Poker face

Preston~

Elizabeth Gemma may very well be the death of me ..is she beautiful yes freakinglutely but it's more than just being a pretty face I've seen tins of gurls that are pretty but she was genuine she tries very hard to make me homely and although it would never work I appreciate the effort..she mentioned her parents to me and instead of feeling angry I actually felt scared to how she'd feel when she figures I'm responsible for both their deaths she would see the monster I am and she might probably give up on me .....I didn't know why but I never want to tell her that harsh truth .

We got to the park she laid a blanket on the ground with a food and fruit basket and she laid on my chest watching TV he sky where she took even more pics ..unless for commercials or for a magazine I never took any pictures I didn't do memories or maybe I never had anyone whose memory I thought to save after my mum but I didn't mind taking pictures at all although I kept a poker face

"Do you get paid to keep a poker face Mr green ...you can smile from time to time it isn't illegal you know"...I didn't say nothing..I couldn't ...we talked some more

She was so easy to talk to and put conversation weren't forced ..it wasn't like the ones where I tolerate your crap and although I hate associating with humans let alone interact with then ... talking with Elle was so easy it made me feel lighter in a way I couldn't accommodate

I was supposed to hate her I am not supposed to agree or even propose a dating contract she is supposed to be my slave my pinching bag even .it would be so much easier if it wasn't her ...she was letting me slip and u couldn't condone it my mother won't forgive me for it .

We took more pictures, ate , talked and kissed and then we headed home . I didn't want the day to end . If it was a normal day I'd still be at the office frowning at people's laxes and annoyed by the way they breathe ..being with Elle was really the best way to spend my day but that's only because she's pretty and I'm supposed to be nice or maybe that's what I told myself I've always being good at lying to myself