Random thoughts 1

How many times have you laid awake all night long unable to sleep, unable to find comfort , waiting for your mother's hug , wanting to hear your grandma's prayers for you , just waiting for anything to give you solace... to calm your mind ,to put out the raging fire in your heart and soul ?

How many times have you found yourself alone in the most crowded of places looking at the door in anticipation as if waiting for something or someone to barge in the room ... maybe for your old pure self to appear and remind you of who you once were , before it all fell down ?

How many times have you wished someone would help you escape from the place you're in , or maybe from the body you've always felt trapped in ?

How many times have you waited for someone to appreciate you , to cherish you ,to remind you of how beautiful your scars are and how wonderful your soul is ?

How long have you been waiting , counting minutes and hours , hoping and praying ? Don't you think you've waited enough already, don't you think you've felt enough pain and faced enough dissappointments ? What does it take for you to notice that all that you've been waiting for is already right inside of you ?

You carry emotions in your body ... so many emotions, but you've always been afraid to show them , maybe you think those strong emotions can't be held in that heart of yours , after all you've claimed to be cold hearted for years now .

Maybe you should stop waiting for anything and anyone ... for you are whole , you can cherish yourself and shower yourself with love ,you don't need anyone to complete you , you're not a puzzle piece , you are human and you should learn to embrace yourself as you are .