What Are We? - 2

I should've ran after Shiro when she left the room, but my body remained firmly on the bed as I'm still trying to process what just happened. I end up moving a finger to my lips, the place where Shiro's just were. I know she doesn't fully grasp what all of this means and is clearly misunderstanding something, but it still came as a shock to me. It was my first kiss after all.

"Hey." But suddenly, I hear a voice coming from the door to the room, and upon looking up, I find Lisa standing in the doorway, looking over towards me. "What was that all about?"

"Y-you saw that?!" She saw Shiro kiss me just now?!

"Shiro running down the stairs and launching herself onto the couch, yeah, I saw that."

"Hahh~" I end up breathing a sigh of relief, knowing that Lisa didn't see the whole thing.

"Care to explain what happened? When I went to check on her, she didn't look so good. She didn't even try to talk with me." But with Lisa's next words, I feel my body tense up in knowing that I might've hurt Shiro.

"...I should've made it more clear."

"Clear?"

"I taught her what it means to love someone, but it appears she's still a bit confused on what love actually is."

"What do you mean?"

"Well... She kissed me." I end up telling her anyways, as much as I wanted to just let this fly over. God I'm such an idiot...

"...Pfft! Hahahahah!"

"Yeah yeah~ I know, laugh it up."

"Ah~ What did you even say to her?"

"Well, she was confused on what relationship we had when we visited my mom. She ended up thinking that we're lovers without actually knowing what that means, so I... Taught her what kissing meant, and then-"

"And then she kissed you."

"...Pretty much." I can only imagine what's going on through Shiro's head. I know I was a bit forceful pulling her away before, which she might've took as me not wanting her with me. Haahh~ What a headache.

"Doesn't that tell you enough of what's going on?"

"Huh?" Am I missing something? That's what Lisa's implying...

"She likes you." Nevermind.

"...Not in that way. She wants to stay with me, to live with me. But she must think that we can't do that if we aren't lovers." At least that's my current theory right now just judging from our earlier conversation.

"Then what about you?"

"Hmm?"

"How do you feel about Shiro?" How I feel about Shiro?

Almost immediately, I recall the kiss from earlier as I feel my face heat up slightly. We're not like that... We bathe together more like sisters than anything and she still doesn't know much about the world, not even what love really means. But how do I feel? Honestly, before the kiss it would've been easy to just say that we're friends, but I didn't expect my heart to stop when it happened.

"I like her... But I don't think in that way."

"Then aren't you just projecting your feelings onto her? Just because you feel like that doesn't mean it's the same with the other person."

"Are you saying she actually likes me?"

But how can that be? It's clear that she didn't even know what that kiss really meant. She probably meant it in a way to say that she doesn't want to leave me, which I guess could imply as a confession, but she didn't mean it that way...

"Charlotte... You can be pretty dense sometimes. This is why I've been hassling you on trying to find someone until now. How can you teach her what love means when you've never experienced it yourself?"

"Got me there..."

"Look, just go on down there and talk it out. There's only two bedrooms in this house and I'm not about to babysit either of you."

"Look at you. Now you're the one sounding more like a mom, hehe."

"You calling me old?"

"Older than me at least, hehe."

"Just go down there, okay? I'll be making dinner shortly so I don't want this awkward air in the house for too much longer."

"...Okay."

I end up accepting defeat as Lisa walks out the doorway, back downstairs. I however, lay back on the bed, staring up at the ceiling wondering how I'm going to approach this.

"Thanks, Lisa."

I really should fix this all up now. It's not fair on Lisa, nor is it fair on Shiro. I messed up with explaining it, so I just need to make sure that Shiro understands. However, I'm still trying to figure out how to do that...

We've been spending pretty much every waking moment together, and even share the same bedroom. Hell, we even take baths together. Friends wouldn't do that, right? I guess that means I see her as more of a little sister, but then why was I trying to distance myself with having Shiro learn to bathe herself? At the time I just thought that maybe it'd be better for her to learn more skills and be more independent, but maybe that was an excuse...

"Hahhh!" A sigh of annoyance escapes my breath as I continue to stare at the ceiling. And after a few more seconds of pondering about it, I finally sit up before making my way outside the room. Let's just see how this goes...