1 Cold Early morning

My head is aching. I don't know why but I can't sleep even though I drunk an alcohol a while back.

Cold and lonely. I can't connect with people. A lot of people say I'm nice, just nice. I'm a girl that doesnt have a depth, can easily be forgotten. I'm not fun to be with.

I just feel like my inside is just a black hole.

I can have fun with strangers but people that I interact with all the time makes me stiff. I think strangers are people I wont remember and see the next day but relatives, friends, neighbors are different. I'm more at ease doing stupid rundom things with people I don't really know.

They do not know me, I can tell them anything or not at all.

The closest to are the people that can hurt you the most. I think I lost all my trust to someone, and I can't even remember the face anymore. Just the pain, so much pain and emptiness. I'd rather he stab me.

I might have face blindness but the back, mannerism, walk and all the other things are what I also want to forget.

I want to start over and the next time I won't make the same mistake anymore. Clean mind.

My mom was right. Don't give your all. Don't trust to much. love is just an emotion but trusting someone will hurt you more.