Don't let me down

"Motherfucker you reincarnated me as in a NTR hentai world!!!!" I scream, in anger and shock.

{Hold up. Do not misunderstand, I didn`t know either.}

"You are literally the Author, how the fuck did you not know?"

{I explained it before already, besides Authors frequently make up stories and plot on the spot without any planning, ever heard of pantsers?}

"Don`t try to change the subject. You said you reincarnated me!! You can`t possibly just fling me across space and time and hope that I land in some world. You must`ve made a plan, so there is no way you don`t know this beforehand." I say,  accusing him.

{...}

Wait, why is he so silent.

?

"Don`t tell me you actually flung me across space and time in hopes that I land in some world."

{...no?}

That`s more yes than any 'yes' will ever be. The yesest yes.

"What the fuck bro?" I say, shocked. Maybe betrayed.

{What, you turned out fine right?}

What kind of a fucking useless Author do I have?

Shaking those thought away I return back to the situation. My girlfriend is very likely to cheat on me and become some sexual object for a bad boy.

Oh god, I hope not.

{Me too.}

'What does this have anything to do with you?'

{Are you kidding? This book will be in the dumps if you really were NTRed. I would argue I will have it worse.}

Hmm. Made sense, no one wants to read a story with NTR. People projects themselves on the story and they hated it when MC got cheated on, it felt too relatable.

{Yup. So we have to do everything in our power to stop this.}

Hmm. Good.

I remember the doujin but it would do best to read it again.

I look at my phone and tap on the read button.

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[Skip if you have read the manga. This is a vague summary of the doujin]

The doujin started with a couple going on a date happily. They were a happy couple that have known each other for a long time and they have dated for six whole months. 

But the main character is a very shy boy and even though they have dated for six months, he have not done anything to his girlfriend. At the end of the date though, the main character worked up courage and they finally shared their first kiss.

They were in an amusement park and the sun was setting when they kissed.

'God I don`t like how this is familiar.'

The date ended and the couple go on their way with a joyful smile. The next day though, while the girl - who is almost identical to Tsukimi - wiated for her boyfriend, someone came instead.

It was a man with well built body and blonde hair with an ugly haircut. Though I have to give it to him he doesn`t look bad. especially compared to the ugly bastard usually found in other NTR.

The school they went to is extremely strict and didn`t even allow dating, so the blode guy blackmailed her with the photo of her and the MC kissing at the end of their date.

He also threaten that her boyfriend will be kicked out of the football club which was his greatest passion. The girl feeling bad and scared for her boyfriend decided to accept what the guy asked for.

To be his girlfriend for a single day.

After school they went on a date where the guy continuously molested the girl. Then at the end they go to a love hotel and the guy had sex with her.

She though it ended there but one week later the guy came back and this time with another blackmail material which was the video of them having sex in the love hotel.

Then the girl falls deeper and deeper into the clutches of the guy. The fucked up thing about all of it was that the MC and her continued the relationship.

The guy fucked her behind hhe MC`s back and fucked her even when they were going on a date.

The thing goes on and on for a while and the guy did every degraded thing to the girl. From costume to toys and anal. He thoroughly defiled every inch of her body.

Then finally, seemingly losing interest of her body, he stopped having sex with her.

The girl was delighted and the MC and she continued their relationship. their love grows and she thought it was perfect.

But then as their love developed, they finally have sex. But the MC was a minute man with a needle cock.

She was not satisfied.

She felt guilty and sad. She felt dirty and disgusted. Thinking that it was her curse for cheating on him.

She cannot enjoy doing it with him, with someone she loves with all her heart.

Her curse started and she feels sexually frustrated. Until she can`t take it anymore and go back to the guy who blackmailed her.

Then soon that developed into a normal dynamic of their relationship. Where she is still very much in love with the MC and even continue to please him sexually but she still fucks the guy for her sexual relief.

It was like her heart belongs to the MC but her body belongs to another person.

Even at the end, when the guy claims that he love her and she should just be his girlfriend, she rejected and say that she love the MC.

In the end she tells herself that its fine even if her body belongs to another person. She would never betray the MC because she loves him so much.

She claims that no matter what the MC was her number 1.

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I feel my stomach churn. Even if it has not happened, reading about your girlfriend being fucked is not easy.

The ultimate emotional damage.

"I`m going to throw up." I say, covering my mouth.

{Go ahead, I am doing the same thing.}

I breathe out heavily as I lay on my bed. Feeling conflicted. I don`t know how to feel.

Obviously many things are different now. I am the main character and I am not the same shy MC as in the doujin and I am way better too.

This was just something that could happen. Like a multiverse or something. Everything could be different this time. But I am not feeling secure...

I tap on my phone and search up some things on google.

(How to dispose a corpse.)

(Best poison that can be bought legally in Japan.)

(Worst ways to die.)

(Can a man survive his dick being cut off and his balls crushed.)

.

.

{Maybe lets not go there...} the Author says nervously.

"What? I am just...looking. I search up weird shit all the time."

I continue my search. I was determined to acquire the knowledge I seek.

(Biggest dildo a man can take without dying too soon.)

(How to make a horse fuck a dude without dying.)

.

.

{Really, stop it!!} the Author says, he sounds scared

{We know violence is never the best solution.}

'It is a solution though.' I retort.

{...fair enough. But we both know this is meaningless.}

I sigh and close my eyes.

He is right. It won`t really matter if I kill him except bringing me the ultimate satisfaction.

If Tsukimi can be blackmailed and if she can cheat with him, who is to say that she cannot do it with the others as well.

We need to go and fix the root of the problem which is Tsukimi.

In the end, that is who we need to fix.

I wonder if her actions will be the same with me around. I want to know if she would act differently with me as her boyfriend.

I reall hope so. Or else I might cry.

....

"Hah~ I guess we will find out soon enough." I say and the Author hummed.

"Why the fuck do I have to pick an NTR girl as my girlfriend? Now I am in some deep shit." I mutter.

I think back on the time I spent with her. We have known each other since elementary school.

Actually she used to be fat when she was a child, causing others to bully her. She would always seek me for help when things like that happens.

We may have dated only for a month but my feelings to her goes way beyond that.

If she really did cheat on me.

..

I don't know what I will do.

Which scares me. I have always known what to do since I rencarnated.

"Don't let me down Taukimi."

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