Chapter 32

I felt like a fool for tearing up in the eatery and now I couldn't even look up to my friends as it seemed absurd for tearing up in a public place.

"I'm sorry you all, I couldn't help tearing up. I don't know what got over me. I thought I was over him, but seeing them together, I don't know what happened,but my eyes just started tearing up", I started, but Aurora was quick to reply,"It happens Issy. You don't have to explain yourself".

I murmured my thanks and looked forward to going home. I wondered what Joshua would have thought about this whole episode, but I couldn't change what had happened so I let it slide my mind.

We reached Joshua's home and I quickly got out of the car and went to my room before anyone else got out, and went to the washroom to take a long cold shower. After nearly half an hour later, I came out, changed my clothes and went to the garden.

I went up to the swing and started swinging my worries and thoughts away. "Roy, why do I still cry like a baby when I see you with someone else?",I asked to no one in particular. But Joshua's voice came from behind me and surprised me.

"Its only natural for you to have reacted the way you did Issy. You don't have to be hard on yourself. You're just someone who gave your heart to someone who didn't deserve it, and healing from that takes time", he shrugged.

"Joshua, I know what you're saying makes perfect sense, but I want to get over him quick enough and want to be stronger. I don't want to have to shed tears for him. I want to be indifferent as he is",I started saying.

"And you will Issy. One day you will be completely healed, but it won't happen with the snap of a finger. It will take time, but you have to move on ahead everyday, become stronger everyday, little by little", he told me and I understood that I had to let healing take its natural course of time, and I smiled at him.

"Thanks Joshua,I kinda needed that pep talk, and though Gabby and Aurora have given that to me thousands of times over the couple of years, another pep talk doesn't hurt",I tried to make light of the situation and he chuckled in response.

It was getting late now, so we decided to head inside where Gabby and Aurora were already preparing dinner.

"Let me order the stuffs we need for our new home while you prepare the dinner. That way, we can move in within this week", I said and they both replied in affirmation, while Joshua simply stood there and looked at me.

I furrowed my eyes and looked at him, not sure why he was looking at me that way, when he replied,"What other necessities would you be requiring?". I was taken aback and I replied,"Umm,,utensils and stuffs I suppose?"

"Oh,okay. You girls carry on ahead, let me freshen up as well",he said and went upstairs to his room.

We all checked the stuffs online and made fun of each other while choosing for the stuffs, and finally placed the orders.

Aurora and Gabby had finished with the cooking as well, and Joshua came down looking as handsome as ever, and sat down beside me. I couldn't help but shift in my seat.

We had our dinner, and discussed about when we would move out and decided to move out by weekend. Joshua was silent this whole time and went outside once he was done with his dinner.

"Issy, what's up with Joshua,any idea?",Gabby said and I only shrugged and replied,"I'm as clueless as you are".

I wanted to take a stroll in the garden so after doing the dishes, I went and found Joshua standing there,and lost in thoughts. I took my phone and took a candid photo of him, and his garden.

He seemed to notice me, and turning to me, he said,"So, I was wondering if I could ask you something personal?".

I was surprised by his question but stil shrugged and replied,"You already know much about my personal life,so go ahead,ask away". He smiled at that and asked me,"Was that man with Alyssa the Roy who broke your heart?".

I didn't know why he was asking me that out of nowhere, so I replied,"The one and only". After connecting the dots about Alyssa and the Fullers, I asked the obvious question,"Is Alyssa Mrs. Fuller's daughter?"

He looked at me and nodded and with answered a "Mmm". I didn't know how to react now that I knew I would have to live in the same building with Roy's girlfriend.