An Author's Note
Hello everyone, This is not part of the chapter of A sudden Marriage with this HOT BIllionaire. But let me tell you a short story and a short lesson about love. I am writing this for me to look back on something important that happened to me and I wanna share it with you.
A woman will love a man and save him even in his worst days but when a man is saved, sometimes they forgot the woman who saved them and looks up to another woman.
Cheated?
I guess that was his choice.
They say that a woman is faithful to a man if he doesn't have anything to give and a man's faithfulness will be tested if he has everything.
Did he regret it?
I don't know, But I never regret meeting him and loving him with my all. I am not writing this to spread such a negative story, I am writing this because I am sad and I cannot risk my character and plot story getting affected.
I know that some readers are waiting for my daily update and I assure you that I am doing my very best in updating daily.
Let's have a little background song while I'll tell you a little thing about how the man I love failed me.
When I was your Girl by Che'Nelle
"Same bed it must feel
just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio
but it doesn't sound the same"
I love but never regret anything about it but I wish for his happiness as we part our ways on a different path and different journey.
"When our friends
talk about me,
all it does is just
tear you down
Cause your heart
breaks a little
when you hear my name"
I started writing when I was 12 years old just because I am so in love with fictional characters. Even though they are not real but they had reached a standard that reality barely gives.
"It all just sounds like oooooh
Hmmm... Too young,
too dumb to realize"
He was my first love, first kiss, first date, first heartache.
"That you should've bought me
flowers
And held my hand
Should've given all your hours
When you had the chance"
I can just smile sadly after 7 years of love and sacrifice all he did was break me apart and hopped that a simple sorry could fix his mistakes like I'm a dumb girl accepting those things.
"Take me to every party
Cause all I wanted to do was
dance
Now your baby's dancing
Yeah I'm dancing
with another man"
My friends always tell me not to lower my standard and beg for the bare minimum but I ended up disappointing them and myself just because a part of me was really hoping that we are destined for each other.
"Your pride, your ego,
your needs,
and your selfish ways
Caused the good strong woman
like me to walk out your life"
My heart is aching right now, aching for the forgiveness of my past self that I let this happen to me twice. I felt like I was dying and drowned in a deep sea.
"Now you never, never get to
clean up the mess you made
And it haunts you every time
you close your eyes"
But rather than complaining I should have been grateful and became happy that God still gives me life and there is still hope to come.
"It all just sounds like oooooh
Hmmm... Too young,
too dumb to realize"
I realize that a woman shouldn't lower her standards just to be fit in the king's world, A woman should not beg for the bare minimum because if he wants to he will.
"That you should've bought me
flowers
And held my hand
Should've given all your hours
When you had the chance"
Maybe he was just not contented with what I have and what woman am I that is why he cheated for the second time.
"Take me to every party
Cause all I wanted to do was
dance
Now your baby's dancing
Yeah I'm dancing
with another man"
I cannot say that all men are cheaters but right now I can believe that once a cheater always a cheater.
"Although it hurts
To be the first to say that
you were wrong
Oh, you really are
much too late
To try and apologize
for your mistakes
But I just want you to know"
The thing here you just have to admit that he doesn't want you anymore and you have no choice but to move forward on your own now.
"But now he buys me flowers
And always holds my hand"
I usually write even if I'm broken and risk the characters' emotions, But I love writing and I love my characters, I cannot risk them just because I was broken.
"Gives me all his hours
when he has the chance"
I cannot give them heartache just because I had heartache.
"Takes me to every party
Cause he remembers
how much I loved to dance"
But if one day, Just one day God will answer my prayers.
"Does all the things
you should've done
When I was your girl
He does all the things
you should've done
When I was your girl"
I hope I can see my future self healthy and even happier with someone who deserves this fragile heart.
"Does all the things
you should've done
When I was your girl
He does all the things
you should've done
When I was your girl"
And if one day our paths cross again, I hope that I will gain the courage to say I'm happy and contented now in front of him without any pain and regrets from the past.
Because even if I love him with all I have, Love won't save the relationship alone especially if it was only one-sided.
I wanna call him, I wanna text him, and want him to say that it was all a misunderstanding just for him to stay beside me.
But right now, I choose myself. I choose me. I will save myself.
I hope I can give you better chapters in the next coming days and you will continue to support me.
Thank you so much!