Missing you already

Karolia's POV:

The tension in the car was so thick that I could cut it with a knife. I didn't even have to turn my head and look at Logan to know there was a crease between his brows, his lips were pulled down into a deep frown, and knuckles were white as he gripped the steering wheel tightly. Logan was driving me back home as we left the ball half an hour before. Getting a lot of attention from the couples around us, Logan dragged me from the dance floor as soon as the barbie doll stormed off. We soon left the place, not even waiting for the dinner. I protested a lot telling I'll go back with Tyler but it was in vain.

I'm angry at him for not informing me about the change in his date. I know he won't take me as his date at any cost for this ball, but I'm angry and confused why he took Mr. Adam's daughter who I felt like she's trying to win Logan's heart. It wasn't mandatory to bring a date, at least that's what I understood from the invitation card. He had an option to go partner-less, but he didn't choose that. But my anger is nothing compared to his. He is furious with me. Well, you know the reason...

"You lied," he finally said, breaking the tense atmosphere.

"What?"

"You came to this ball when I specifically asked you not to,"

"It was necessary," I said softly.

"No, it wasn't. I told you I will handle this, but you didn't listen." He snapped. Anger boiled in my blood, making me grind my teeth together, but decided to keep my mouth shut.

"You disobeyed me, Karolia" he said, stopping the car in front of my apartment.

"I had to. You didn't allow me to come." I snapped back.

"I didn't allow because you are not safe in Olivier's presence and you know that more than me. You don't know Olivier as much as I do. He's not someone to play around with." I scowled at him, more anger bubbling in my veins at his comment.

"I can take care of myself, Logan. I'm done being scared of him. I have to fight back and I need to know the real reason why he killed my parents. I need to know who this boss is, that has some vengeance towards my family."

"I know you want answers, and I said I will help you get it. Then why? Why do you have to go behind my back and do something dangerous?"

"You might be my boyfriend, but that doesn't mean you can control my life, Logan. I'm doing what feels right to me and this is right. I need justice for my parents and for that I'm ready to go to any extent, even if it puts my life in danger." I yelled, finally having enough from him.

"So what about me? Do you think I'll be alright if something happens to you? What about the others who care for you, Lia? I'm protective of you because I don't think I can handle it if something happens to you. You're the best thing that happened to me after my mom. I'm not ready to give up on that. Not now, not ever." he said in a firm tone looking deeply into my eyes with anger. My heart clenched tightly, moved by his words. I don't think he had ever confessed something like this to me before. It made me realize how much I mean to him. Even though he sounded angry, I knew that deep down he was pleading with me to listen to him.

I unbuckled my seat belt and leaned towards him, cupping his face in my hands. He closed his eyes and leaned into my touch, pressing a lingering kiss on my palm. He had removed his mask during the journey, but I didn't as my mind was occupied with different thoughts.

"You won't lose me, Log. No one can snatch me away from you.You're everything to me and now I won't function properly without you. But you need to understand. I want answers and Olivier has answers for my every question. This is my fight and I want to do this alone, so please don't stop me from this, Logan. This is important to me." I said as a traitorous tear fell down from my eyes, sliding down my mask.

As soon as I entered my room, I removed my killer heels to free my feet from the torture I was receiving for the whole evening. I almost moaned when my feet touched the soft carpeted floor. I heard footsteps nearing me and before I could turn around, I was pulled back into a strong chest. I felt his breath hitting the back of my neck which made my heart escalate at a rapid rate. He gently moved all the hair from my left shoulder to my right and placed a sweet, gentle kiss on my collarbone that sent shivers to my spine. Noticing my subtle response he tightened his grip on my waist which made me gasp.

Suddenly I felt his hands move away from my body. Turning around with confusion evident on my face, I came face to face with Logan who had his eyes closed and jaws locked in a hard line.

"What's wrong?" I asked, getting a bit worried. His eyes opened revealing what he had been hiding. His eyes had darkened a bit while his pupils were dilated. I understood that he was holding back.

"I have to go," He said in a strained voice.

"You don't have to." I whispered slowly.

"Yes, I should. I should leave before this escalates. I don't want to do something you'd regret in the morning." He said before turning his back on me.

"OK" I replied faintly. Something in me tells me that if he stayed things could turn out in a different way. I didn't want to rush anything and I was grateful that he understood it. But I couldn't push aside the fact that I miss him.

"I'll see you tomorrow," he said while leaning against the threshold, with his hands inside his pant pockets.

"Promise?" I breathed out. He smiled weakly and placed a sweet kiss on my forehead.

"I promise, love."

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I got up in the morning with a light head. I turned around to catch a glimpse of the clock which read 9:37 am. Lazily I pushed away my duvet and stretched my sore limbs. I mentally thanked God that it was Sunday because I dreaded the idea of going to college today. I was just in the mood to have a hot chocolate and sit on the sofa while waiting for my man to arrive.

I thought about the events from yesterday night. I didn't like the fact that after taking so much risk I didn't get the answers I wanted. I remembered that I hadn't called Tyler and Scarlet to let them know about the reason for my sudden departure. I quickly picked my phone from the bedside table and frowned when I saw I had 5 missed calls and 3 messages. Three calls from Logan, that too in the morning, and two from Tyler. I wondered what had gotten into Logan to call me three times at 5:50 in the freaking morning. I was sound asleep during that time. I guess all the mind work I had done yesterday took a toll on me.

I mentally debated on who to call first and then decided to call Tyler as I felt bad for leaving without even informing him. The phone rang two times before it was answered by a familiar groggy voice.

"Hey Tyler," I said in a soft voice.

"Karrie, where were you yesterday? I searched for you for a long time and then Scarlet told me that you left with Logan. Couldn't you have just said a word? I was f***ing worried." He yelled in his morning voice.

"I'm so so sorry. I didn't mean to be rude and leave like that. It just happened. We were in a hurry and as you know Logan became angry that I came to the ball without him knowing. You know very well what happens when he's angry."

"Yeah, I know. Did he do something yesterday?" he asked.

"Not much. Just gave me a half an hour lecture to not lie to him anymore. That's it." I said in a bored tone.

"Classic Watson," he snorted.

"Okay then. I'll just call Scarlet. I haven't heard from her since yesterday night."

"I think it's better not to call her," he said in a dubious tone.

"Why? Did something happen?"

"When the party was over, I saw her and Patrick running out of the building in a hurry like some horny teenagers." he chuckled. I mentally cringed at the image and wiped the thought out of my mind.

"Right, then it's better I don't call them now. Okay, gotta go. Tell Finn I said Hi."

"Sure."

I ended the call and mentally sighed. Now it's time for my blue-eyed man. I called him and it seems that his phone is unreachable. Deciding to call him sometime later, I went through the messages. The first two messages were from Scarlet asking me what happened yesterday and had everything went as planned and why Logan was dancing with me at the ball. I snorted. Little did she know that everything we planned went in vain because of a blue-eyed thick headed idiot.

My eyebrows creased when I opened the next message. It was a message from Logan and it seemed to be pretty long.

Love,

Sorry babe, I'm flying to California for an emergency meeting. I know I promised to meet you today, but all my plans changed within the past two hours. I have no choice but to attend this meeting and I have no idea how long this is going to take. I didn't want to leave you alone considering that you're not safe anywhere you go, so I had hired a personal bodyguard for you. He is trustworthy and I want you to cooperate with him.

Do Not Go Anywhere without Him. He'll be at your doorstep at 10. And please don't disobey me in this. You know very well that it's for your safety. I will try calling you every day considering my schedule is going to be a bit hectic from now on. Okay, I gotta go. Take care of yourself for me, love. Will call you after I reach. Love you

-L

It took me some time to actually understand what was written. I looked at the time when the message was sent and it read 5:55. It means he had already left. I felt a void within me. I was feeling normal just before reading his message but now it's like a part of me is missing suddenly. It's only been a few hours since he had left but I already miss him terribly.

All these days when we fought and he wasn't near me, I didn't feel incomplete because I knew very well that just a phone call would be enough for him to come back but knowing that he is miles away from me is just making my heart squeeze in a painful manner. I just hope he's going to be back soon so that I wouldn't have to spend my birthday alone.

Yes, my birthday is in the coming week and it just reminds me of the fact that one year has already passed since I lost my parents. I wondered how I survived this one year without them. I hadn't had any nightmares in a while and I really don't want them anytime now as Logan is not going to be there to hold me and shoo those nightmares away from attacking me. He has become an integral part of my life and I already dread over the days I have to spend without him. I decide to not think much about it and wait for Logan to call.

Meanwhile, I went to get freshened up before the bodyguard arrived. Speaking of it, I have no idea what I should expect. I didn't get surprised when Logan mentioned that he hired a protector for me,considering I already knew his men were secretly following me already. I know he would go to any extent to make sure that I'm safe. But it also irritates me to know that he thinks I'm unable to protect myself. I mentally imagined myself accompanied by a bodyguard wearing tough suits and holding a pistol in his hands. I quickly shook that thought away. I add this as the next thing to the list I have to talk with Logan about. Without thinking much I did my morning routine and made myself something to eat.

At sharp 10, the doorbell rang and I instantly got up from my seat on the couch and opened the door. I met a tall middle-aged looking man with a tough physique who was dressed in a normal-looking outfit much to my relief. He introduced himself to me and briefly told me about his duties and how he is going to accompany me every place I go to. He also told me that he was married to the woman he loves and has two children. He seemed like a good company and for once I felt light about this whole bodyguard thing.

It was only at 12, I heard my phone ring. I quickly picked the call and held it to my ear awaiting his deep voice.

"Hey, babe," He said in a husky voice.

"You broke your promise." I breathed. I heard him huff from the other line.

"I'm sorry, love. I really didn't mean to. You have no idea how much I just want to leave here and come back to you but I'm afraid I can't. Something went wrong in one of my branches here and I had to be here to solve it. I think it will take more than 3 days for this to get over. But I promise I will make up for my absence as soon as I get there. Please believe me, love." He said in a pleading voice. I know I cannot stay mad at him for long.

"I believe you, But I- I miss you already." My voice broke as I said those words out loud. I wondered if it was going to be like this always – not being able to stay apart from him.

"Oh baby, I miss you too. Please hold on for a few days and then I will be back to you in no time. I promise and this time I mean it. And then we will have a lot of makeup to do." He said and I was able to imagine the smirk playing on his lips which made me chuckle a bit.

"Okay," I whispered, smilingly.

"I hope William had already reached and told you about everything?" he asked.

"Yes, he did. But Logan, do you really think this is necessary-"

"It is. I already told you not to argue with me about this. He is the best among my guards and he is going to update me with whatever you do. I'm doing this not only for you Lia, but it's also for my peace of mind too. I won't be able to work here without knowing that you're safe over there. So please do this for me. And if he does something wrong or misbehaves with you- that I'm sure he won't but still- then call me immediately, okay?" he said in a firm tone.

"Okay. I don't think he will misbehave with me, Log. He seems like a good guy adding to that he is also happily married." I said.

"I know. That's another reason for putting him in this job. Wouldn't want to get worried you'll fall for your bodyguard like those cliche love stories." He said making me gape.

"You are incorrigible." I heard him laugh from the other end which made me smile. I miss his laugh. God, I sound so smitten.

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