CHAPTER 18

My hands was cold and i'm trembling because of the fear i feel.I am here at St.Domingo Hospital where my father was confine.I don't know what happen but i really worried about my father.Even he always controlled my decisions,he still my father and no one can change that fact.

I asked the nurse where my father was and she said he was in the ICU.I suddenly ran towards the ICU,I saw my mother crying while looking at my father.We were not allowed to enter the room dahil may kailangan pa daw munang test na dapat gawin.I hugged my mother and cried on her shoulder.

Why god need to gave me this kind of pain and problem?Am i that bad?Why does he need to do this to my father?Kung ako naman pala ang nagkasala ay bakit hindi sa akin ibigay lahat?I willing to sacrifice just for the sake of my family.My knees was trembling so i need to sit down because in any time,i'm sure i will break down.

"Critical daw ang lagay niya."My mother suddenly spoke causing me to looked at her.Until now,i don't know what the reason about my dad's heart attack.

"Ano bang nangyari,Ma?"I asked.She looked at me bago sunod sunod ma tumulo ang mga luha niya.I'm trying to be strong enough but i just can't hold my tears.Hindi ko kayang makita silang umiiyak dahil bilang isang anak ay masasaktan ka talaga tuwing umiiyak ang magulang mo.

"Your father find out that Ryder was not a boy for you.Alam niyang nagdadala ng ibang babae si Ryder sa bahay niyo.At first,we still cool about it but when Zaire said that you're hurting,We decided to end the marriage even our company needs them."Her voice broke and she suddenly fell down on the floor. "We're sorry about everything.We should respect your decision pero nabulag kami sa pera."

Kahit pilitin kong maging matatag at huwag lumuha ay hindi ko padin pala kaya.Ang malaman na mas mahalaga sa magulang mo ang pera kesa sa iyo ay sobrang nakakadurog ng puso.Why people always craving for money instead of craving for someone's love?Why money was so important to thers while their own flesh and blood was nothing to them?

Pero kahit anong pilit kong magalit ay magulang ko parin naman sila.In the world,magulang mo ang huling tatalikod sayo.Dahil sa unang hakbang,pagsasalita,pagbabasa at pagsusulat mo ay sila ang kasama mo.Sila ang unang nagmahal sayo ng totoo dahil kung hindi ka nila minahal ay wala ka dito sa mundo.Kung hindi ka sa kanila mahalaga ay baka nasa lansangan ka at namumulot ng basura para lamang makakain.

I should be thankful that they never dumped me.I should be thankful that they never thought about aborting me.The family was not perfect,the love was.

We stood up when the doctor came out at my father's room.His face was not smiling.I held my mother's hand because i feel that we need each other on this problem.

"I'm sorry.We do our best to survive him but his body can't take it anymore."The doctor announce that make me stilled.My mind didn't function well right now.This was just a joke,right?This was just a prank,right?

"W-what?I heard it wrong."I tried to act normal but my tears continue streaming down to my face.I can't act cool because the doctor just freaking announce that my father was...Was..Dead.

"I'm sorry."The doctor said and leave us alone.I felt something on my heart was being stabbed million times.I looked at my father but it was covered with a white blanket with three nurse beside him.I tried to went inside but i couldn't because my mother was hugging me.

My knees weakened causing me to just fell on the ground.My heart was aching.Pakiramdam ko nawalan ako ng buhay.My father just lost.I remembered how he taught me how to choose the right path for my good.I remembered how he taught me to be who I am not minding other people say.He was the best father!

Why god need to take him?Why he need to get the father i loved the most?Why he need to gave me this kind of lost?I went inside the room just to saw him.The first man that loved me.My first love.My father.Now he's gone.

I heard my mother talked to the nurse to allow us to see my father and the nurse agreed.I held his hand that cold as an ice.

"I thought you will wait for your grandchildren?I thought you wil the last person that will leave my side?Pero bakit..."Sobs escape from my lips.I can't breathe.I can't take the pain anymore."P-pero bakit iniwan mo agad ako?Why you didn't fight?Bangon na diyan,Pa!Gagawan pa kita ng cake diba?J-just woke up,p-please.."

I tried to tapped him trying to woke him up like he was just sleeping.I just disappoint my self because i knew he wouldn't just stand up and smile at me.I lost the most important person on my life.I'm not around when he was suffering.I'm not around when he said his last word.

"Even if it's too late."I cleared my throat and wipe my tears but it didn't stop. "I just want to say I love you,Papa.You're the best father i have."

I stood up and ran outside his room.Hindi ko na kaya ang sakit na bumabalot sa buong puso ko.Tama nga ang kasabihan na nasa huli ang pagsisisi.I said I love you to my father but it's too late.If i could only bring back the time just to be with him again,i will spend my whole time to bond with him.

I held my chest trying to ease the pain i feel right now.I felt someone hugged me.I don't know who it was but it doesn't matter,as long as i'm comfortable.I cried until my tears stopped.Maski mga mata ko ay pagod na umiyak.

"I'm here,Scarlett.."I heard his voice and i'm sure it was Zaire.I looked at him before i hugged him again.

"Why does he need to take away like this?I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye."I cried.His shirt was so wet because of my tears.Even my i'm crying i tried to looked at his face. "Why are you here?"

"I know your parents.I'm helping your company."He said before he kissed me on my forehead.He smiled at me before his thumb wipe my tears away.His smile was convincing me that i can do this!I need to fight!

He held my hand at bago pa ako makapalag ay hila hila na niya ako patungong kotse niya.Hindi ko alam kung saan niya ako dadalhin pero hinayaan ko nalang siya.I trusted him enough.I went inside his car and he drove it.My body was tired so i just closed my eyes and let myself fell asleep.

I woke up when i felt someone was tapping me.When i opened my eyes,i saw Zaire smiling ear to ear.I roamed my eyes around.I nearly dropped my jaw when i realize that i'm on a plane!What the freaking hell?

"Why i'm here?"I asked him still roaming my eyes around.Kami lang ang tao at sa palagay ko ay isa ito sa mga private plane na pagmamay-ari ni Zaire.

"I'm planning to take you in my island on palawan."He said before he yawned and just closed his eyes.I rolled my eyes on him and tried to stand up but the plane suddenly moved causing me to sat on Zaire's lap.

I felt his arms encircled around my waist.I tried to free from his hugged but he didn't allowed me,instead he hugged me more tight.I didn't even bother to shout at him dahil baka natutulog na siya.I'm sure he was tired at work at siya din ang nagdrive kanina.

I don't know how many hours or minutes past but the pilot announce that we're going land.I feel excited because it was my first time going to palawan!I don't have time to travel because my parents won't allowed me.my mother was busy and my f-father....

My eyes watered when i remembered my father.He died.Hindi ko alam kung sino ang dapat kong sisihin sa nangyari pero tapos naman na ang lahat.Kahit may masisi man ako ay hindi na babalik pa ang buhay ng tatay ko.He was sleeping peacefully.

We went inside the van that waiting for us.I just looked outside the window,enjoying the view.Marami din akong nakikitang turista at tindahan sa paligid.Palawan was the best place to relax!The car suddenly stopped infront of the large gate.May pinindot doon ang driver ng sinasakyan namin before the gate automatically opemed.My lips formed 'O' dahil it was my first time seeing like that.

The ride was long but it all worth it when i saw the beach.It was so beautiful and calming.Maraming puno ng niyog sa paligid at tahimik ang alon ng dagat.It was perfect for me to relax my heart and brain.

I just remember that i don't have anything.I forget to get my phone and wallet.Wala din akong dalang damit dahil biglaan ang pagyaya sa akin ni Zaire na umalis.I roamed my eyes around the beach only to see Zaire's hot body.He was wearing a khaki short without something on top.His broad shoulder was exposed and his abs was so delicious.

I looked away trying to be act normal but i failed.I blushed.My vacation was not that bad at all.