Chapter 5 I'm Done

I woke in the morning feeling better than yesterday. Amy already left for school because her school starts earlier than mine. I walked downstairs to see Stan making breakfast.

"Oh good morning Scarlett"

"Good morning"

"How are you feeling?"

"Better. And Im sorry about yesterday, I didn't mean to be so rude"

"It's fine but I did want to talk to you about something"

"What"

"Well Adam told me about last night after you ran upstairs and locked yourself in your room"

"Ok, I was frustrated"

"Well we think it would be best if you started going to counseling sessions"

"What?"

"You need help coping with things"

"What about Amy"

"Her too, but I'm more concerned about you"

"What about me"

"We've seen your record"

"Ok so?"

"I know about your dad and your eating disorder. As well as your anxiety and self harm"

"I don't know what your talking about"

"Please just try it"

"I don't have anxiety or a eating disorder and I DON'T self harm. I have to get to school"

I walk out the door and walk the extra 10 minutes it takes to get to my normal bus stop. I see a worried Stacy.

"Oh thank god I was so worried about you!"

"Really,why?" I say sarcastically.

"You know why"

"Whatever, did I miss anything?"

"No not really"

"Ok that's good"

*****

At school I'm immediately met with James at my locker.

"Where were you baby girl"

"None of your business asshole"

"Well that's no way to treat me"

"Fuck you James"

"Oh come on you know you want me"

"No I don't"

"Aww why not"

"Because your the type of guy to grow up and become a serial rapist"

"That's mean and not true"

"Your funny"

"Thanks"

I walk away to my first class. I see Matt and Daniel as always and we talk awhile. And the day is actually going pretty good until English.

"Ok. Ok. Scarlett your needed in the guidance office. Take your stuff since class is almost over"

"Ok" I say kind of annoyed.

I walk into the office preparing for the worst.

"Hi Scarlett you can take a seat"

"Ok"

"So how has it been"

"Fine, now why did you call me here"

"Well to get straight to the point it's about your self inflicted injuries"

"I don't self harm and I don't know why everyone thinks I do"

"Can you lift up your sleeves for me"

"Why"

"To make sure you don't have any wounds that need medical attention"

"Well what if I don't want to"

"Please listen. You could have an infection or something worse"

"Like I said before I don't self harm" It's a good thing I took my anxiety and depression meds this morning because if I didn't I would be having another panic attack which wouldn't look good on my end.

"If not then you shouldn't have a problem with showing me your arms"

"Can I just go"

"I'm sorry but that's not an option now"

"Really I don't feel like doing this"

"Ok well we can talk about something else right now but we'll come back to this"

"Whatever"

"So what exactly happened to your hand"

"I burnt it"

"How"

"You really don't want to know"

"Yes I do. I need to know"

I start to tear up now.

"I came into the house and forgot to take my shoes off. So my mom called me back down and told me to take my shoes off. I did and she was still mad. Then she slapped me for being disobedient. Then she picked me up and stuck my hand in a boiling pot of water. And my sister took me to the hospital."

"Ok I want you to know it's not your fault and if  you ever want to talk about it-

"What your here because last time I checked no one cared about me besides my sisters"

"I do care"

"You don't even know me or anything I've been through so if you'll excuse me I'm leaving"

I walked out without being persuaded to not. I walked to my locker and put my books back. I grabbed my book bag because I didn't want to be here any longer. Not at school not at home nowhere in this stupid world. My life is horrible and no one cares. I feel like shit.

I walk back to to my foster home and see Adam.

"Why are you home so early, school doesn't let out until 4:00"

I ignored him and went upstairs to my room. I just sat there with the razor in my hand for what felt like an eternity. I knew this was it. No more sleepless nights. No more crying. No more pain. I wrote a letter so here's what I wrote.

Dear Amy and Avery,

You have been the best sisters a girl could possibly ask for. Please know that it's not your fault that I'm gone. Know that I loved you with all my heart and still do. So this is it.

Goodbye.

Love, Scarlett

*****

I put the note on Amy's bed and decide I didn't want to die here. So I walked out the house even though Adam objected. I walked all the way to the train tracks and waited for a train. To pass the time I took out my razor and began cutting myself.

Amy's POV

When I got home from school Scarlett wasn't there. I went into her room and she wasn't there. When I headed into my room there was a note on my bed. This made my heart sink. I read the note and quickly ran downstairs.

"ADAM WHERE IS SCARLETT!!!"

"I don't know she left. I tried to stop her but I figured she needed some air. Why"

"I think she trying to kill herself"

"Oh my god we need to go now"

I called Avery and told her what was happening and she was on her way. We rushed into the car and started looking for her. We had no luck and I know time is running out. Then I thought of one more place she might be.

"GO TO THE TRAIN TRACKS"

We headed to the train tracks and sure enough Scarlett was down there cutting herself. I ran down there as fast as I could. Then I saw a train coming. She stood up and looked at me. I was running full blast and managed to get her off the tracks safely as the train flew by. She was crying and so was I. This was to close.

"Why would you do that" She screamed.

"I love you why would you try and kill yourself"

Adam runs and calls 911.

"Because I hate myself and all these stupid people trying to get inside my head. Why couldn't you have just let me go"

"Because I love you"

Then Avery showed up and saw me and Scarlett.

"You seriously had me worried I don't know what I'd do if I lost my little sister"

She took the razor from Scarlett and chucked it into the bushes.

"From this day forward I'll have someone monitoring you so you don't try this again"

Sorry about the abrupt ending but what do you think about Scarlett's suicide attempt?

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