What should I say . now ?

Next morning when I woke up , she layed their , near my bed . Her brown long hair shined through the sunlight . It reminded me of that girl .

Fuck myself !

Am I going crazy ? Over a teen little girl ???

I mean m a teen too ... but not innocent types ... I mean -

She was the prettiest thing I ever saw .

Her eyes large and beautiful to fall for .

Maybe because she was blind , I was interested in her? .

Yeah , maybe .

" you awake ? Baby ?" Jessica opened her eyes , and smiled .

" who untied you yesterday?" I asked rudely .

She made a face that said - really , early morning . You gonna ask me this ..?

But instead she said " it was loose , so I untied myself ". She lowered her head .

I stood up from the bed , " go cook me somethin!" I went towards the bathroom for a bath .

I came up with a towel wrapped around my waist . And the other towel in my hand , I rubbed my head with that one .

" where is mah food ? "I asked her .

She placed a plate of cereal bowl on the table , " here ! ".

Her eyes caught me then .

She looked at me from tip to toe , and licked her lips .

" what ?" I asked knowing that look .

" umm before you have your breakfast , can we umm make out ?" She asked , her small eyes filled with lust .

" BEFORE !??" I repeated her word .

" maybe after ?" She smiled , trying not make me angry .

" I don't want to fuck you now !" I answered .

I can see her face fell .

But I ignored her .

" okay okay ... have your cereal !" She made an awkward laugh .

When I put last spoon in my mouth of my cereal , she asked ,"umm you liked it ?" She asked .

I nodded .

" umm ..uhh .. would you mind if I ask you something babe ?" She came towrds me , caressing my neck .

" stand at a distance !" I was irritated by her touching me like that early morning .

" uh okay "Her eyes were filled with tears .

" speak !" I said .

" which girl were you talking about yesterday." She asked me , desperately , wiping her tears off . Quickly.

I looked at her with annoyance and irritation .

" this is the fuckin nonsense you ask me ? "

I kicked the table and and the chair next to her , put on my clothes and head out .

I called John then , " did your job ?" I asked in my harsh tone .

" uhh ..?? No not yet ... ( blabbling in the back ) shut up ! "

" what's happening in the back ?"

"Nothing !" He was panicked .

" what. Is .happening .in.the.back ?" I said rudely .

He hang up the call on my face .

What !!??

Did he really just do that !??

Did he forgot who m I ?

That son of a bitch needs a lesson .

Nasty little moron .

I'll make him remember who the real villain is !

I went up to his home . And smash the door . The hall is empty .

Maybe he is inside .

I went up to his room . And smashed open the door !

"Fuck !" My mouth cursed upon its own seeing the scene .

" dammit !" He was too shocked to see me .

I went downstairs, ashamed at the scene .

I waited for him to come .

After severely minutes ,

he came down .

" uhh hii , Murat .. care to tell me , what you are doing here ?"

" No ! You care to tell me ? What is wrong with you? ..." I lost my mind then .

" and why the hell , is song tied up in your room ? Like that ! ... don't tell me ..you tied him here , without his permission.." I walked towards him , with anger boiling .

He stepped back .

" look murat ..okay calm down . Okay ?

Just breathe .okay"

He stepped back defending himself .