. "That... Was nobody... Mira... It was just... My morning... wood. Fuck"

He gasped when I teased his tips with my tongue. He was too busy feeling the pleasure, he didn't notice when I was already on top of him, and how my mouth was dangerously close to taking his cock all in. He clutched the bedsheet tightly closing his eyes, feeling euphoric as my hands kept working on his length, tongue teasing the tip of his cock.

"Do you like that, Alex?" I asked taking some time to look at him. I was enjoying the view. Him breathlessly controlling the moans, but I wanted to hear them. It sparks my core to throb dangerously.

"I-do." He said breathlessly.

"Good. Only I should give you pleasure in your dreams." I said, whirling my tongue once more in his tips.

"Fuck Mira, I am gonna cum." He said while stiffening his body. I let my lips wrap around his length and started sucking it from up to down. I felt his hands on my head pushing further toward the end of his length, making me gag almost. Finally, he came into my mouth with a loud groan.

As I slowly got up from the position, I licked my lips and smiled when I saw him looking at me like a lost puppy. I smiled at his reaction. It was so sudden, that it stunned him a little. He was out of words, still breathing heavily.

But soon his eyes changed into a dangerous stare as he smirked getting up from the bed and pulling me down under him.

"You like the taste of me, don't you?"

"I do" I confessed confidently. Valeria was bold. She never stayed behind telling what she wants. And I didn't hesitate to confess either.

He smirked before he starts leaning downward on my body. With one swift move, he took out my shirt and left me with nothing. Only naked and vulnerable before him. He kissed my lips softly before moving down to my neck. As I moaned at his soft touch, he planted a soft kiss on my neck before claiming the, biting.

While his lips were moving down to my breast, he cupped my right boob inside his mouth and nibbled the whole thing, making me clutch down the sheet. I can feel him smirking on my skin. As he leaned down further, he softly kissed my navel and began to go down until he reached my drenched core.

I felt his tongue teasing me from my slit towards my clit. I hissed at him. He nibbled the skin of my every fold and let them go with a 'pop' sound. The sensation was undeniably pleasurable. My eyes rolled back, feeling all of him on me. This was too much. I couldn't suppress my moan. His tongue glided down every curve and fold as I was sent back into oblivion. He finally sucked one of my big folds and his thumb began to torture my clit.

Fuck.

"Fuck...Alex..." I screamed, closing my eyes.

He keeps torturing with his tongue as he moves in and out and round and round and then continues repeating it all. He repeats over and over again until I come to his mouth, shaking vigorously at the pleasure of lust.

Having just experienced the most pleasant morning session of my life, I let my body fall onto the bed.

He crawled up to my lips and kissed me letting me have a taste of myself.

"I love your taste doll"

"And I love yours."

I cuddled for a little longer like that before finally pulling ourselves away for the day.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Holly Molly, I think I need some Hobi (BTS Army will know) water right now. We all need it. That was a lot of sex. I wonder how high their libido is. But I guess with Alex, everything seems possible.