CHAPTER 6

"Walang magdadala ng bisita without one's permission."

I just nodded and rolled my eyes at Ryder. He seems make that rule on his own without consulting me. Wala akong balak na kontrahin siya dahil masakit parin ang gitnang bahagi ng hita ko. I thought mawawala agad iyon but it's two days since that happen pero masakit parin talaga. Ganito ba talaga kapag una mo? It feels something sore. I don't know how to walk properly.

"Love, Do you hear me?You're spacing out again." He snapped his fingers infront of my face. I glared at him causing him to raise his arms like he surrending. I rolled my eyes once again and choose to ignore him. "Hey! Why are you ignoring me? Buntis ka na ba? It's goodnews if that is the problem." He giggled like a teenage boy.

Inis akong tumayo but he was fast enough to held my wrist and pulled me causing me to sat on his lap. I blushed when I remember what we did last time. I also felt the bulge between his thigh. It's awakaned, for goodness sake! I tried to free from him but he was strong so I just surrender. Kumirot ang bahaging iyon ng hita ko sa paghatak niya sa akin kanina but when he rubbed the bulge on my butt, I felt pleasure and not pain. Uhh, what's the problem on my body? Simula ng may nangyari sa amin, my body always react abnormally. I mean, when he's near I felt my heart beat fast and I felt that my world became slowmotion.

"You're butt is so hot, love." His voice was seducing me. It's sexy and hot at the same time. He showered my neck a few kisses before claiming my lips into a passionate kiss. I opened my mouth to welcome his kisses.

He pushed his tounge inside my mouth, exploring me. I felt the urge to stop, but I didn't. This is feels good than anything. If possible, I will kiss him everyday. He ended the kiss and smirked. I glared at him when he smile teasingly at me.

"Love, I know you want me. And you know, I want you too. But, not here. We are infront of the foods." He winked. I punch his arms, he winced in pain but who cares? Naiinis parin ako sa pagmumukha niya at ayaw ko siyang makita.

Naisip ko ulit ang nangyari sa amin at ang nangyari sa hotel kung saan naganap ang reception. He fucked other woman, right? Tumayo ako mula sa pagkaka-kandong at inis na hinarap siya.

"You fucked other girl, so it means that I can fuck other men too?" I asked but I didn't mean what I said. I'm not a bitch nor slut to do that thing.

I saw him stilled but he glared at me. I don't know why but I can sense his anger. So, siya pa ang galit? How dare him to make love with me but he fucked other woman? Ako nga kahit isang beses hindi ginawa iyon?! Tapos siya parang papel lang ang mga babae para sa kanya. It's like that when he crumpled one of a paper, he will get another one to used.

"Don't you dare, Scarlett! Don't you dare!" He shouted. He was mad and he was scary by now. In his looks, I'm sure he can kill someone using his hands. My knees became weak because of his aura. Shit! What did I say?! I didn't mean that pero nadala lang talaga ako ng inis sa kanya.

I tried to be brave even though I'm shaking inside. "I dare. I will call Aeron to fucked me and you can't do anything about it." I shrugged my shoulders and smirked. And I felt sorry on Aeron because I used his name.

"Fuck!" He walk towards me then carry me on a bridal style. Oh my gosh! We headed towards the master bedroom which is our room. I don't know pero hindi na ako nanlaban dahil baka mahulog pa ako. He lay me on the bed and tear my shirt. "Fuck! You're mine! And I kill someone if they will touch you!" He said before claiming my lips into a kiss.

When I woke up, I saw Ryder sleeping peacefully. I stood up then reached for my phone. I call aeron to meet me and talk about something. I want to know what his opinion in my feelings towards Ryder. I want to clarify all about this.

I saw him on the café we used to go. May baso na sa harap niya tanda na matagal na siyang nandito. I apologize to him for being late but he just smiled and said it was fine.

"Anong pag-uusapan natin?" He asked breaking the silent between us.

I swallowed hard and cleared my throat. "I just want a clarification about my feelings towards Ryder." I said then looked away when I saw him smiled teasingly.

"What about it?" He became playful but I choose to ignore. I didn't meet him to be pissed.

"When he was near, I felt my heart beats fast." I explained everything to him and he just listened.

After I done telling the story, He laugh hard and I nearly punch his jaw when he didn't stop. Nakakuha na rin siya ng audience around the café. I saw how the group of high school student giggled as they stared at Aeron.

"You like him or you love him. That's the only choice." He said. His phone beeped and I saw someone calling him. He excused himself and I just nodded. I think the first choice is what I feel towards him. I like him, romantically. I admit it.

"Sorry, Scarlett. But, I need to go. It's urgent." He bid his goodbye and I just waved my hands on him. I paid for the bill then drove my car towards our house.

I smiled when I just thought being with Ryder. He was the sweetest husband I ever know. Even though he had some imperfections, he didn't fail to make me blush and smiled. I admire him for that.

I just park my car outside our house and get the key and entered our house. I decided to cooked dinner for Ryder but I stiffined when I saw something that broke my heart. I didn't expect this. I dropped what I was holding causing them to looked at me but they just ignored me like no one's watching them.

My heart ripped apart and I felt the urge to cry but I stop myself. They're not worth my precious tears. I just pretend I didn't hear their moans and groans. Pinulot ko ang mga gamit na nahulog ko at dumiretso sa kusina. Great! Just great!

Dumaan ako sa harapan nila pero hindi ko sila dinapuan ng tingin. I just said to myself that it's nothing. Bakit ko nga ba binigyan ng malisya ang ipinapakita ni Ryder? In the first place, I know that he was a playboy. I know that he was a jerk na puro kamanyakan lang ang alam. But, still I trusted him. I trusted him to point that I gave up my virginity just to satisfy his need. I thought he will changed for that but I just disappoint myself.

I hear what the girl moaning. She was near. I stared at them at siniguro kong hindi nila ako makikita. I felt that my eyes watered and I just looked at the ceiling to stopped myself from crying.

I want this but the pain continue to consume my heart. This is the first time I felt this kind of pain. This is the first time I watch the man I like with someone and worst, they fucking like no one else here.

Ryder just made it clear na walang magdadala ng bisita sa bahay unless may permission sa aming dalawa but he just broke it for a woman. Naisip ko lang na hindi ba ako naging sapat sa pangangailangan niya para maghanap pa siya ng ibang babae para isatisfy ang katawan niya. Kung sinabi niya lang willing naman akong manood ng ilang klase ng porn movie.

He just said that he doesn't want me to touch by other man pero siya naman ang nagpapahawak sa iba. Maybe I should not listen to him dahil lahat naman ng sinasabi niya hindi din niya tinutupad. I sighed bago sila talikuran.

Kung may lakas lang ako ng loob na komprontahin siya, noon ko pa sana ginawa pero alam kong hindi ko kaya. Nung una pa lang sinabi niya na ako lang ang babaeng pwede sa kama pero hindi pwede sa kanya. Masyado siyang mataas at hindi ko siya kayang abutin.

What did I expect from him? Gusto niya lang na painitin ko ang kama niya kapag walang ibang babaeng umaaligid sa kanya at ako naman itong si tanga na nagpa-uto at nagpadala. I should stopped my feelings for him habang hindi pa ito lumalalim. In the first place, this wedding was just for the business. Nothing else.

I reached for my phone and called Aeron. I hope his work was done at pwede na niya akong masamahan ngayon. I need someone that understand me and it's only Aeron who knows me well.

"Aeron..." I called his name and then sobs escape my lips.

"Why? Anong nangyari scarlett?" Nataranta ang boses niya but there's a worry on it. I know he will came here. I just know because he is the only bestfriend I have.

"I need you in our house." I beg. "Please, come."

As I ended the call my gaze dropped on Ryder who seems enjoying the girl. His smile was the proof. I don't know kung anong magiging reaksyon ni Aeron but I still need him in this situation. Siya lang muna ang kailangan ko. Ayaw ko ng iba dahil siya ang taong pinagkakatiwalaan ko higit pa sa pagtitiwala ko kay Ryder o kahit nino man

Gusto kong magsumbong kay Aeron dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko. Gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na hindi ko na kaya ang sakit at gusto kong yakapin siya para mapagaan ang loob ko. If possible gusto kong siya nalang ang naging asawa ko but the fate was so cruel to me.

I hope that my heart can take the pain.